Not Defined by the Size of Our Jeans

Not Defined by the Size of Our Jeans

July 2, 2014

“Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:6-7 (NASB)


The moon was a slice of white in the night sky.

It looked like the rim of a coffee mug, the mug with a picture of a teddy bear saying “I love you beary, beary much” … the mug my brother gave me when I was 13 and hospitalized for anorexia.

Here I was again, in a green hospital gown, only this time, I wasn’t hypothermic and 60 pounds.

This time I was holding a baby doctors had said I’d never be able to have. He was 8 pounds, 2 ounces, his name was Aiden Grey and I couldn’t stop crying. Because he couldn’t stop hiccupping.

“Is he okay?” I touched the nurse’s elbow as she straightened my sheets.

She smiled. “Yes,” she said. “There’s nothing that can be done for hiccupping — it just has to take its course,” and I tucked Aiden close to my heart, because I couldn’t tuck him back into my womb.

I have two sons now, and I’ve had two miscarriages too, and there’s nothing harder than watching your body fail your baby. But God — He never fails.

He is always there. Even in the miscarriage.

He was there when I was a pastor’s kid who began starving herself at age 9; when I was an 18-year-old hippie who ran away from home and traveled the world searching for faith. When I came home to a mother who was dying from brain cancer, who still sang Great is Thy Faithfulness from somewhere deep her in sleep.

In the midst of our pain, He is there, hanging from a cross, only to rise again.

When I was young I stopped eating to avoid feeling pain. Now, I’m learning to wait for the resurrection. I’m learning to trust God in the ache.

This past spring, I looked out my office window, saw snow on the ground, and my 2-year-old jumping on our trampoline.


His clothes strewn around him, and he was singing.

I laughed even as I ran to cover him, but secretly, I was envious. I envied the freedom to sing naked, oblivious to the audience of a highway running perpendicular to our house.

Perhaps this is a picture of what God’s Word invites us to do in 1 Peter 5:7, where it says cast “all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.”

It’s not easy to truly cast our anxiety on Jesus in a world that tells us we are defined by the size of our jeans. It’s a lot easier to hide, than trust Jesus with our pain, or our questions about who we are and if we matter.

And I think it’s somewhere in there, in that quiet place of being loved — in the mother’s embrace of her baby — that we find ourselves.

The other night in a rare moment of quiet in my house, I felt as if I had stepped straight into love. Like it had been waiting there for me the whole time.

I saw the real me: a passionate, scatter-brained 33-year-old woman who loves the world deeply and laughs loudly and needs alone time. Who gets paint on the kitchen table when she’s making art, who would rather write than do housework, who has tattoos, who cries when her sons refuse to listen to her.

And suddenly I knew who I was. Right in the middle of that sacred moment surrounded by Legos and train tracks.

I was loved.

It’s who we all are, friends.

We’re not defined by the size of our jeans. We’re not the sum of our Twitter followers or the square feet of our house.

We are God’s daughters, tucked in His arms, where He aches over hiccups, where He longs to carry our worries, and where He would die for us.

He did die for us. Yes, this, friends.

We are loved.

Dear God, help me know You love me. Help me feel Your caring arms around me today, even in the dark. Help me hear Your voice singing over me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Psalm 46:10, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” (NIV)

Atlas Girl: Finding Home In The Last Place I Thought to Look by Emily T. Wierenga takes you on an emotional journey into the arms of the God who heals all wounds.

Find more encouragement at Emily’s blog. As a special gift, Emily is giving away a FREE e-book to anyone who orders Atlas Girl, today. For your copy, click HERE, then enter your receipt info HERE, and you’ll receive A House That God Built: 7 Essentials to Writing Inspirational Memoir, co-authored by Emily and her editor/memoir teacher Mick Silva.

In celebration of the release of Atlas Girl, Baker Books is giving away 10 copies! Enter to win by leaving a comment on our web site, letting us know why you’d like a copy for yourself OR to whom you would give a book, if you won. {We’ll randomly select 10 winners and send email notifications to each one on Mon., July 7.}

Have you ever felt your Abba Father’s presence in the midst of a difficult time in your life? If so, how?

Are you clinging to fear, or do you know the kind of love that casts it far, the kind that evokes utter peace and joy?

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  1. If Emily’s book is anything like her blog you shared, I would love to have a copy! Thank you for this generous giveaway. God bless you all at Proverbs 31 Ministries!

      Wow! What a won…derful thought for this late-night hour! Isn’t God amazing? I am proud to be His girl. He loves me, just as I am- regardless of whatever challenges I may be facing. I ♥ how God holds all my concerns in his hands at all times.
      I have definitely felt my Abba Father’s presence in my life when I’ve had to hlpmy wonderful husband, Ron Smith overcome whatever obstacles he finds himself in occasionally. I ♥ my wonderfulhusband so much that I want to alays be there or him,no matter what either of us may be going through. My husband and I know the wonderful kind of love that sends fear packing. Satan can take a hike, and pack his bags because God’s love is stronger than anything he can attempt to throw in our direction.
      “Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:6-7 (NASB)
      Wow! What a wonderful reminder tonight! At The Pentecostals Of Springfield, weoften sig a song with the question “Why don’tyou cast all your cares upon the Lord?” I so totally love that wonderfully powerful song. We have to cast all our cares on the shoulders of God, no matter how big or small.
      “Dear God, help me know You love me. Help me feel Your caring arms aroundme today, even in the dark. Help me hear Your voice singing over me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.”~Emily T. Wierenga
      Wow! What a wonderful prayer for such a
      late-night hour! I ♥ how awesome God is. He can show us His incredible love, no matter what our circumstances may happen to be. In helping others, God can always give us the right words to say to encourage them in their time of need.
      Psalm 46:10, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” (NIV)
      Wow! What a wonderful reminder tonight! Lawrence MasonWow! What a wonderful prayer for such a
      late-night hour! I ♥ how awesome God is. He can show us His incredible love, no matter what our circumstances may happen to be. In helping others, God can always give us the right words to say to encourage them in their time of need.
      Psalm 46:10, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” (NIV)
      Wow! What a wonderful reminder tonight! Lawrence Mason preached about this during the Summer Gathering / Revival on 5Th Street earier ths evening. What apoweful message he preached. God used him in such a mighty way. I loved what he had to share with all of us in the outdoor setting. See More

    • I LOVE your heart for Abba, Nico! And thank you so much for the encouragement, Traci! Bless you both! e.

    • Laura Childress says:

      I would love to read Emily’s book Atlas Girl. Regardless if I get it free or not I will read. But free would be great. If you have ever experienced any of the situations that she writes about…you are always yearning to hear from others who have struggled with them too!!! It is all part of the healing process.

    • Charissa says:

      I have no idea wether or not it is still the 2nd of July in America because in Australia its the 3rd! “Why not comment?” is what I thought – I generally don’t for these things, but the glimpse into your life testimony so far connected with me on lots of levels. What a blessing if I was picked to receive a copy. May it bless whoever they are given too – and may you too be blessed Emily for your generosity to share your life so freely with the women around you in the world. You have a captivating writing style. xx

  2. I loved the blog. Today was such an emotional day, filled with hope for a treatment that might help my son, to frustration in dealing with some of his issues. I am a single mom of a teenager with Asperger’s. He is the joy of my life, but many days are a challenge. Some days I feel so alone. It’s nice to see, read, hear “you are loved” when often times you don’t feel it and you don’t hear it

  3. Natalie Burnett says:

    Your post gave me tears in my eyes! Need to remember this!!

  4. This touched in everything I have been dealing with these past few weeks. Thank you so much for this post.

  5. Cynthia Salas Rodriguez says:

    It’s been 11 years since my divorce. For 10 of those years, I have lived in torment because of the size of my jeans. I went from a confident woman to a broken woman with no hope in sight. Looking in the mirror caused me to question everything about me. I criticized myself from head to toe looking at all my imperfections. It wasn’t until one day that I looked in the mirror that God whispered to my heart, “You are fearfully and wonderfully made. You are my creation created for a purpose. I love you unconditionally.” His love for me helped me see that the size I was in the mirror had nothing to do with the love I felt on that day. Praise God!

  6. Betsy Pasquale says:

    This truly touched my heart. I’ve been through some tough times where I’ve forgotten who I am and where I belong. I would love to share this book with my daughters. Thank you for sharing your story with me. Peace and blessings.

  7. Tiffany says:

    This blog touch me deeply. I am a 38 year old wife and a mom of three little girls. So blessed. I was told most likely I would not be able to have kids due to my struggle with anorexia through high school and college! But God saw fit to bless me beyond measure. I didn’t think I would ever struggle again. I thoughts I was healed. But 3 years ago I relapsed and it’s been a journey to allow myself to feel not only the painful emotions but even the joyful emotions. To feel His love for me. To know deep down in my heart that I am loved is something I still today need to be reminded of. I still today need to tuck it into my heart and believe it. He has shown me that true healing is a hard path but it leads to growth as we push through it! I would love to read YOUR journey! The journey that The Lord took you on to find that place. The journey straight into His arms that will never grow weary. Thank you for sharing your heart and His truths. It really spoke to me.

    • Tiffany, I have tears in my eyes. You are not alone sister! Abba is with you, and He will help you to be victorious! I believe we can be free of our ED forever! Hoping with you, e.

  8. My daughter struggles with eating disorder. She also struggles with why certain things have happened to her & at times is angry with God. She has so much potential and could use her story to help others! I’m a mom longing to understand this disorder and praying she turns her life over to God for healing and happiness.

    • oh Jill, praying for your daughter… I don’t mean to self-promote, but I do have a book called Chasing Silhouettes: How to Help a Loved One Battling an Eating Disorder which I wrote alongside my family a few years ago. ( In the meantime, keep loving on her and keeping your bedroom door open for her to talk with you, and keep asking the Lord to intervene… He will. He is faithful.

  9. Rebecca Rochette says:

    I’d like a copy of this book for a young woman at my church who’s father is dying.

  10. Mary Campbell says:

    Loved your blog today. We are currently in the fundraising stage of our local ministry for at risk kids in our town and my other job cut my hours today and my 2 boys were making me want to scream… As I sit here tonight and read this it gives me peace and I’m ready to enter my quiet time and be still and see where God is leading! I’d love to win a copy of your book and read more of your writings! Thank you for speaking to my heart today!

  11. Miscarriage hits home for me. Thank you for sharing and there is nothing harder to go through. I have 2 beautiful daughters but have also had 2 miscarriages. Yes God is in everything, even miscarriages.

    I can either live in the fear of having another miscarriage, but I choose to see what blessings he will bring. I can trust God because he has brought me through the tough times and will bring me through more. I am his daughter and I am loved!

