How I Know That It’s Never Too Late

How I Know That It’s Never Too Late

August 8, 2017

“We love because he first loved us.” 1 John 4:19 (NIV)

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Twenty-five years ago, I held a newborn baby in my arms.

She was beautiful, tiny.

Mine.

And I was young — 19 to be exact.

I was a unmarried teenage mom and a sophomore in college. The year of my daughter’s birth was one of the most difficult years of my life. It was hard — very hard.

A positive pregnancy test set off a string of new realities in my life, one of which was a strong feeling of a lack of worth. I had messed up and disappointed the people I loved. I was on my way to being “mom” in a season of life where I planned on being a kid. I was no longer the “good girl” I’d once tried to be.

I wondered, sometimes out loud, Does God still love me?

Pain mixed with a little shock, a ton of remorse, and lots of uncertainty left me feeling unlovable, unredeemable and out of God’s good graces.

I knew He loved me, but didn’t feel it. Instead I felt alone, in the dark and cold.

During one of those lonely moments, I reached for my Bible and searched for reassurance of God’s love for me. I believed God loved me no matter what, yet I just needed proof. I needed a reminder to rest in and rehearse so I wouldn’t forget or doubt the reality of His love in my life.

I wrote one verse down on a sheet of notebook paper. That one verse became two, then five, then over time became two pages of Scripture to remind me how God loved me.

I kept those notebook papers with me at all times — folded in my pocket or my purse or my backpack as I went to class.

Over time, I’ve learned to believe God’s love for me is unconditional. While He does indeed desire for me to obey His Word and walk in righteousness, His acceptance of me does not ride or die on whether or not I measure up. Consequences ebb and flow with my choices, but His everlasting love does not.

As I rehearsed those verses that represented a lifeline to His love, I learned to believe in His love for me in a very deep and real way. And the more I understood His love, the more I wanted to live a life that exemplified the love I desired to offer to Him in return, just as our key verse reminds us: “We love because he first loved us” (1 John 4:19).

I recently dug out those pieces of paper. They’re still intact, though they’ve yellowed with time. As I held them in my hands, I was overcome by the gift of God’s love to an imperfect person like me.

Not only does God love me unconditionally, He loved and always loves me first. God doesn’t wait on me to come to Him ready with everything together or with all my ducks in a row. He’s loved me — and continues to love me — to live the life of the girl He created me to be.

Since those college days, I have had my fair share of hard times. But one thing hasn’t changed.

I know He loves me. And I’ve learned more deeply over time to believe in my value to God and trust what He thinks of me, regardless of where life has led me thus far. I understand more about how He wants me to live my life, knowing He has made me beautiful, strong and powerful in Him.

As long as I still have breath in my lungs, it’s never too late to choose to live her life … the life of the girl who feels lost. Or forgotten. The girl who’s made mistakes.

Or the life of the girl who simply needs to stop wasting time and move forward with what she knows she should do.

How do I know it’s never too late to know the love of God? Because it wasn’t too late for me.

And here’s what I know — it’s never too late for you to seek His Word, His face, His heart and His hopes for the life of the girl in you.

Dear Father, sometimes I struggle to believe You love me and You can redeem my story and life, however it’s played out thus far. I want to be exactly who You created me to be. Give me the confidence to believe in Your love for me and Your plan for my life. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

TRUTH FOR TODAY:
Romans 5:8, “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (NIV)

RELATED RESOURCES:
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CONNECT:
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REFLECT AND RESPOND:
No matter where you are, what you’ve done, or what you are facing, God is on your side. Are you struggling to believe this truth? If so, why? If not, which Scriptures or encouragement can you share with someone who is?

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  1. I have been there…messed up big time, more times than I care to remember. I thank God for His forgiveness and that each day He is making me more into the woman He intends me to be. He has blessed me with more than I could ever imagine or ask for and I know He loves me.

  2. God’s love and grace is amazing. I needed this today, I would love to own this book.

  3. So amazing, that where this woman has gone and what I have done, my Father still loves me.

  4. Oh Chrystal, those precious papers in your pocket or backpack . . . they bring to mind the message of Deuteronomy 6: “Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates.” And “Impress them on your children.” Thank you for impressing God’s word on all his children reading your message today.