  12. Janet Voight says:

    Your blog touched. My heart. I’ve been been burdened and it gave me food for thought and encouraged me . I go to a small church and my husband and I are the youngest members,55 years old. I have no girlfriends to fellowship with and love to read words and thoughts on Gods grace. Thank you , Janet

  13. Thank u for blog and to all the women that respond ,I want to encourage you all that God does love you even if no one has ever told you or if those are words you don’t hear a lot of how truly special you are and how loved you are. Please make a decision that you will give God a chance by believinng he loves you, trust that he does and take him up on his word, to choose to see yourself through him , I pray that
    You will learn to see how God sees you , he will make you want to love others and yourself, it doesn’t matter where you have been or even where you are God is on your side , which means Love is on your side for God is love and Love never fails, you are awesome in Christ ,love in Christ and he does have plans for you, with God the best is yet to come for you, claim that in Jesus , his will for your life is the best thing you could ever hope for and desire most of all. god be with you ,may you draw to him and ask God to help you cling to him .

  14. Bridgete says:

    Your blog touched my heart and thanks for sharing. I would like to share the book with a young lady at church who is dealing with a lot of issues – not small enough, not pretty enough and don’t fit in anywhere.

  15. I just happened upon your blog and was reminded of how precious we are to God and to always trust him. Almost 2 years ago, I got out of an abusive marriage ( 5 yrs) and started over, moving where I had no close friends and trying to get a job but needed to take care of my aging parents in a city 100 miles away. After 6 months with them,the Lord blessed me with a job teaching. I will not be returning to that job because of discipline and security issues. I am now torn between looking for another job where I am and trying to find a job closer to my parents. I thought i would have plenty of time to look but my dad has been in the ICU and my mother is recovering from a fall and rehab.
    I AM trusting the Lord to provide for me because he has been faithful in the past. I have been independent all my life and didn’t get married until age 46. I’m ok with being alone but this blog really brought some feelings and questions about being loved. I know my family loves me but sometimes i feel like I’m not good enough to be a wife. I have been battling with depression and 40 extra pounds. Yes it is hard not to compare yourself with skinny friends but I know the Lord sees and hears my heart and prayers. I trust the Lord with the direction of my life and need to realize just how loved we all are by our Heavenly Father. I would love a chance to read Emily s new book ” Atlas Girl”.

  16. I really needed to hear this tonight….. After my husband left me for another woman this past year and going through a divorce, I’ve recently had an anorexia-bulimia relapse…. believing the old tapes that tell my worth is in my size. I need to cling to these promises of God.

    • My dear, dear Julie… how I long to sit with you and have tea, and to look into your eyes and tell you–it’s not your fault. Abba loves you so much sister, and he is angered by how you were treated. I’m reminded of Hagar in the desert–she ran away with her son, rejected, abandoned, and begging God to let her die. But God met her there, in the desert, and he looked at her and he called her by name and he promised her great blessing. And Hagar called Him “El Roi” or the God who sees me. May you know the God who sees you, dear Julie, and who promises great blessing for you. e.

  17. Today was a stormy day for me. I have loved ones depending on me and I felt I was failing them. What I realized was I wasn’t failing them. I am truly failing to allow God to provide all that we need. Today’s message spoke to me and reassured me that He hears me. I do matter and most of all….. HE IS IN CONTROL! I felt a release as there was a sudden down pour. As if all of the pain was washed away with every drop that fell.

  18. Stephanie says:

    Being in the midst of 5 year battle for my son, I needed to hear this today. Thank you for sharing!!

  19. Angela C says:

    I’d love to win a copy for myself. If her writing in this book is anything close to today’s devotion I would be so hsppy to read it! Her devotion today about who we are hit right at home in my journey!
    Thank you for this opportunity to win…God bless.

  20. Anne Aladesanmi says:

    Thanks for the opportunity please I would really like to have a copy of Atlas girl

  21. Loved this devotion. What an encouragement for all women & girls to learn to look at ourselves as Jesus does, princesses & not the world’s view.

  22. Michele says:

    I really enjoyed today’s devo. I think we all have experienced pain in our lives. I believe, we all can learn and grow from pain. Knowing that there is a Heavenly Father that loves us so very much and understands our pain. He makes such a difference in our lives. Thank you, Jesus for loving us and never giving up on us! Praise God!

  23. Kelly Eichman says:

    My godparents have friends whose daughter is going through a very similar time….she’s 16, a pastor’s daughter & battles anorexia. I would love to give her a copy of this book….perhaps it will help her see she is NOT alone & she is so very loved. Thank you.

    • I’m grateful for your heart Kelly, and that you care enough to help your godparents’ during this difficult time. I do have a book called Chasing Silhouettes: How to help a loved one battling an eating disorder, if that might help ( Bless you, e.

  24. I love the thought of not being defined by our jeans. I can understand the love she felt watching her children sleep, the joy she had in the gift of those babies. I know I am still a baby Christian and feel she can teach me a lot from this book. Thank you Shirley

  25. Christel Baxter says:

    I truly need a fresh revelation of God’s love for me! This devotion so blessed my heart.

  26. I like the title Atlas Girl. I’m in a season of redefining. Where God is showing me the separation of who I am vs what I do. It’s been tough. But so much love on this other side. Love he is pouring into me and enabling me to show others. I pray I don’t lose the direction and passion! Thanks for sharing your story.

  27. Tiffany Garner says:

    I thoroughly enjoyed her devotion today. I would love to have her book!

  28. Alissa Thrasher says:

    What a BEAUTIFUL writing!
    Thank you so much for sharing! :)
    This was one hundred percent meant for me to see at this exact moment.

    Im 27 years old, and this week marks 5 years since the beginning of my bulimia-recovery. It seems like so much time has gone by, yet I am just now learning my strength, how to trust God with my anxieties, and be the person I was created to be. It’s an amazing thing! I would LOVE to win a copy of this book for myself and to share with people in my life. <3 (:

    Again, thank you so much Emily!
    God bless you!

  29. Angie Kelly says:

    My daughter is 24 pregnant, leaving behind her four year college degree for fear of failing, living with a boyfriend we have yet to meet who has been affirmed as living a lifestyle that is beyond approval… thank you for sharing dark sides. I am forwarding this to her in hopes she will feel God’s prescence. This new book would be amazing for her. I hope to be able to share. Thank you for blessing me with your hope.

  30. I am feeling lost and not loved by God this very moment. I am struggling so hard to believe God has not given up on me, even though I have given up on myself. Emily’s book will help me on this journey.

    • Toni Lowery says:

      I am praying for you Carey! I just want you to know that right now I am lifting your name up in prayer that you will be able to fully realize that God does love you! If you were the only one in the world God would still have sent His precious Son to die and rise again to save you. He loves you with an everlating love! Jeremiah 31:3. In Romans we are told that nothing, absolutely nothing can seperate us from the love of God. Romans 8:38 and 39. Those are my life verses! They help me when I am feeling low or unworthy. There is not one thing you can do that can make God stop loving you. Know that and embrace it with all that you have in you. It isn’t because of anything you can do or give, it is just because GOD IS LOVE!!!
      Have a beautiful day!!! :)

    • oh Carey, I’m praying alongside Toni that you would feel the touch of the Holy Spirit right now in your heart and on your life and that you would KNOW without a shadow of a doubt HOW deep and long and wide and high is the love of Jesus… that it may overwhelm you, his extravagant love. Believing for you sister, e.

  31. Andree' H. Jackson says:

    I love this!!! i just lost a lot of weight and i get down sometimes. BUT to know that God loves me no matter what size or shape is reassuring to me that HE can NEVER fail!
    God Bless you for sharing this. It really helped start my day!

  32. Your post bought tears to my eyes. God has always been in my heart. I always knew I was missing something but didn’t know what. I ran away when things got tough and turned to food to try and satisfy my needs. It wasn’t until my husband left when I was able to realize I needed Jesus to satisfy all my needs. Thank you for awesome testimony.

  33. stacie newman says:

    I would like a copy of Atlas Girl to give to my 20 year old daughter. She almost died at 4 weeks of age from sepsis. To this day I remember the cleaning lady who would sing hymns in her room while cleaning. One day she turned to me and said, “your baby is going to be just fine”. She came off the vent the next day. My daughter has been fiscally incontinent since. She was made fun of and ridiculed through school. Her self-esteem is very low. I always remind her that God chose her to make it through for a reason. That she is larger than her problem. Some days she agrees but most days she’s just angry. She has no direction in her life currently and needs to find it on her own because she refuses to listen. I pray every day that God will put someone in her path who she will listen t o.

    • tears. Dear Stacie, I can *hear* the pain in your voice and the love you have for your daughter. I am praying she will receive a glimpse of how accepted and delighted in she is by her heavenly father–and yes, for a mentor too… keep loving on her. e.

  34. Simply overwhelmed by the presence of Jesus as I read this devotional. I just recently began reading the Proverbs 31 devotionals each morning. I have tears running down my face knowing that I’m not alone…the victory is His! I know that I need to read this book and then pray for the person that I can pass the book onto.

  35. Lucinda says:

    I’d love a copy of this book for my own Atlas girl that I birthed 21 years ago. She is still on her journey to walk back into God’s arms. Blessings to you all.

  36. I can’t even write the words…thankful for yours that have reached deep into my heart. It’s a place that I didn’t think existed. Thankful for the love of my Savior! Simply overwhelmed as I sit here this morning not so much by my circumstances, but that He loves me more than what I think defines me, or what the world chooses to say.

  37. Judy S. says:

    Dear Emily,

    Thank you so much for this precious message. It came at a time when I needed to know Jesus was still there for me and cared and yes, loved me. I am at a point in my life where feel very unloved except my daughter’s love. I hardly see my dad yet I know how much he loves and misses me. I lost my mother last July. She had ovarian cancer. Her loss has been the biggest sorrow in my life. She was my best friend and the only one I could really trust when I needed someone to understand and love me. Esp, at the most broken and failing moments I’ve faced over and over. She was the one who brought me to Jesus who I now cannot live one day without. he’s my lifeline.

    Please pray that as I keep trusting the Lord, I would get rid of the fear that binds me to my failure of going wrong all the time even when I’m trying my best and trusting Jesus to keep me in the right.

    God bless,

    Judy S.
    Bangalore, India

    • Victoria says:

      Your comment really touched me. My mom is fighting Ovarian Cancer and lives 3,000 miles away from me. She is my best friend & my rock and not being able to be with her and help her right now breaks my heart. Like you, the prayers and example of my mama brought me to Jesus and I will NEVER be able to thank her enough for that. I struggle with a constant fear of failure, too, and feeling like I CAN never, and WILL never, measure up. I’m praying for God’s wisdom for both of us and that He will help us see our selves the way he does.
      Your sister on Christ.

    • Praying right now for you Victoria, that you would KNOW without doubt the deep, high, wide, long love of the Father that NEVER leaves us or forsakes us. I can feel his love for you from over here in Canada, sister. Don’t give up. He is FOR you.

  38. Caroline Raby says:

    I’d very much appreciate a copy of Atlas Girl for a friend whose daughter is in jail awaiting trial because of assaulting health care workers. She is a brittle diabetic, a young adult who is brilliant, has acute borderline personality disorder, is obsessive-compulsive, and is an alcoholic. She’s almost died several times due to being inebriated and going into severe diabetic comas. Medical personnel have advised her Christian parent’s to let her stay in jail for her safety and supervision. Her family is heartbroken.

  39. I would love to win this book for my daughter. She is 25 today. Three weeks ago she called off her Sept. wedding to a buddhist. She had stopped wanting to be called a Christian and refused to go to church- even when visiting us. We went to Charlotte Mon. to take her out to dinner and she told us all the activities she has planned. Skydiving, a beach trip, etc. i told my husband later– she is searching. When she realized her fiance wasn’t the one she frantically started trying to fill the void when Jesus is all she needs.

  40. Toni Lowery says:

    Hi! Thanks for the awesome devotion this morning! I am touched and elated that this was the devotion God inspired. I allow the enemy to try and define me too many times, and I am so over it! I am a daughter loved by God, and I will fully embrace that thought.
    Too many times as women we feel that we do not meet expectations of beauty, being a “good girl,” a good wife, good mother, good homemaker…and on and on. How sad that we allow satan those footholds that hold us back from our joy in Christ. Let’s decide today that we will not let him take our joy. We were created in the image of the almighty God and loved by Him beyond anything we can fathom. Let’s cling to that and pray for our daughters and sons and show them how much love God has for us regardless of anything else! “And I pray that you … grasp how wide and long and high
    and deep is the love of Christ.” Ephesians 3:17b-18
    I would love to have this book. My son actually suffered from anorexia when he was 14 years old. It was only by the grace of God that he recovered fully from that disease. It took A LOT of prayer and hard work, and many, many Doctor’s visits to get him through to the other side of this disorder. I am ever so grateful for his full recovery and this issue has a large place in my heart. God bless you for sharing your hearts with us daily!

  41. Rebecca says:

    Thank you for sharing your heart. Oh, how I need daily reminders that I am not defined by my size. I have struggled with eating disorders for most of my life. Just now, starting to come to a place where I am ready to find deliverance. Thank you, Emily for writing a book like this. Thank you for having the courage to be honest about your struggles and share the freedom and joy found only in Christ!

  42. stephanie says:

    This was one of the most heartfelt blogs for me. After reading it i had tears in my eyes. I would love a book this blog definately spoke to me.

  43. Tonya pierson says:

    This is something I have struggled with my entire life due to the size of my jeans. Even now that I am older I still obsess about gaining weight ( which I have) and I wonder how God could ever be happy with me when I can’t even seem to fit into some if those clothes in the closet.

  44. Margaret says:

    Beautiful devotion this morning. Thank you for sharing! This sounds like a great read – would love to have a copy!

  45. N Primus says:

    Thank you for such a transparent and humbling post. Your words speak directly to how God was ever present in my journey (sometimes purposefully away from him). It speaks to hood relentless pursuit of our hearts no matter where we are. I’d like a copy of Atlas Girl because Emily and her journey evoke Matthew 16:26 for me. Thank you

  46. Jeannie says:

    I would love to have a copy of your book. I too struggled with an eating disorder for many years. Every now and then my past rears back up but I know who is the Greater One and I put my faith and trust in Him.

  47. I just want to speak life to everyone on the blog and who have shared their hurt and pains of the past and present. Give it to God, he is a healer for real! He gave us scriptures to read, study, meditate. Speak them over your precious lives, he loves you soooo much! Praise, pray and submit all n negative thoughts to the holy spirit immediately and watch your lives change. God bless you all!

  48. Good morning and thank you for your reminder that we are not defined by anything that is worldly – but only by the forever fact we are daughters of the King. How hard it is to remember that as we are pressed in on daily – and how important that we remind ourselves and remind each other of that unconditional fact that God is for us… I would love to share your book with these great images of love with my 17-year-old daughter who is like you were, wandering and wondering if God’s love is enough.

  49. Thank you.

  50. Susan Talbert says:

    I would like to give a copy of Atlas Girl to my daughter because she is struggling mightily to regain her health and her faith. Currently she is hospitalized for recurrent migraine with nausea so severe that she cannot eat or drink. Previously she endured kidney failure, dialysis, transplant, and a brain infection from spinal meningitis and cytomegalovirus. She is only 30 years old. I want her to learn from Emily’s experiences that God is always with us, even in the darkest places. Her name is also Emily. Thank you.

  51. Thank you for this much needed devotional today.

  52. Tracy Cantrell says:

    I really enjoyed reading this devotional today I think its exactly whai needed. If I won this book I think it would be great because I probably could relate to the story. I have been trying to find myself.

  53. Thank you for sharing, I needed that.

  54. rosalyn says:

    This struck such a chord in me… I rewrote my own ‘truth’ : “When I was 34, I began eating to avoid feeling the pain of multiple miscarriages and a distant husband. Jesus, please teach me to instead wait for the resurrection, to trust You in the midst of the ache…”
    Would love to read the book, then pass it along. I have many friends struggling in similar ways…

  55. Great encouragement!

  56. The title of this really struck a chord with me and as I continued to read this devotional I realized how much I am spoken to through P31 and the wonderful people who share their stories.

    I don’t know about anyone else but I can’t help to smile when I discovered grace at the exact moment I need it. Many times I find myself saying “this is for me, thank you Lord for knowing exactly what I needed this morning”.

    Thank you!!!

  57. I’d like a copy for myself, I can relate to it not being easy to give all to Jesus because of judgement. I bite my tongue a lot when there’s something that bothers me and I need to learn how to pray more. After I’m done reading I’d share with a couple of teacher friends. This was the reading I needed today.

  58. This devo hit the spot I did not know I had this morning! I thought I was just tired – and I am tired and in need of a day to myself and some breathing room. But I am also sad for some reason that makes no sense. I am where God and I want me to be, doing what comes to hand, but there is something more that I am lacking and only He can provide. I have lost the joy somewhere and want it back. I need time with Him – time to just be with Him. I must find a place of peace and just be. Thank you for a sounding board and the possibility of another helpful book. So many good ones and this sounds like one of the best for me.

  59. Janice Miller says:

    Thank you, great writing. My only comment is not to the writer but to the designer of the layout of the devotion… Perhaps the pic in the ” not judged by Jean size” they could of chosen one with a model who is bigger than a size 4. Unfortunately we see this often in magazines and advertisements. Just thought it would have suited the devotion better.

    • Oftentimes those of us who feel we are too big don’t realize that people who struggle with eating disorders see themselves as unattractive too. I have friends who don’t like their bodies because they are a size 0 or 2 or 4….they use words like bony and stick-woman to refer to themselves. Whether we wear a size 4 or 24 doesn’t really matter. It’s how we see ourselves. God sees our heart, our soul, not our physical bodies that will return to dust.

  60. Nancy Meeden says:

    My daughter was hospitalized four years ago at the age of 15 due to eating disorders. She actually grew her faith during her treatment. I left a Bible with her and she started to read it on her own. She is now a 19 year old college student. While she is nowhere near where she was four years ago, she still struggles to fight the impulses that led her to restricting & self harm, & her faith has helped her overcome those urges. I thank Emily for sharing her story with us. It helps to let other families know they are not alone. As always, God is there to see us through.

    • Hi Nancy, thank you so much for sharing your daughter’s journey. While I do believe it’s possible for us to be fully free of our ED, I know that it takes a lot of soul searching and divine intervention to get there. Believing in this for your daughter, that those “little girl issues” which cause our ED would be healed by her heavenly father. Bless you! e.

  61. You asked to share a time we’ve felt God’s embrace – after my husband passed away, one night I was having a particularly hard time getting to sleep, feeling so incredibly lonely, & crying out to God “This is too hard – I need to feel You with me” and in that moment, it literally felt like He wrapped His arms around me & drew me close to Himself. I bawled – knowing that I wasn’t alone & He had me! I’d love to have a copy of the book!

  62. What a fantastic devotional today! I’d love to read more of her writing.

  63. Laura Morris says:

    This was a great post and I would love the book.This is exactly where God is bringing me right know- Teaching me to recieve His love for me.

  64. LaWanda says:

    Wow! I loved Emily’s post this morning. And I would love to have her book. My 22 year old daughter is struggling with lots of faith questions right now and is in a very rough place. I know that God will carry her through this, but I am sure that she would be able to glean from this book.

  65. Thank you do much for your heartfelt post. So much to relate to. Thanks for the chance to win a copy. We can always have more grace:)

  66. Tammie Jones says:

    We are preparing to move after living in the same place for 17 years. The name of the book struck me as something that would be helpful, as i am not crazy about the idea of moving and trying to adjust to thoughts of “life on a different back porch.”

  67. ~ Thank you for all the beautiful reminders of His love ~

  68. Rita Meiszinger says:

    Thank you so much! I will run off your poster and hang it up in our pool change room so that the many guests we invite will read it! It is such a beautiful reminder – We are not defined by the size of our jeans.
    I am married to a pastor so together we reach out to so many different needs. I know the Lord would put together your book with women that struggle in those same areas -if I were to win a book- that I would share the book with. As it is I am already sharing this devotional with 3 ladies so far.
    God is so good, isn’t He? The way He takes our pain and redeems it and then uses it to bring healing to others.

  69. I would love a copy of Atlas Girls. My 21 yeAr old daughter and. I share a passion for books. One of my favorite times spent with her is when we take a walk and discuss what we Are currently reading. Being an English major,, she often gives me suggestions. I love how our faith shines through each review. I know sharing this book would Add another beautiful moment for us while strengthening our faith. Thank you for thie opportunity to win a copy of Atlas Girls.

  70. Sarah petersen says:

    What an honest story! How great the Father’s love for us. I would love to read more by Emily and am thankful for an opportunity to win her book.

  71. Rachael says:

    I’m interested in reading Emily’s book because I ran away to seek faith, too. I just wasn’t brave enough to run very far.

  72. Ever since I read a description of this book, I knew I wanted a copy. I’ve been on my own journey, that’s maybe a little different than most women experience. I’m trying to find the arms of God, as this post speaks about–in my heart, not just my head, and be centered in that love.

  73. I would love a copy of the book. Today I needed to hear that I am not defined by the size of my jeans and PS 46:10.
    Thank you!

  74. Your message is “spot on!” Through the desire of wanting to be closer to God, I’ve learned that no better peace is found than through Him. Daily prayer, reading scripture and applying it several times a times, and participating in Proverbs 31 Bible studies have all made His closeness to me possible. Keep writing!!