  5. Amen Chrystal!!!! I am so glad God has shown me what his unconditional love is. I remind myself if Romans 8:35. ~Lisa~

  6. But God……

  7. Kristen Lester says:

    Wow…wow…wow!
    God’s timing is always impeccable. I have been on a journey looking for me. Reading just the title She’s Still There was as if He reached down and whispered I Am Jehovah Roi…I see you in there.
    Tears of sweet joy. Thank you.

  8. Thankful for your message today. ❤️

  9. Kristen Kreuzwieser says:

    Thank you SO much for this!!! I can relate & appreciate your openness and encouragement. Some Christians hurt their wounded when they need encouragement. We all sin and have faults & failures, but few will rarely admit openly. For people whose faults & failures are more apparent, judgement flows freely. Then of course there’s the judgement I place on myself. Despite these things, I have an amazing relationship with God because of all He has seen and loved me through. It was so nice to read this today & be reminded of this truth.

  10. Mona Riggs says:

    Perfect timing on this. Is it possible to get a list of the scripture references she wrote down 25 years ago?

    • Go to shesstillthere.com Scroll down until you see “FREE GIFTS FOR YOU” the “Reminders of God’s Love are there for you to download 🙂

      • This was a beautiful story and thanks for having those verses accessible! Also,this is random and very belated, but I loved your devotional on Martin Luther King! I felt that you gave all glory to God while showing how we can learn from a human made in His image.

  11. Thank you! 🙏🏼

  12. Denise Daniel says:

    Guilt, remorse, shame, regret. They are my friends. I divorced after 30 years of marriage 12 years ago. My son was 28 at the time, daughter, 26. Any kind of relationship with my son has been rocky at best. Recently I’ve been ‘detached’ from he, his wife and my grand children’s lives. Detachment. What? God hates sin, yet He unconditionally loves me – even when I don’t or cannot love myself. Thank you for reminders of humanness. Thank you for Scripture. Thank you just because!!!

    • I’m living the same nightmare. I can’t contact them at all. No one can understand this kind of pain except those who live it. God is in control and we have to trust that he knows best. We can’t change the past, but we can change our future with God’s grace. Take care my sister, I’ll be praying for you.

  13. Shirley Stallworth says:

    Dear Chrystal

    What an inspiring peace. I am reminded of Isiah 61:3 “beauty for your ashes” Those fears of loneliness and the unknown concerning becoming a mother drew you closer to God and because of your faith he gave you this awesome gift of the narrative. Each piece from you that I have been blessed to read touches me deeply. Thank you for not giving up !!!

    Shirley

    • Courtney says:

      This was the scripture I stood on during a devasting time in my marriage… thank yo for the reminder! God’s Word is true!

  14. Carol Wilderman says:

    I struggle with my past and wonder if I can ever be that woman that He created.Because in all honesty I’m not sure who I am, what my thoughts are, are they my own or things I read and see. I would like to be closer to Him, that I know

  15. Leslie Dillon says:

    Looking forward to reading the book!
    Listened to the live cast from She Speaks!
    Excellent… keep telling your story! I have to say I want to visit San Francisco now!👍🏻😌
    May God continue to bless you and your ministry.

  16. great message! Needed this today! Blessings to you for sharing your story.

  17. Amazing. Thank you. She is still there, and the only one who can truly rescue her is Our Lord.

  18. Stephanie Franz says:

    Thank you

  19. Wow…..I SO needed to hear this today! Was just praying on my way to work how lost I was feeling and how undeserving I am to even pray to Him because of my words and actions lately. I truly believe God led me to this devotional today to remind me that I’m loved and accepted no matter how ashamed of myself I am. That his mercy and forgiveness are waiting for me if I just cry out to him.

  20. Thank you for this. I needed it so much. Feels like an answer to prayer.

  21. Kourtney Sligh says:

    Isaiah 45:3
    3 I will give you hidden treasures,
    riches stored in secret places,
    so that you may know that I am the Lord,
    the God of Israel, who summons you by name.

  22. Rena Taylor says:

    Philliphans 4:13….. I can do all things through Christ who strengthen me..

    • NOEL CAREY says:

      ANYONE LOOKING FOR HOPE AND RENEWAL HAS AS THE TOOLS THE HOLY BIBLE, AND START WITH
      PHILLIPHANS 4:13 CONTINUE IN THE BIBLE DAY BY DAY AND YOU WILL NOTICE THE CHANGE IN
      ATTITUDES AND LIVING.