  75. Would love to read it and pass on!

  76. Too thin, too heavy, too pretty, too old, too frumpy…all thoughts of mine, and others throughout the years – yes, even some have verbalized them to me. On a missions trip one time I heard this comment from a Christian sister, “I didn’t like you the moment I saw you.” Ouch! I know God loves me…really, I do…BUT I find myself wondering if He wouldn’t love me MORE if I were….. Crazy, right? I know better…yet those thoughts, the critical glance of the stranger in the store, send my brain to that judgmental place. I’m getting better at shutting those thoughts down, after all, we choose what we think about…but some days, it’s hard. Thanks to Emily for her devotion today. It is encouraging to know that there are women, like Emily, that “get it.” Would love a copy of her book. Thank you, Proverbs 31 Ministries, for all you do. You are a true blessing to me, and countless others. <3

    • oh Debi, how I ache for you sister… I am so, so sorry for the words that “Christian” woman said to you. We do so much damage to one another… may Abba minister to your heart and reassure you of his deep, unending love for you… His greatest desire is to have all of us return to the garden so he can walk and talk and spend time with us. He LONGS to be in relationship with you, because he likes–and loves—you that much! Bless you, e.

  77. I would give a book to either my dear cousin who is struggling with anorexia or my precious sister who is 8 years out from confronting her struggles with bulemia. They are precious to me and I am praying for FULL healing from The Lord.

    • I believe in full healing too Jill! I do. I’ve written Chasing Silhouettes: How to Help a Loved One Battling an Eating Disorder ( which might help? Bless you.

  78. Enjoyed the devotional today! Thanks for the uplifting thoughts.

  79. Thank you so much for this great devotional this morning. I’ve felt so much anxiousness and depression lately. My husband and I are expecting our second baby to arrive anytime and its been hard on me. Can I adjust? Can I make it without sleep? Can I love this much? ! I understand my blessing God gave to me. I’m so thankful that He brought me to this devotional this morning. I want to stamp these words of truth on my heart and remember that God truly loves me.

  80. I need to read this book but I really would like to share it with two of my sister’s. I really think this book would be helpful to them as both have struggled with many things.

  81. Deborah says:

    Who doesn’t need to hear over and over how loved we are. God is Great!!!! Can’t wait to read more of his love in this book.

  82. I used to model. Even then I believed I was too fat. I saw myself thru distorted lenses. Then I got pregnant & during my pregnancy eyes, I saw pictures of myself from my modeling days & thought “wow-I actually looked pretty good”. I thought I’d be better. But after I gave birth I became obsessed with looking good again. With 36″ hips I got down to a size 5- I couldn’t see how thin I was. I truly thought I needed to lose weight. Then one of my managers told me if I lost any more weight, he couldn’t use me. I was dumbfounded.
    Now I’m living for my amazing Father God but my weight has gone up so much. I don’t know how to let anyone in thru this camouflage of fat. I hide behind it but I’ve always seen myself this big. I don’t know if the book will help but it would be nice to find out.

  83. Cathleen Donovan says:

    The radio host recommended I find a women’s bible study group…. I’d like too… but somehow caring for my terminal mom and daughter leaves me barely able to read the devotions I signed up for. I’m interested but scared to read this book, I might relate too much? I am listening and searching…

  84. Mary B. says:

    What a beautiful, encouraging post. Thank you. I would love to give a copy to my daughter who has been through a rough year, but continues to get up every day and smile. Thank you for this post! :)

  85. Laurie Cutsinger says:

    Emily’s writing today was powerful, thought-provoking, and really spoke to me. Being the mother of three girls, one grown and two teenagers, I would love to read the book and then share it with my girls. God bless you all.

  86. Brenda Tuttle says:

    Would love a copy! Great blog!

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  88. Karen Johns says:

    I would love a copy of this to share with my Ladies’ class!

  89. Elaine Segstro says:

    Thank you. Too often I’ve tried to “measure up” so that I will be loved, and there’s always disappointment. With co-workers and friends I easily get discouraged. I’m blessed by having a husband who loves me “no matter what”, reminding me of my Father who will NEVER give up on me.

  90. Arnesia says:

    I am so right here in my life today. I was praying and crying last night asking God why my life had to be as hard as it had been, from a child to even now. I would love this book, not only for me but to share with others who are hurting like me as well. I’m always wondering do I really matter???

  91. Wow, this is amazing!! Thank you for sharing!

  92. Julie Schultz says:

    Beautiful words…I can so relate. From the anorexia to the many miscarriages. Your message made me cry. Although I have been a Christian for 15 years, it has been in just the past six months, that I have learned and now know WITHOUT A DOUBT, that Jesus is crazy in love with me. That knowledge changed everything within me, in a beautiful and sometimes unexplainable way. I only know it was the true revelation of Jesus within my heart.

  93. I would so love a copy of this book becausr it is something that I am truly battling wih right now.

  94. Christina Burrell says:

    I cling to fear far more than I surrender to love. I so desperately need this book.

  95. Jane Adams says:

    I have a special young lady in my life that is smart, beautiful, talented, but so insecure about her body. She suffers from something…I’m not sure anorexia is the right diagnosis, but I know it’s an eating disorder and it not only negatively affects her, but everyone around her. I would love to share a copy of your book with her.

  96. Amy Hall says:

    I was so touched by the story Emily shared! I can relate about trying to block pain as a kid. I grew up in a home with an alcoholic father and every weekend was a struggle with fear, anxiety and the constant desire to want to “fix” the situation–even at the age of 8! I couldn’t imagine why this had to happen, especially if there was a loving God, who I thought could make it go away if he wanted it to. I am now grown with children of my own and have been through the pains of miscarriages and the loss of my father. I now know that God loves me and has always had a plan for me. I now that I had to go through the painful experiences in order to shape me into the person I am today. I would love to read Emily’s book and learn about her perspectives!

  97. Becca W says:

    I would love to read her book. I am a recovered bulimic. And no matter how close I’ve drawn to God and how far I’ve moved away from my sickness, there are still days that I struggle. Thank you for your blog Emily. God loves us and knows what we need to “hear” during our devotions. Yours truly touched me today!

  98. Heather says:

    Sounds like an interesting book! I was thinking of writing my grandma’s life story (she’s lost 3 out of 5 children, and now my aunt and father are also battling cancer) because through all her sorrows/hardships, her faith has never wavered. Emily’s guide might be helpful, since I have no idea how to begin, but I can’t buy the book at this time.

  99. I really needed to hear the words that were on this page this morning. I went to bed in tears last night so frustrated and feeling lost. Lost because I need to loose, at least, 40 pounds., Lost because I am unsure of where I belong. Lost because I feel I am undefined in who I am. I was feeling unseen, unheard, and looked over. I prayed God would speak to me and help point me in the right direction. HE did!! I was reminded to stop looking for my definition in the wrong places. I won’t find who I am in my closet or in the approval of those around me!

  100. Whitley Jagnanan says:

    Emily sounds like a woman after my own heart. After recovering with an eating disorder, I appreciate a woman who can share her story so boldly and would love to read her book!

  101. Takiesha says:

    I found home in the most unusual place after I was taken away from my drug-addicted parents. I love that the story God has given me proves that Yes- HE does indeed take messes and turn them into messages! Amen!

  102. Melinda says:

    As most women, I have some self esteem issues. But most days that doesn’t bother me. I think the one line in this devotion that will stay with me forever is being defined as loved by our savior. Yes, I know he loves me, I feel his love for me, I know the sacrifice he made for me. But I think I’ve missed the daily joy of knowing, realizing and feeling loved in the everyday. I have had 3 miscarriages, and I felt him with me through those, I think the hard times are easier for me to feel his love. When I struggle is when my 4 kids have destroyed the house for the millionth time, or my husband has said something totally insensitive, and I explode. Just completely erupt, spewing hatred and ungodliness. Those are the moments I need to feel loved. And I think by reading and sharing here, will help me in my quite time (although its not too quiet this morning as my 2 year old is up with me!) My prayer journal today will be about feeling His love and letting that define me as wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend!

  103. I would read the book, then give it to a friend of mine! Loved this devotion! ❤

  104. Daina Evans says:

    I have a 9 year old who thinks she’s fat at 50 pounds. I don’t know where the idea came from, but it scares me so much. I want her to feel good about herself no matter what and if this book could provide insight into how to understand or help, I will read it. I love both of my daughters and want to help them learn how to be truly happy – in Christ. I, too, am a pastor’s daughter and know what it is to have to find your own way.

  105. Karyn Spencer says:

    This book brought back memories of a time in my life that I struggled with self worth. I would love to read this book and share it with my daughters.

  106. Peggy Hall says:

    Great devotional today, I would love a copy of the book.

  107. Catherine says:

    I went through a lot of these emotions when I was in early 30’s, and now, in my late 50’s, this post brought all those feelings back. What a wonderful blog, and how wonderful for you to share this with all of us. My daughter in law would benefit from reading this, and I would love to share it with her (after reading it myself) ! Women need to realize that we are important, no matter what our jeans are. We are all God’s daughters, made in His image, so there is something there in all of us for the world to see, we just need to see it also, and let each of us with our own individual gifts shine!

  108. Christine says:

    My sister has been dealing with many struggles in her life for years that are related to childhood fears and humiliations. If I were to be chosen as a winner, I would present this book to her with the hope that through the power of God’s word and through the journey of reading this book she will realize that God is her number one fan, and that she doesn’t need to look for love anywhere else but in the comfort of Our Father’s arms!

  109. Gillie Ruth says:

    I’m diabetic, and sadly, binge eating because of something I’ve discovered that has affected my private life. What it is I can’t say, but I’ve lost faith and trust in an important member of my family and the grief and betrayal is catching me out. I’m already very unwell and this has shattered me, but, I’ve decided to believe the love ofGod which is pure will carry me through this, and pray things will change.

  110. I too struggled with an eating disorder in my high school and college years and while I’ve found freedom through faith– everyday life is still very much a struggle as I try to figure out why God has placed certain things on my heart but they seem so far away. I’m still trying to discern His will for my life and trust Him completely, every day. Thank you for sharing your encouragement.

  111. Juliana says:

    I would love a copy of your book. I have art minded children and I have a feeling this book would help me better understand them. My artsy “hippie” son is out trying to make a life for himself in his own way. I need help in letting go of the anxiety this is causing me!

  112. Such a powerful devotion. Being all sinners, we all struggle with something; with our own cross. Such a wonderful reminder of the gift that God offers us all, freely.

  113. Tiffany R says:

    What a great post! I think we all need reminding that we are not defined by society’s standards. Thank you for the giveaway, I would love to read her book.


  115. Thank you for such a beautiful, honest blog. I have been going thru 2 very hard years. I know in my head I am a daughter of the King! That He loves me and is always with me. Sometimes it just takes longer for the heart to catch up:). But your words will be with me this day! I so badly want to truly feel that love, His arms around me. I would so badly love to have her book!!! I would treasure it. I suffer from feelings of being a failure, low self esteem, and some depression.

    I would love to have a free copy

  116. WOW!! Loved this!!! I really struggle with “numbers”–and I pray God helps me!!! This blog was amazing!!

  117. My size has always been a big issue for me. Thanks be to God that it is not the same for Him. His love knows no boundaries.

  118. Andrea Tillotson says:

    When you described yourself as that scatter-brained tattooed passionate mom, I could identify with you! That is me! I have been in the “hallway” waiting on God to open the next door or window for a while now. It is a lonely, dark place. Sometimes I forget where God is or to reach out to Him. I needed this reminder that He is always there, right beside me.

  119. Love the blog would love the book

  120. Stacey A. says:

    Would love to read Emily’s book and pass it on to my daughter and niece!

  121. I would love to win a copy of your book and read more of your story. I have been praying non-stop for my three children, who are spending the first of four weeks with their father and away from me this summer as part of a new custody arrangement. I spent nearly 7 hours texting/FaceTiming/talking off and on with my daughter yesterday, who had been banished to her room for fighting with her brother and was being denied food until she gave over her iPod. She wouldn’t give over the iPod because it was her only link to me and that’s why her father wanted it — he didn’t ask for it until he saw her talking to me. I am trying to teach all of my kids their worth in Christ, and how they have a heavenly Father, in spite of their emotionally and sometimes physically abusive earthly father. I struggled with this all of my life until I found Christ in my 20s, but still ended up in an abusive marriage. Now, I’m rebuilding my life in my 40s and striving to show my children that they have this security now. He is ALWAYS there!

  122. Your blog has really touched my heart this morning. So many insights you have from your experiences that God has seen you through. I would love to share this, and the book, with my daughter. Only….. I can’t. She’s in a very bad place in her life, diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and PTSD. Due to that, she has found it necessary to disconnect her life from mine. Please see her blog called Life Interrupted… Mandi A Stores. It would be awesome if you could send her the link to your blog today as it may touch her heart ( I’m not allowed to write or contact her). God bless you in your life, your writing, and your ministry!!

  123. Karen Cunningham says:

    Thank you for your openness and being so transparent in a world that tells us to be self-sufficient. Before, Jesus was Lord of my life, I struggled. relying, trusting and resting in Him. We are taught by parents, teachers and many others in our lives that it is weak to be reliant on anybody or anything. But with God it is opposite. The more we actually rely, trust and adhere to Him, the more we see our Lord has provided all our needs according to Christ riches. May we learn more and more each day to rest in Him by being still and knowing His is God.

  124. After having 2 babies in less than 2 years, I feel like my body doesn’t belong to me anymore. My life doesn’t belong to me either. Every second of every day, every inch of my flabby, post-baby body, the aches and pains and as much energy I can muster up I give to my family. Yet I never feel competent or complete. Thank you for sharing this. What a good reminder that I am loved completely no matter if the house is dirty or if my daughter watches Doc McStuffins all day or if I never get back into my favorite skinny jeans. If Atlas Girl is anything like this blog post, I can’t wait to get my hands on it! At this point in my crazy life, I need to be reminded of God’s powerful and gracious love every single day.

  125. I loved this devotional. It really spoke to me as a fellow former anorexic. My favorite part was when she really saw herself now, defined by so many things other than weight and image. I hope to get to that point as well. I would love a copy of the book if there are any left.

  126. Jennifer says:

    Thank you for this devotional. I am a youth leader and I would love a copy of the book to give to one of my students who is really struggling in much the same way as Emily did. This youth is 16, battling with an eating disorder, body image and her faith in God. How amazing that God uses us to inspire others. I pray Emily’s story touches so many as she was so willing to share it! Thank you Proverbs 31 for sharing so many wonderful stories that encourage us all every day.

  127. Jo Ellen says:

    I felt the arms of Abba Father wrapped around me after my Mothers suicide when everyone was looking to me to make decisions and all I could think I will never be happy again. But happiness did come again because God was always there. It came again, in the blessing of three beautiful children who needed me and I needed to be there for them.

  128. Lindsey Stipes says:

    Wow…great post! After reading this I am anxious to get my hands in her book.

  129. As I read this blog, I thought of my daughter who has been through the pain of eating disorder, divorce, lay-offs and failed relationships. I know her greatest need is to know Jesus loves her perfectly.

  130. Thank-you for the devotional. I battle with body image, and don’t want my daughter to go through what I do. I want to read this book.

  131. maribeth says:

    This was a timely post… thanks so much for sharing your heart and most importantly, sharing God’s heart.

  132. As I read the devotional for today, July 2, I immediately said to myself – I have to find more information about this author. My oldest daughter left home this year as a senior in high school. We were devastated and couldn’t understand what God was doing. I clung to Ps. 34:18. She has returned home and God is beginning to do a healing work in her. She struggles with feeling like she is the ONLY ONE who has ever gone through this and she wears a “scarlet letter” everyone can see. Everyone will reject me and judge me for what I have done – she often says. We have welcomed her back with open arms and are trying to be an encouragement to her. This new book is exactly what she needs to see. A woman that made choices that weren’t God honoring but who now serves Him and has a new purpose and focus. Hallelujah! Thank you for sharing your heart! Can’t wait to read this book!!

  133. I am going thru so much pain today.My husband of 41 years has told me he’s leaving,in spite of 6 months of counseling.

  134. I would love a copy of Atlas Girl, for my 25 year old daughter who struggles with life in this world, and trying to find her spiritual place,and strength within God our Father’s Agape love.

  135. I have been healed/ing from anorexia for the past 5 years and have been awed by God’s faithfulness to me. I would love a copy of this book to read and then share.

  136. I loved Emily’s devotional today! I am going to sign up for her blog now. I am an avid reader & I am always looking for good reads. I think Emily’s book will be a super good read! Thanks for providing these chances to win free books!

  137. This devotion really spoke to me today and touched my heart. I would love to win a copy of the book “Atlas Girl”.

  138. I would love to read Emily’s book myself but more than that I would love to give it to my daughter. I have see her at her bottom point and now watching her let God lift her back up out of the miry pit. I believe Atlas Girl would be the encouragement she needs to keep trusting in God each step of the way.

  139. I love the devotion today. She writes so real world and is very relevant to my life. I would love a copy of her book to read.

  140. Crissie says:

    I read your devotions every morning and usually find peace in them. No so much the last couple of days. I’ve been feeling pretty disconnected from God. Feeling just blank, emotionless.I have been struggling with my weight for so many years, but particularly the last three years. I think this is part of my problem. I would love to have a copy of this book. I don’t know if it can help me get reconnected or not, or what it’s going to take. I am praying to get over this feeling. It’s just an unusual feeling for me, but again I don’t feel like they’re going anywhere. But that’s not going to stop me from praying, because I know that even when things seem like this, God really is there listening and I will get over this. He has helped me through my whole life and I know he won’t leave me now.

  141. Sharon Burkett says:

    Thank you for sharing today’s encouragement. Thank you for reminding me and us that we are more than our bumps, bruises and failures. We are daughters of The Most High GOD, our Abba Father. I would love to win a copy of your book…it sounds really and down to Earth. Thank you again for sharing with us.

  142. Thank you for the devotion today.

  143. I’d love a copy of this book. I would read and share with multiple friends. I am on the roller coaster of trying to get pregnant. I have recently felt like God doesn’t have me at all. He helps other people…he’s in their lives but not it mine. Would love some new perspective.

  144. I cried and cried (bawled like a baby) when I read this wonderful heart felt story of faith, hope, and love. I suffer with being morbidly over weight so its very hard for me to look at myself like Christ does. I do not feel beautiful, I feel like a failure because I can’t do what it takes to lose this weight. I am blessed to be a leader in my church Women’s ministry and I would love to read this book for myself and then share it with my friends. Thanks so much for sharing such a tender part of your life with all of us.
    Love, Your sister in Christ, Susan

  145. I have a child searching for love in this world’s system. I would love to read your journey to TRUE LOVE!

  146. As a middle-aged woman, (that’s right, I said it!) I’ve been through the fire and the rain, as we often say, and it’s taken me some time to grasp a lesson of why I’ve gone through the things I’ve gone through. At one time, four years ago following a major surgery, I was unable to speak, walk or care for myself and I wallowed in self-pity, until I realized God was speaking in my silence – so I listened. Now, fully healed – I tell my story! As Christians, every misfortune, every mishap, every slip, every fall, every knee-buckle is an opportunity to share with someone and bring them closer to Christ. I only wish I’d known this much earlier in life!

  147. Thank you for the post today! It’s so easy to say, “God loves me,” but much more difficult to really believe it and embrace it. I’ve struggled with my weight my entire life. I was heavy as a child and blossomed late. My mom says I have “fat eyes,” meaning I don’t see myself as I really am or how others view me. I tend to see the reflection of a larger woman in the mirror than the one that faces the mirror. I was unable to have children and battle the lies that I am unworthy or unloved by the Creator of life. I know the truth, but oh, to feel loved is so very different. Thank you, Emily, for your willingness to be vulnerable and share your journey. May God use your life, your gifts, and His story in you for His glory!

  148. Thank you for reminding me that my physical size is irrelevant when compared to God’s love for me. I would like read your book and share it with a friend who also has self-esteem issues.

  149. Charise says:

    This is truly beautiful. Thank you for sharing! It reminds me of David dancing in his undies in celebration of The Lord, uninhibited by pride. We have to choose today that childlike faith and live “Dancing with our Father”, as Sally Clarkson would say. Yahoo sisters! Let’s celebrate today!

  150. I am sitting here in tears. Tears because I too need to remember that God loves me even when I fall into temptation of eating wrong, of losing it completely during the day, even when I feel less than perfect. I am struggling with a weight issue and am trying extremely hard to allow God to transform my mind and to do it for all the right reason, for health reasons, not for reasons of the world to look a certain way, but just to be healthy and to be who God created me to be. Thank you, thank you for these awesome words. You have touched my heart more than you could possibly know.

  151. Rachel F says:

    I felt like I was reading about myself in your blog post from today.
    Thank you so much for sharing your heart and letting us all know that God is the one true home that we have.
    I passed this blessing along to all my Bible Study girls.
    I can’t wait to read your book!