  23. I feel like I’ve been struggling with who I am and loving her for all of my life. I feel like I never have, and never will, measure up. I know the Lord loves me. I know Scripture verses and I can recite several. I have verses, and different version of His Word all around me, but I can’t feel it and I am constantly doubting and quitting. I am REALLY looking forward to this study!

  24. June Valiquet says:

    My story is similar but I was 15. I did not know God I was Catholic with head knowledge only. The shock and shame was terrible. I was sent to a home for unwed mothers run by nuns. My mother did not want anyone to know So it became a Huge secret a had to live with. I did give my daughter away. I wanted her but I had nothing to give her and I wanted her to have a normal life with a Mom and Dad. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. It was 10 years later I came to know Jesus. He has changed my life but regrets remain with me. Look forward to your study

  25. This is just the opposite for me. I had a lack of worth and felt like I disappointed people in my family because I did not have kids and the one man I thought I would be with forever I could not keep and he has a family with someone else. I still feel the pain of it because my life has not changed. I am still single and childless. I had hope for those things when I was younger but I am 46 and I may have to come to grips with being alone which puts such an ache in my heart.

    • CW I just wanted to tell you I hear you and share your pain. I am asking God to come in a special way today and fill up the hurting, empty places in your heart. You are precious and loved,

  26. Patsy Mendoza says:

    I feel that one has every love me from my mom family members and now my new found boy friend since I am a window of 11 years I have had alonly life

  27. Angie Jakes says:

    Thank you for sharing this message and also your story. 🙂

  28. Sometimes I picture myself in front of God all bruised and battered, with my mistakes and faults tattooed on my body — but God reaches His hand out and loves me anyway. That image is so powerful in my mind. It’s what keeps me going knowing that His love is unconditional.

    • Britt, your words felt so raw and real to me as I read them. That is exactly how I feel. Sometimes it is hard to accept that Jesus washes all of those marks right off of us, no stain is beyond His cleansing. No pain beyond His healing. Love the image you described.

  29. Oh my goodness what a wonderfully blessed way to start my day! Thank you for your experiences and insight! Sharing with my girlfriends and daughters!

  30. Thanks for sharing this Crystal! Brought tears to my eyes.

  31. Jenn Enriquez says:

    For as long as I can remember, I kept myself away from God. I was angry at him for circumstances in my life that were painful to say the least. I thought that if he loved me like he said he did – then why did he let things happen in my life that hurt me so much? I was not looking at the blessings he provided me, just the pain. A year and a half (or a little more) my husband left our family…infidelity. Although I have been fighting tooth and nail for my marriage of 14 years and family during this season, and want nothing more than to restore and renew my family with the presence of my husband… When that happened I had an immeasurable pain, but instead of blaming God for the pain… I went to Him as the one person who could make me whole. I went back to God, but this time with fierceness and strong desire. He has shown me his love time and time again through these struggles. He has dried my tears, and held my heart in his hands. Although I again struggle with the “why” of the world and my circumstances, I also marvel in the blessings he has given me and the ability to be well on my way to being who he desires me to be. I know that He has a greater plan for my life, even when I cannot see it – and I know that he never brings me harm, just good. I hold that close to my heart on the hard days. I praise him first for what He has done for me before I ever bring Him my needs, I praise him and speak to him daily in the wait, and my heart is his first. His word brings me comfort, it brings me joy, and I truly believe that he is my rock and refuge.

  32. Chrystal – your story touched my heart as it is similar to mine. Although, I was younger and it was over 40 years ago. I did not know the Lord and wandered in a desert for 10 long years before accepting Him as my Lord and Savior. Thank you for having the courage to share your story, it is encouraging me to look more closely at mine with God’s eyes and heart.

  33. Jeremiah 29:11
    For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.

    Recently I was walking with my daughter through a season of uncertainty with issues of the heart. We knew that God had/has a plan but we just couldn’t see what it would be. He sent this verse over and over, even boldly placing it in stores around town to keep popping up in our view. We leaned into this together and are now watching God ever so delicately unfold a beautiful story. He is beyond amazing, there is nothing we can do to earn His grace and He loves us beyond measure. Waiting is ever so hard when your hurting but His plans, they are always better than we could ever imagine!

  34. Elizabeth says:

    Thank you very much for great devotion! very encouraging!

  35. I was 15. With the support of my family, I tried to continue to grow up but in my head I became a parent and by the time I was 20 I was married and decided to have another child. By 22, I escaped an abusive marriage and became a single parent determined to raise my kids alone. With God’s help, I was successful. Both children are educated and doing well. My story is a combination of yours and some others here. However, your story touched me because it reflects on the grace of God’s that got you through this. However, the enemy was busy and still is. I have always known God and I give Him glory for helping me raise my children but that baby born to a baby at 15 looks at the world through different eyes. She feels cheated because of how she came into the world. The moment she was old enough to compare her life with others, I failed to be good enough to be her mother. That didn’t matter much to me until she was older. I was determined to be a good mother and I was. Now she is almost 50 but worse than ever. God loves us through our mistakes. He uses the bad and makes it good. But satan will accuse us through them until we die. His lie to me is that I can never be what God ordained for me – that it is too late. And he tries to use my mistake at 15 to condemn me. I did not give up my child when I was a teenager. I raised her. But I have to give her up at 63. I am alive today to fulfill God’s plan for my life and I am so thankful that He kept me.

  36. Anne Neemann says:

    Loved this! !!!

  37. This is precious,and it touched me deeply. Why WHY is it so very hard to believe and trust in the fact that the Lord loves me unconditionally. I know it, been told it, taught it,read it. But I just have a hard time believing it. My walk with Him is almost null and void. I don’t know how to get back to Him and that scares me. He loves me ,maybe that’s the beginning…

    • Maryann Edwards says:

      Myrna, I love the devotional book called “Jesus Calling” by Sarah Young, you can find it most anywhere. It is so good and helped me a lot. I still continue to read it years later. God bless you!

  38. Thank for this devotion this morning!

  39. I have been there with the struggles, so long ago. I was too involved with an older man and drugs to even acknowledge myself and most importantly God. Its been 11 years that I have been clean and sober and very much in love with God. I have been married for 3 years to a man of God, we have a 2 year old and one coming in 3 weeks. I feel that he’s not here for me the way he needs to be and I am struggling with it greatly. I feel alone and feel that I am doing this all by myself. I know that God loves me and is protecting me, it’s just hard to have that constant reminder when times are hard and not making the Lord a first priority. My scripture is, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. This is my favorite verse and I need to constantly be reminded that through him anything and everything is possible.

  40. I am in a pit now of my own making and it’s a hard season. I know with all my heart the God CAN redeem it if he so wishes I’m just not sure He wants to, and that’s where the struggle is difficult.

  41. Hi, I am learning a new season of my life, and it is so hard…you see, I lost the love of my life to cancer this year…we were married over fifty years, and had known each other almost sixty years. That is a long, long life-time! We were best friends as well as husband and wife…we shared all our thoughts and feelings…we talked about everything. he was so patient with me, and the most gentle and kindest man. I miss him so much, but I know he is with our Father in Heaven waiting for me to join him there. There was a time he could have divorced me with good reason, but he decided to stay with me and forgive me for the bad choices I made. I am so thankful he made that choice..we went on to live a very happy life to the end. If not for my faith in God and trust in Him, I could not bear this pain of grief I am going through.
    I have just signed up for your emails and devotions Sunday, and already you have given me. I have days when I feel so lost and alone, but I put my faith in God, and I know He is always with me and He is always taking care of my every need. Thank you for your emails, Chyrstal.

  42. Hi, I am learning a new season of my life, and it is so hard…you see, I lost the love of my life to cancer this year…we were married over fifty years, and had known each other almost sixty years. That is a long, long life-time! We were best friends as well as husband and wife…we shared all our thoughts and feelings…we talked about everything. he was so patient with me, and the most gentle and kindest man. I miss him so much, but I know he is with our Father in Heaven waiting for me to join him there. There was a time he could have divorced me with good reason, but he decided to stay with me and forgive me for the bad choices I made. I am so thankful he made that choice..we went on to live a very happy life to the end. If not for my faith in God and trust in Him, I could not bear this pain of grief I am going through.
    I have just signed up for your emails and devotions Sunday, and already you have given me. I have days when I feel so lost and alone.. Thank you for your emails, Chyrstal.

  43. Thank you for your message. I can’t wait to get into your book soon during the P31 study. We have all fallen into that negative pitt but our God is an awesome God and is always there for us.

  44. Is it possible to participate in your Bible study without buying your book…. or… can the book be bought in an online version? I am traveling, for long periods of time, do not not have a permanent home now, can’t be buying and carrying around real books. I do have my Bible! Thank you. I appreciated your devotional today. Barbara

    • It’s better for yourself to have the book but you can always participate without it. Reading the daily blog posts and watching the videos is helpful with or without it.