  152. Wow! God is good! He always knows what I need to hear. Last month I filed for divorce after a lot prayer and soul searchng. 30 Years of marriage is a long time and it was a tough decision. On Monday I received the divorce petition from my attorney. After reviewing it, I felt lead to try one more time to reach out to my husband. I did so and I was brutally rejected- I was told that if I lost wieght may he would consider working on our marriage because that was the only thing wrong with our marriage. While his response was not what I had hoped for, it did solidify my plans for continuing the divorce. I am still stinging from his brutal, hurtful, nasty comments.
    On the way to work yesterday I thanked the Lord for giving me a reassuarace that I was taking the right path. But, I also asked the he continually reassure me. and he has done just that with my devotion yesteray and today.
    Thank you for sharing your struggles and insecurites. The Lord has spoken to me through you. You are truly a messenger of the Lord! Thank you again.

    • Oh my goodness…I too was divorced after 30 years of marriage! It was heartbreaking, but my new life is good. God is watching over me, in everything I do. He has blessed me beyond measure…His way of showing me He did not want me to continue living the old way. You will have a better life, with God as your guide! I don’t know you, but love you, sister!

  153. Michele says:

    Loved the devotional today. Not sure how P31 finds such dynamic and honest writers but I appreciate learning from these women. I would love to read Emily’s new book… sounds very intriguing.

  154. Great inspiration, at the right time. I pray that God continues to use you.

  155. Amanda Jones says:

    I would love a copy of Atlas Girl for myself. On May 14, I had a scheduled c-section to deliver my baby girl, Adalyn Grace. When my husband and I excitedly walked up to the hospital that morning, awaiting to see our precious girl for the first time, we never expected what was about to happen. There was no heartbeat. Our sweet Adalyn was still born. It’s been 7 weeks since the worst day of my life and the painful memories are still fresh in my mind. As heartbroken and empty that I feel, I also feel my Father’s love consuming me and comforting me everyday. In the midst of this horrific tragedy, I have felt His undeniable peace and strength washing over me and carrying me through each day. Some days the pain seems unbearable and the feeling of lonliness, as I suffer in silence, begins to creep in. But I am constantly reminded that I am not alone, ever. God is always with me and He’s the only one who can heal my broken heart.

    I can truly relate to this blog and would very much enjoy ready her book.

    • Amanda, I am so sorry for your loss! Hold fast to this: “And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your heart and your mind in Christ Jesus” Phil 4:7

  156. Emily, reading your post brought back memories of earlier years and how humbly grateful I am to my Lord and Savior, my God who protected me as he pursued my heart. I am now the mom of a woman in need of knowing how much God truly loves her…a wonderful and blessed single mother of two sons, the oldest, Andrew, is extremely medically fragile, our 6 year old miracle, going to first grade in the fall. She struggles with her image and confidence in Christ and I know this book would be a blessing to her! (I would love to read it, too!) Thank you for this beautiful devotion! I will share it with her! God bless!

  157. Would absolutely LOVE to win a copy…and then share it with friends! Thank you for the opportunity to win!

  158. Jo Lynn says:

    Psalm 46:10, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” (NIV) – This is what I have had to do for the past few months as I have been in the deepest valley I have ever known in my 62 years. I was campaigning for a place on our local School Board as a conservative Christian and the enemy used an opponent against me who promised to take me down one way or another. He tried to conjure up lies during the campaign but couldn’t get anything on the news media. Then the election came. There were four of us running and I won with 51% of the votes. Now – this was total proof that my Lord did tell me to run this race! Following the election, this opponent got the news media involved in taking a post I had on Facebook and totally misconstruing the meaning causing an uprising with the Muslim Brotherhood. A public hearing was held to attempt to get me to either resign my place or censure me. I refused to give in as I knew my Lord told me I belonged here so I was censured instead. There were approximately 100 Muslim Brotherhood there of which 30 were allowed to come to the microphone and publically censure me! My supporters were permitted also to speak but only 6! Instead of fighting, my Supporters shared the Word of God and the U.S. Constitution. I was posted on the front page of our newspaper two times and on local TV stations. I live in a very large metroplex so you can imagine the coverage! On top of that, right at the end of my campaign, my 43 year old son returned home after 22 years as recently becoming addicted to meth and his life in shambles. Going from a “wealthy” business owner to now being homeless, jobless and penniless. If ever in my life I have learned to “stand still & see the hand of the Lord”, it has been during this time. I have been through some horrendous trials and tests in my life but nothing to compare to all of this. As I continue to walk out the remainder of both of these circumstances, I have found Psalm 91 to be my covering. My Daddy God has been with me every step of the way and I look forward to serving & loving Him every day of my life.

  159. I don’t have any great big eloquent speech to justify me winning a copy of this book above any one else… but I’d really like to have a copy, THANK YOU :)

    I am so busy that I felt guilty for taking time off to read the post… but I thank GOD… HE knows I needed this.

  160. I’m 60 years old now but I relate to the passion and depth possessed by the author. After years of searching for God and not believing I had Him the way others seem to, about 7 years ago He revealed Himself to me . I had also struggled with anorexia; He also showed me who I am in him. Amazing life- changing experience. Sounds like this is an awesome book.

  161. Siobhan says:

    This IS a good article – my issue is with the picture. If we are not to be defined by the size of our jeans, why is the model a size 4?

  162. I would love, love, love a copy of this book! I, like the rest of humanity, have faced my share of battles. The most powerful take-away I have from these experiences is this: One never knows what a person is facing; I only see what they show me; compassion and grace must be the foundation of my operating mode. Many of my friends could benefit from this book, too. Probably the whole world, actually. Thank you for this incredible post, especially the verses from 1 Peter. Blessings to you!

  163. I would love to win a free copy. But if I don’t I’ll certainly buy one. In reading the blog my heart is drawn to tears, for I have the same struggles. Baby of us do though, I’m sure.

  164. Molly oliver says:

    Having walked a similar path to faith and health, now having two boys of my own, and believing to reach new believers with Christ’s revolutionary love, I would absolutely be grateful to receive a copy of her book Atlas Girl!

  165. As I was reading this, I thought I was reading my life story. I. At the age of 13, was bindging and purging and was found out by my parents. After I was hospitalized nothing was ever discussed. I, at the age of 45, just came out with my secret. It’s been the hardest thing I have ever done. And this has helped me see more of Gods love. Sometimes I wonder how such a Magnificant one as He can forgive me for all I have done.. But I know He tells me through devotions and shows me how everything will be alright. Thank you again for the encouragement.

  166. Marilyn Burns says:

    I loved this blog post! I have dealt with my weight for many years now, and it is only by God’s grace and love that I am getting comfortable with who I am and how I look. I am maintaining my weight now (finally at age 45), but I still struggle with eating to comfort myself…how lovely that picture was today…that I am “Tucked in God’s arms” where we don’t have to bear the struggle and burdens of this life alone. Thank you for sharing your struggle with us, as well as HIS victory in your life. God bless you and your ministry. :)

  167. I started falling towards an eating disorder my senior year of high school after my world had seemed to fall apart the summer before my sophomore year…I had been trying to put everything back together and regain a sense of control but it was out of my hands…I got lucky and realized what I was doing before I was in too deep to stop, but once a year or so it still flares back up, the idea that I can’t control much in my life, but if I didn’t eat so much then I could at least control my weight and be beautiful…such a twisted negative thought, and yet it continues to show up in my life…although I will say it is certainly not my primary concern…

  168. As a small group leader of young, single moms who have felt the sting of rejection, the pain of abandonment, and/or the tough consequences of poor choices, today’s devotional was SUPER encouraging! Thank you for the message of HOPE found only in His love. He will never abandon us or forsake us, and He will love us always, deeply and unconditionally, without regard to our messy pasts (or our jean size). 😉 I look forward to checking out “Atlas Girl” and considering it for our next small group study/discussion!

  169. Beautiful!! It’s amazing how many share similar testimonies. Of course I want to read the book but I have five important ladies in my life that I will share the wealth with. Thank you for sharing your story.

  170. Donna Smith says:

    I am a Sunday School teacher and I teach 3-6 years. One of my kids (a 4 year old boy) was burned very badly during a marshmallow roast at his home. The mother has 9 other children. Her husband died in November. I go to a Great Church who lives Jesus. Our church has taken this family to heart. The mother is an amazing woman and is not a feel sorry for me type of person. A little background: She was addicted to drugs and came to our church about 1 1/2 years ago, her intention was to expose one of the leaders for selling her a “junky car.” Well, instead, she encountered the love of Jesus and gave her life to the Lord. The couple she was going to expose (great leaders in our church) have taken her under their wing. Now, back to her son, he had his first skin graft surgery Monday and is due to have more. I was at the hospital Sun with her and she is standing strong but very weary. We will support her and stick by her through this as a church. When you asked for a free copy of the book to give away, I immediately thought of her. I would love to be able to give her this book. Thank you.

  171. Uhh, can you say perfect timing for today’s post ??? I was so inspired by this that it has been re-posted on Facbook today. THANK YOU GOD FOR YOUR EVER PREFECT TIMING !!!
    Here’s what I shared just 7 minutes ago:
    I just had to share this post today. I was just beating myself up as I looked at pictures from our Where Love Grows events. Yes, I want to remain healthy and have a fit body so I can do good works. What I find is that this issue leads me to be distracted from doing those good works. So now, I am going to commit to be more “mindful” and yes, take better care of myself but the negativity stops today Who’s with me ??

  172. I need to put this somewhere that I see it everyday.

  173. Holly branum says:

    I want one because my sister struggled with anorexia and I have struggled with over eating. I have two beautiful daughters who one of which already worries ob out how the world views the size of her body while I want the size of her love for Jesus to be what is important.

  174. Thank you, Emily, for such beautiful words of encouragement and the assurance of unconditional love.

  175. Your writing is real and fresh. Thank you for sharing this. As always, He directed me this devotional to be encouraged. I am in the Army; surrounded by coworkers, I took a minute to read your piece and fought tears triggered by truth. We are blessed. Mazel tov.

  176. I would love to receive a copy of this book. Your open and honest writing style is wonderful. You sharing your story is a beautiful example of redemption!

  177. Wonderful post – made me chuckle while remembering the message is so true. We all need to be reminded that we are loved but woman seem to need it slightly more often. I will certainly share with my daughter and daughter-in-law.

    Thanks for the great message today!! Elaine

  178. “Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:6-7 I love this verse I need to remember to cast all my anxiety on him he is in control not me!! Thank you

  179. Kristie Smith says:

    I would love to win a copy of your book Emily. I was raised as a pastor’s child too. Some people do not understand the hardships that brings. Long story short only God was able to heal me from an emotional past of abuse and watching my sister suffer from anorexia too. God led me to a counselor that taught me how to deal with my past, how to date men that I didn’t feel I had to fix but how to have a healthy relationship, and how to completely forgive those that hurt me. I wouldn’t be where I am today without God. I’m grateful that He has worked in such an amazing way in your life too!

  180. Kristy Lynn says:

    I would love a copy of Atlas Girl because my walk with God has been stalled this last year due to a lot of hurts I’ve been through.