      The books are also usually available electronically either on the P31 website or iBooks.

  45. Loved this!

  46. How amazing His grace is. Something that needs to be reminded often during the day. What a worthy God we serve. Thank you for sharing your heart, your book, and you. Would love some swag . . . .

  47. Exactly where I am right now… thank you for sharing. Just when I told myself it’s enough , am tired of feeling this way. Am actually on my way from my 1st counseling session. I believe it’s about time God makes changes in my life. Help my unbelief dear God!

  48. I remember the day I found out I was going to be a mom. My mom nearly had a nervous breakdown. I was only 16. Being a single mom herself, my mom’s first words that I remember were, “I had so many plans for you”. So did I. I was going to travel the world. I was going to be a world famous journalist. Having a kid was NO WHERE in sight for me. Yet, here I was. 16 and pregnant… This book Chrystal has written has had me on a roller coaster ride! All sorts of emotions came flooding back for me. But the most wonderful thing I have to say is that I’m thankful. So thankful for all of the stories that have been shared, especially, Chrystal’s transparency and encouragement. My life verse is Romans 8:28, because I’ve learned that throughout it all, the ups, the downs, the bumps, the bruises, the highs, and the lows, ALL of these things have worked out for my good!

  49. Chrystal Payne says:

    Wonderfully written! I could relate to everything you went through! I hope this story reaches a lot of young girls. Oh, how I needed this in my early twenties with my first child! Thanks for sharing. Your story has blessed me in a way you would never know!

  50. Tiffany B says:

    This honesty will be helpful to so many who are struggling with past choices.

    Her book is so good! I don’t even have a similar issue (but my life doesn’t look like I planned!), and this book was encouraging!

  51. Deborah R says:

    I absolutely loved yesterday’s podcast. So yesterday I preordered the book but for some reason didn’t see the spot about “goodies” 😕 Did I miss out ? Oh btw you are the sweetest orator I’ve heard on a podcast. My story is so unusual but I feel that on the other side of the pain I’ll be able to help women who have actually walked my path and that it’s not that odd. I’m currently in the process of divorce because my husband confessed to me more than once in our marriage that he struggles to be attracted to me. While this could lead to lots of questions as to why he’d marry me or his sexual preference, I believe it’s a deep wound in himself he refuses to be look at and pride keeps him from surrendering and this breaks my heart for him. After years of deep rejection and loneliness and his unwillingness to work toward healing we decided we would go our separate ways. It’s truly the saddest thing because he’s a great husband in many other ways. But because of this I’m now seeking to find the girl that’s been lost and rejected for many years just looking for acceptance in the eyes of others. While this is a process I’m thankful for the Words Jesus spoke to my heart just recently, “Being Mine is enough”. Wow. Letting that sink in and finding approval and acceptance in Him is my new journey. Thanks for tools to help the healing process for me and many others. I wish you abundant blessings ❤️

  52. Thanks so much for this devotional. I am in the process of a divorce after 33 years of marriage. He was the one that decided to give up on our marriage. I don’t know why, he totally blindsided me-other than I think he has a friend (so he calls her just a friend). She is like 6 or 7 years older than him and I was 8 years younger. It is a hard road to go down when you love someone so much and gave it your all. I know God has a plan for me and I will get stronger with his love.

  53. Most of your words were from MY heart. God had you say what is going on in my heart. To “feel.” I want to feel. When I am blessed with something from my boys or from my husband, I recognize it is there love for me, but it doesn’t get to me. I haven’t been able to “feel” it in such a long time. I have often prayed throughout my life with the Lord that He would control my emotions. But what has happened to those “feelings?”

  54. Susan G. says:

    Thanks for this transparent and encouraging word today.
    Beautiful. And so true is His love for us…

  55. I so needed this. I’ve messed up countless times but recently messed up BIG time. Lately, I’ve been questioning whether or not God still loved me. Thank you so much for this.