  181. Kristen says:

    I would love a coy of your book

  182. WOW! How awesome. I truly was uplifted by this devotion this morning. If God did it for Emily, he can surely do same for each of us. LOVE YOU ALL!

  183. Nardia Sharpe says:

    Hello I’m saying hi from the island of Jamaica in the West Indies. love your post on Proverbs31 today it brought tears to my eyes. I would really loveee a copy of this book.

  184. I’m very interested in Emily’s book. I have raised 3 kids in the ministry (all in college now) and I’ve always been very aware of the possibilities of MY FAITH being the only encounter they have with Jesus. I’m happy to say that each of them love GOD on their own and have a personal relationship with Him (in spite of me).

    Kids always have a different view (their own view) of life!

  185. “We are God’s daughters, tucked in His arms, where He aches over hiccups, where He longs to carry our worries, and where He would die for us. He did die for us.” This spoke to me today. I spend a lot of time telling myself that I’m the worst Christian in the world and I convince myself that God is only ever disappointed in me. I need this reminder constantly — that He LOVES me, that He will always wrap me up in his love and mercy, that instead of running from His disappointment, I should run into His forgiveness.

  186. Sharon Fracassi says:

    My mother-in-law came to live with us back in April. She’s experienced much loss in her 77 years including three daughters and more recently her husband she has gone through much physical pain with many health issues. Since she has been with us she has captured on her heart the verse I have on my dining room table “Be still and know I am God” which we quoted together yesterday as well as encouraging her to “cast all your anxieties on the Lord because he cares for you”. Reminding her that his shoulders are bigger than ours he can carry it all. How beautiful that both of these verses were in your message today. I look forward to sharing your devotion with my mother-in-law. His words truly speak life. I will be sending this truth out to my three long-time friends today praying that God’s truth would burn in their hearts in the midst of the trials they are walking through. I love to read so if I would be blessed with a copy of your book offer, I know I would be encouraged and I would want to encourage others through it. Thank you for speaking God’s Word into us.

  187. Mocha Mama, PhD says:

    Emily, you rock, girl!

  188. This sounds like such an inspiring book with a fresh perspective on issues I see daily in the teenage and tween girls I work with that are involved in the juvenile legal system, as a juvenile probation officer. Some of the girls connect with me and regard me as ‘another mother’ and have stayed connected into adulthood. I am truly humbled and sometimes bewildered by that because I do not have all the answers. But I do listen. And try to gently steer them in the right direction.

  189. Theresa says:

    I was deeply moved by this post. I have covered pain with food, rather than by starving. Although our response to pain differed, we have both had an unhealthy response to pain. I can totally relate to your struggles on that level. I have struggled with feeling God’s love and would really love to win a copy of your book!

  190. Yes. A thousand times yes. So many things I love about this post. Running to purchase Emily’s book. Thank you, Emily, for being real and saying what most of us only whisper.

  191. I enjoyed Emily’s post today. I can sense raw, real emotions while briefly looking over her blog. Several women that I work with have books by TD Jakes, Lysa Terkeurst, Beth Moore, Angela Thomas (picked up at a Women’s Conference where she spoke), Max Lucado, Brooke McGlothlin (I ordered up after reading her devotion/blog), and Suzie Eller (picked up after reading her devotional). We would love to add AtlasGirl to our collection!

  192. leslie rowley says:

    What a gift to other women this is. While I have not struggled with an eating disorder I believe I am fat and not as good as other “skinnier” women. I constantly have to remind myself of God’s love for me and that he does not measure me by my size. Thank you for being courageous and for sharing your syory.

  193. thank you for the inspiring devotional … I would love to read more thru Emily’s book. God Bless.

  194. Today’s devotion moved me to tears. Yes we are not defined by the size of our jeans. No circumstance is difficult for The Lord. I would like a copy of Atlas glass as I am struggling with old wounds. I am Christian but struggle with depression

  195. kara wilson says:

    Such incredibly honest and beautiful writing! I have a sister who could use this exact encouragement. I’ll be sharing not only this article with her, but she is who I would give the book to also.

  196. My daughter

  197. Michelle Miller says:

    I would like to win this book because I have a hard time believing God can and does love me even with all my mess ups.

  198. Kristina Marra says:

    I cannot believe that this is EXACTLY what I needed to read today. This has been weighing on my heart and mind for a very long time. This has been such an encouragement, I can’t even find the words. All I can say is Thank You. You gave me the hope that I have been desperately needing

  199. Patsy Prisock says:

    We are Not Defined by the size of our Jeans–a great and uplifting devotional! Thank you! I would love a copy of Emily’s book. I have a very dear friend who is 46 and trying to recover from drug addiction. She’s about to lose her house, has already lost her job and car. Her biological family adds to the problem. So she is alone. I’d love for her to have this book to be reminded that God is with her always. I tell her this, but Emily’s writings are so touching and moving. She is doing well “right now”. I pray for her every day. She has a new job and rides a bicycle to and from work. She’s tough and determined. But I keep telling her she can not overcome this by herself. Please pray for her.
    Thank you for this devotional. I’ll share it with her. God bless you!

  200. SG Frederick says:

    This post was so encouraging! Women worry/think too much about what others think of them….we need to be focusing on how God sees us…great honesty in your words! I will be sharing this post with several of my friends, one in particular who is really struggling with her identity in Christ…thank you!

  201. G Raymond says:

    I love how God send us reminders when we need it most. I mentioned to my husband this morning how I pray for our children to never have to struggle with weight as I feel I have. Then the first thing I read this morning was: WE ARE NOT DEFINED BY THE SIZE OF OUR JEANS. WE ARE GOD’S DAUGHTERS, TUCKED AWAY IN HIS ARMS WHERE HE LOVES TO CARRY WORRIES, AND WHERE HE WOULD DIE FOR US.” Your books sounds like a perfect read. Thank you for your consideration and great blog.

  202. WOW WOW WOW. It’s as if this woman wrote a letter to me. Such an incredible testimony…and such impeccable timing. God is amazing. Thank you!!!

  203. It sounds like Emily and I have had some of the same struggles. I would love a copy of her book to see how she found her way out.

  204. Erica Gray says:

    Thank you for the beautiful blog. I ran into addiction before I finally ran into the arms of God’s love. I am redeemed and thankful but I have been having trouble with gaining weight for the first time in my life and it’s been really hard for me. Your blog was encouraging. I would love a copy of your book. Be blessed in all you do and may your words reach and encourage many hearts.

  205. A Thomas says:

    Thank you for sharing this message of finding ourselves defined in His Love. I hope to read your book and share it with a women’s group to bring us all further down the road of emotional healing and wholeness, that can only be found in Him.
    Blessings ~

  206. I so enjoyed this devotional! I will be sharing it with my friends.

  207. Noelle Ammerman says:

    This devotion was very fitting for me today. I am so very glad I came across it on Facebook. All morning The Lord has been dealing with me on this topic and on the topic on trusting Him . I know ur book is going to be an awesome read for whoever is chosen by you as the winner and I want to thank God for you offering this opportunity to us for there are many of us who don’t have funds to obtain a copy. I would love to be blessed with this book for I know I could use it to encourage others in my churches overcomer group that I help teach in. May God bless you and prosper you in your business and future writing.

  208. A good word for me.

  209. Love this post! I’ve heard of Emily’s book, but haven’t had time to read about it. This post makes me want to take the time to find it and read it.

  210. I would love to quickly read this book then pass on to my youngest daughter who is a High School English Teacher and the Varsity Cheerleading Sponsor. I’m betting she could use insights from this writing as she deals with teenage girls everday:)

  211. yes, this
    beloved and accepted
    because He created us
    and we are His!

  212. Crystal says:

    Thank you for today’s blog. Like so many others, it touched me deep where I am hurting most and gave me encouragement and the gentle reminder of God’s Truth. He DOES care for me, and my circumstances are not a reflection of that truth. My circumstances are there. Sometimes they are wonderful and I praise God, and sometimes they are less than wonderful and I wonder where God is. But the TRUTH is that He is there in the midst of everything in my life. I am interested in Emily’s book, as she seems to write at an encouraging level, without being fluff. She is real, and I feel she would admonish in a loving way.

  213. michelle h says:

    love to share this book with teens I know

  214. As a Christian Counselor, I hear the painful struggles of many women and am humbled by the privilege to pray and counsel them. I’m also humbly reminded of my own negative thoughts toward myself or feeling that I’m not “good enough.” Thank you Emily for being so transparent and real…thank you for reminding me how much we are cherished by Him no matter how negatively we view ourselves.

  215. Thank you for reminding me that God sees our pain and wants to wrap us up in his love. I have been In a very painful season, but know that God has been very present in it all. I would love to read your book and share with my friend, who is also in a painful season.

  216. This was so uplifting for me. I hope those special girlfriends will read this.

  217. Thankyou for this devotional it gives me hope that I to can be at peace and to love who I am . I’m just not quite there yet , in my early 20’s I had a tramatic event happen to me . It has changed me I feel like something was taken from me and Im on this journey to get it back . I am in the process of healing emotionally and learning to trust people and most of all God . I know he loves me but don’t always feel it and I know once I learn how to let go of my fears and anxieties I will be able to trust God and others and I will true oh know who I am and to be ok with me . I would love to have a copy of your book the more tools I have the better to understanding who I am and to know how much God loves me . Thankyou for letting me share

  218. Sandy Shaffer says:

    Thank you.

  219. Mom@lthfarm says:

    We have just started a youth group in our church, of mostly teen aged girls. This would be wonderful opportunity to speak truth into our girls where their true beauty comes from! Thank you for sharing your inner-most feelings with all of us, in hopes to ignite the love of God within us! :) You are e blessing to so many!

  220. Christina Ummel says:

    I would love a copy of this book. I could share if with the many special women that I work with.

  221. jennifer says:

    It is good to be reminded that God is still in control and He loves us.

  222. Thank you for sharing your story. Regardless of the self image battle, God loves us and has a great plan for our lives.

  223. I enjoyed reading this. It is touching and true. God does love us no matter what we look like, or for that matter our age, our abilities or lack of abilities. I was a little distressed with the picture though. If we say we are not defined by our jean size, it seems a little inconsistent, to me, to use a picture of a size what 0 pair of legs in tight jeans. Might want to reconsider maybe just putting a pair or wrinkled, say size 12 (that is the average size most women buy) jeans on the cover. Just a thought. Otherwise, there was some good stuff here. Thanks.

    Laura L. Padgett, Author, Dancer, Speaker
    “Dolores, Like the River” – a book about beauty and grace in aging and coming of age

  224. michelle says:

    Oh what a blessing this book would be… In the end, after reading my own copy, I would give that away too! I think of my own daughter that is pregnant now, has miscarried, and had a former eating disorder. I think of my daughter in law… And other ladies in my life. As well as a few girls in our youth group that could benefit from this as well. Giving away 10 copies would be easy… Blessings!