  56. Cathy Hawkins says:

    We’ll this is my second time today to write my story due to this devotion..I was pouring my heart out and was about to post and hit wrong button….I said satan you may have thought,you are not gonna post those words for people to read,but I got it off my chest and GOD knows every word I wrote..and I’ll start again with my story…I’m a 51 year old lady that’s had a heavy heart for probably most of my adult years..as a child my sister and I had two great parents.my mom was the one that got us in church as children..as I grew up and got in high school,I was the sister that my daddy began to call his rebel gypsy…it was funny to me because I went on trips,concerts and was always into something.well by this time church was the farthest thing from my mind..I had discovered several sins that I thought….this is not bad and I’m a good giving person…well several turned into satan grabbing on and me really not knowing..this went on for the better part of my life.at times I would go to church but go right back to the way I was which was not for GOD.I had a great family and I was a kind giving person…..one day a few years back my sister and I was talking about GOD AND THE BIBLE…I as i well I ‘ve been saved when I was younger and I’m a good person…she said to me but sis,look at how you are living and things you are doing…she also you cannot get into HEAVEN unless you are a true christian…it went in one ear and out the other…as I got older I had tried to change things in my life but not hard enough because I continued on that same path of destruction.over the last year I have just let Satan keep that grip and ontop of that fell deep into depression…satan had me bound….I did not care..I knew I was tired of being tired but was stuck.I could feel the hold he had over me.I thought my family did not love me…. (my daddy had passed in 2002 as a christian….took him awhile but we knew where he had gone)..but like I said I tried to distance myself from nut family,church,and positive people…I was and have been living in misarable life..well a week ago I got sick and had to go to the hospital and got admitted and during my stay my I sunk more into that hole and Satan’s grub got tighter.my sister had called to check on me and we got into kinda a disagreement and I said….I’m telling you like I told momma earlier..y’all don’t care and i don’t need y’all to help me….she said we love you and are not giving up on you,but if you don’t get a hold of yourself we are gonna bury you…my response was pretty much thanks but no thanks….a little after getting off the phone,I began to think I can’t get through all of this without my family…I need them and I said do you hear me GOD…at that second that grip satan had loosened a bit…the day went on and people my heart was heavy…that evening in walks my pastor and his wife..he said just wanted to take five minutes and see you and have a word of prayer..I began to cry and said have you got a few extra minutes…he said,got all the time you need sister…I began to pour my heart out and held nothing back.we talked for alot longer than five minutes and he said it’s not just you.us Christians have to fight everyday due to satan and what power he does have,cause he is strong but I know and you know even if you don’t feel it someone stronger….I said to him,yes pastor you are right….I know GOD HAS GOT ME THROUGH SOME BAD THINGS AND HE REALLY HAS BEEN WITH ME LATELY BECAUSE IF NOT THEN THIS WOULD NOT BE A VIST…IT WOULD BE A FUNERAL…I felt that grip loosen a little more the longer we talked..I said in tired of living this way and he said then let us pray…once he and his wife and yes….even me…I felt that grip of satan let go..what a feeling people..after he finished praying and preaching all in one I felt something but it was a lobbing feeling.he said you are gonna be ok.just keep fighting and know you are not alone…I’ve got a long road ahead of me but with GOD,my family and positive people…..the devil may temp me but he will not have a grip on me again..I ask that you all keep me in your prayers…thank you and GOD BLESS

  57. Thank you for sharing your story. We have all experienced things in our lives that make us wonder if God still loves us. God is good, All the time.

  58. Always love to read your words, Chrystal! Thank you, again for another beautiful message!

  59. Mandy M. says:

    Thanks so much for this. Although I was not in the same situation, I learned something very important from this devotional. I struggle every single day with my regrets, sometimes to the point where I break down. However, it was really comforting to know that despite our sins, God still loves us anyway. I’ll admit that I’ve done a lot of bad things that I wish I hadn’t done. But the most beautiful thing is that he forgives us no matter what. It’s time to stop letting the enemy rip us apart. It’s time to stop telling ourselves “He could never forgive me!” or “I am unlovable because of what I have done!!” Don’t let the enemy attack. And don’t forget that God sees all sin as equal. No sin is greater than the other, so do not compare them with others.
    If you’re struggling with any kind of regret or pain, please take the time to pray with me…
    Dear Lord,
    We thank you for your unconditional love and the mercy you have always been willing to give us. We are sinners, and have all fallen short of your glory. Lord, today we ask for your forgiveness. Only you can redeem us. Father, please help us with our sin and regrets as each day passes. We love you Lord, and we know you feel our pain. Thank you for dying for our sins, and for washing away all our stains. In Jesus’ we pray, Amen.

    As Jesus died on the cross, our sins were already forgiven, even before we had done them.
    God bless!

  60. I am having trouble God loves me at times. Why? I think because I haven’t heard from Him in years and I feel like He isn’t there for me anymore.

  61. You read my heart. Thanka for sharing this post. I need to know which scriptures inspired you. Please share if possible. Deep thanks from the bottom of my heart again.

  62. Good message Ms. Chrystal, I am so glad you keep a bible versus in your pocket. That is what I call a food for thought. Many people struggle all kind of problems. I am so glad we have a Savior, who take care of us. Being a young single mom was hard. Stand back and look how the Lord made a way out of no way. AMEN

  63. Vanity Duran says:

    Thank you, Chrystal, for sharing your story. I’m currently expecting a child and while it’s usually great news for many, it was anything but great for my family. I, too, felt that I was no longer the “good” girl that I was always seen to be. At one point I wasn’t even sure if the baby came out of spite or if it was actually a blessing. So while I’ve been reading the Bible on and off for a few years now, I’m back to reading it.

    There are so many scriptures that can help with encouragement. Whether it’s written directly or we need to take some time to reflect on the words we just read, there’s always an answer in scripture. I can’t offer a particular scripture, but one exercise that I do before turning to a random scripture is asking a question to myself and praying that before I open up the Bible to the selected scripture (scanning to a random page) I pray that in there lies an answer or encouragement from God. Try it out, I hope it works for you like it does for me.

    Many blessings, xo.

  64. Janice Alston says:

    Love this message. Very, inspiring words. Glad you kept your papers with you. I love how you was able to reach for your bible. I too, reaches for my bible more often lately lthan I have ever. Seeking God as my guide in good times, and through all the difficult trials in ny life. Love this message.

  65. One of the many scripture verses that remind me God is always there us Psalms 37:24… “Though I fall I will not be utterly cast down; but upheld by Your hand”.

  66. Wow! Just wow! I have been there. I was that 19 year old girl holding a tiny baby girl in the hospital. My family definitely made no qualms about telling me,This is it. This is your life now. How could something so beautiful and so miraculous signal the end? My curch upbringing consisted of fire and brimstone, so I didn’t know the loving Father that He truly is. In my mind I had already failed Him by being an unwed teen mom. I am so thankful that I know Him now. I have struggled and I am still struggling with things today but I have Him and He has me. I am so excited to read your book! I even got one for my best friend! Who knew that a blog about skinny jeans(the first one of your blogs I read) would effect my life in such a way! God Bless you and I can’t wait to read the book!

  67. I enjoyed your transparency. I am there and in need of much prayer. How can one of God’s Chosen Children’s life be in such a mess? I have lost myself in my blessings. I know God is with me but I can’t feel Him because I am not actively keeping up
    My part of the relationship. I’m getting ready to actively pursue separation/divorce from the person I married 11 years ago and I just don’t know anymore. As a mom of 3 I feel that I am a total disappointment to my kids and a mockery to my community and church family. I guess the least I could have done was be satisfied with all the maltreatment. It’s not all of his fault but for some reason I feel that I should known! I’m going to eventually be okay but I need much prayer! Tks!

  68. I am so thankful that God’s mercies are new every day and that he is patient with us, always there for us to turn to Him. His love just amazes me – it is so hard to grasp! I look forward to your book and to digging into God’s Word to learn even more about Him.

  69. What a good reminder, thank you!

  70. Glenda Floyd Johnson says:

    My Mom also has me at 19 under same type situation. She always told me I was her blessing!

  71. Thank you for sharing your heart!

  72. Thank you for sharing!

  73. I thoroughly enjoyed this article. I was once in a deep time in my life, and just like you, God lifted me out; I had to trust him. Thanks for sharing.

  74. MICHELLE JONES says:

    I can’t seem to tap into HER. I am 46 yrs old. I don’t know if there is a HER. I had to grow up fast after becoming a mother at 18. Prior to that there were 2 abortions and one after my child. Talk about screwed up. I had no parent I could talk to. I didn’t know my biological father. My stepfather was out of the picture and my mother and I had never been close. I just can’t seem to tap into my inner self emotionally. And believe it or not, I’m a clinical social worker!!!!. It s too painful to look back.

  75. Patricia McDaniel says:

    Post script: I have prayed for 43 years. I have just about given up on the Lord. I am fearful of the unknown if I were to leave my husband. How would I support myself. On mediocre in October. WE have a lot of debt too.

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