  225. Rebecca Gravelle says:

    I’m going through a difficult time right now and could really use the insights from the book.

  226. Sharon Sharp says:

    I was touched by the todays article because it is so very easy for all of us women to get caught up with what the world today wants us to think is important, but is truly not. For instance, square footage of a house, having perfect children and marriage, being in a perfect size jean, etc. God made each and every one of us and knows exactly how many hairs are on our head. He loves us no matter what, even when we stray and forget how deep his love is for us. We aren’t suppose to be perfect. We need to just be ourselves and love one another as he loves us. My life has had its shares of tragedy, so reminders like this help to carry on with my chin up knowing that I am loved!!! Thank you!

  227. I’d love a copy to read for myself and then share with friends after I read it because being comfortable in our own skin is such an important lesson for women to internalize! It’s funny how when God really wants me to listen to a message from Him, He sends it to me multiple ways until I say, “Ok, God, I’m listening.” My CrossFit friends & I were just talking about being comfortable in our own skin after we worked out this morning. We are all fearfully & wonderfully made by our Heavenly Father!

  228. Lana Haldeman says:

    This was my first time reading your devotional and I am so glad I did. I also am looking forward to reading your book coming out in Jan. God Bless you Karen in ALL your endeavors!!!

  229. Beautiful post!

  230. Thank you for this beautiful, touching devotional today! I love how God has used every part of your story to touch hearts for His glory, His kingdom! This was a great way to start my day, right where I am and embracing the blessings around me! I too suffered two miscarriages before being graced with two beautiful girls. It was not until life brought me to my knees that I was able to look up and see my Lord, waiting to comfort me!

  231. This sounds like a perfect book for one of my granddaughters. She is 18 and just graduated from high school. She is diabetic and doesn’t take care of herself. She is unhappy at home with some good reason. For several years she has been attempting to find out who she really is, and she struggles with depression. At this point in her life she has decided she is independent and no one can tell her anything. She works, has a boyfriend, is tattooing and piercing, and making other really bad choices. We pray daily for God’s protection over her, and we try to make her understand just how much she is loved, by us and God. She is very, very smart but is refusing to go to college right now. SHE NEEDS TO READ THIS BOOK. Please join us in praying for her and her decisions as they all seem to come from a dark place rather than the light of Jesus.

  232. Wow…this article was one that deeply touched me and came at a very emotional and necessary time. Over the past 6 months I have gained about 30 pounds. As someone who has been tiny all of her life, this is very different territory for me. I do not know if it is because I will be turning 40 this month, because I work and go to school and raise all my kids from home as a single Mom so there is not opportunity much to get out and be active, because I have always been a homebody, because I am truly not happy within myself…I don’t know. But all of the sudden, I feel different as far as who I am…and that matches how I look differently now. Always worries what others think because I live in a vey tiny town and they’ve always known me as small…but look at me now, 3 sizes bigger (in clothing label). I have not had the motivation to lose the weight yet and part of me thinks it is because for once in my life, I want to be loved, noticed, and gain attraction for my insides (instead of my outsides which I have always gained attention from). So I am trying to learn to love myself AS IS…the way Jesus loves me. This book would be a wonderful read and I believe it would be healing in this new journey I find myself in…learning to accept and genuinely love a new version of myself, instead of changing to fit back into the version that people have always known in order to feel accepted and beautiful. What a blessing this book is, and God Bless you for writing and sharing this journey with the world!

  233. Angela Smith says:

    I’ve had a real hard time with my size and my worth. I enjoy your messages and I would share this book with my daughter, too.

  234. Rebecca Johnson says:

    I would love to win her book. This devotional came at the exact time I needed it the most. I have had 3 miscarriages and am trying for over a year for a second child. As the devotional said to Cast all your cares on Him because He cares for me. Thank you for the sweet reminder! May God Bless you!

  235. Kimunyi Ilunga says:

    I want to be taken on the emotional journey into God, s loving arms where wounds are cleaned, anoited with oil and healing takes place. This book will help me and will give it to my daughter and will insist my daughter to give it down to her daughter if God blesses her with one, or a daughter in law if blessed by a son.

  236. Thank you, Emily! I was literally confessing and praying about this same obsession last night. I was confessing my personal pity party about being forty, pre-menopausal, and never able to finally shed those pounds. I was asking God to infuse me anew with his unfailing, unconditional, abundant love! And I read this, this morning… God hears. Love Him :)

  237. I have spent ten years in an emotionally abusove relationship that destroyed everything within me. I’m on the oath to healing now, but struggling so much with feeling like I’ll ever be happy again, or like I’m good enough to deserve even the air I breathe. I would like a copy of this book because I think it will help move my healing forward.

  238. Billiejo says:

    Thank you!

  239. Thank you for this. I needed this today.

  240. Jennifer Roberson says:

    I loved this devotional! If I got a copy of this book, id read it with my 18 yr old daughter, who struggles with anorexia and body issues. Although she is beautiful inside and out. Made in the image of God. I pray and I trust that she will turn back to Him, and have the peace and joy that only comes from Jesus.

    • Dear Jennifer, I love your heart for your daughter. I have written a book for those struggling with eating disorders, and their families: Chasing Silhouettes ~ How to Help a Loved One Battling an Eating Disorder ( Perhaps it could help? Bless you, e.

  241. I enjoyed this devotion and would enjoy reading the book. Thank you!

  242. I had 2 miscarriages within 10 months of each other, 3 years ago, and have been climbing the never-ending hill back to “normal” since then. wondering who I am, where who I was went, and how I can find myself. I would love to read this book, if not only to see that others have found the joy in the struggle.

  243. Sarah kruse says:

    Like Emily I suffered from anorexia as a young teen to cover up hurts and heartache I suffered after my mom left 4 days after my 12th birthday. i moved to the US as an exchange student fro England 4 days after my 18th birthday partly to try to escape from my situation. Over the years there have been bad relationships, sever clinical depression after the birth of my 3rd child resulting in electric shock treatment (I found out during the beginning of my pregnancy that my husband had been having an affair – at the time we were doing apartment ministry – with one of the residents). After years of counselling and crying out to God, I know that God loves me, and has walked through it all with me. I know work with a ministry with young troubled women, work with the youth at church and am about to start homeschooling my 12 yr old niece who herself has gone through more than she should at such a young age. I want to let God work through my experiences and pain to help young women walk through and rise above the pain they have or are currently experiencing. I feel that Atlas Girl would definitely help me to help others.

  244. Deidre Moore says:

    I thank you for this story, I struggle just the opposite with eating, and being in a size 16 and seeing women in beautiful dresses and wishing I was their size. I struggle with what the world tells me that I should look like. I struggle with believing that I am beautiful and sexy when my husband tells me that I am . Feeling like my children are embarrassed because of my weight. I know God loves me and I know God sees me as beautiful but it’s really nice to hear that from a stranger and that your not the only one that struggles with appearance and doubts thank you and everyone s post has encouraged me.

  245. Corinne Calder says:

    It would be a read for insight… in full time ministry with daughters! My sister struggled with anorexia for 15 years – lost the battle here and went to be with Jesus. Daughters facing similar challenges…

  246. Deidre Moore says:

    I also remembering hearing in church Sunday that the Gospel defines All that I am!

  247. I was breezing through Emily’s devo for today when something she wrote stopped me dead in my tracks.: “It’s a lot easier to hide, than trust Jesus with our pain, our questions about who we are and if we matter.” Then she goes on to describe herself – and I realize she could easily be me, except that I have the opposite problem with eating. Thank you Emily, for being so open ad honest. You’ve helped me tremendously!

  248. Love, love, love this post! It made me tear up, laugh, and tear up some more. What relief to think of Jesus’ arms wrapped around me in the middle of a hectic day, when I felt too busy to stop and read this. Busy worrying about my weight…and busy being super serious, and responsible, and distracted. It made me stop and laugh at the absurdity of some things that stressed me out this week, and pray about the rest. Let us never lose sight of who we truly are, especially in a world that thrusts its priorities on us every chance it gets.

  249. Thank you so much Emily….l wish l could SHARE your words with the World! May God bless you for encouraging all your Eternal Sibling about Our Father’s Love.

  250. Hi i have been dealing with fear, worry, frustration. To read this today made me cry because i needed to read this and i needed to be reminded that God loves us. We hear it and we read about it, but we forget, i forget and i need to be reminded of how much he loves me, i need to feel his arms around me. i dont want to live in fear i want to receive his love and let it sink in soak in, and let cast out all fear!

  251. Samara (in England) says:

    I’m sat here in my living room , with my children , and that bought tears into my eyes. I know what you mean about having one of those moments, where you realise who you are, and you are loved. I get that stating in the living roon at the weekend, with my husband and children, when all is at peace ( at last! :) )That really is who we are – loved. Not defined by dress size, what we do as a job. Nothing. God has us tucked up in His arms, and is singing over us – awesome! Thank you for your awesome words today. X

  252. thank you for this wonderful devotional! i do think it is too bad the woman in the picture LOOKS like she has a small jean size. we are not defined by the size of our jeans but this woman looks like she could be defined by the number and be okay about it!

  253. This was beautiful and just what I needed to hear. Thank you.

  254. I really needed this today, God’s timing is impeccable!! Thank you so much for sharing your heart and soul with us!

  255. My daughter just turned 16 and I would love for her to read this book. She has the same spirit I do…except, thank God, much sweeter. :) She has had real struggles this last year and I think this would really touch her heart and let her know that love and faith isn’t out there somewhere, but where she is.

  256. Grace Crapitto says:

    I would love to read this book as Emily sounds like such an incredible person and I would love to hear more from her.

  257. I loved this devotion and it was encouraging. I would ove to have a copy of the book. I also know what it’s like to suffer a miscarriage in 1997 and then waas diagnosed with moderate to severe depression in 1998. My husband and I have 2 adopted boys from Korea. One has behavioral challenges (he has been through years of therapy) and the other has A.D.H.D. Some days are a real struggle emotionally and I feel very alone. It’s always good to remember how God loves me even when I feel very unlovable. God is faithful!!

    • oh Gail, may God be your strength and your rock. Yours is not an easy journey but he promises to be with us as we walk through the fire and the storm… believing in this for you! e.

  258. It is so easy to fall into the trap of feeling like we have to fit a certain mold. I got sacked into that myself and have paid for it in a failed marriage. If only I had had more faith at that time that only God’s love matters. ..only He can make us whole. I would love to share this book with my niece who is struggling from addiction right now… Thank you for reminding me what is truly important! !

  259. Emily,
    Thank you so much for your honest and heartfelt words today. I am 56 years old and lost my husband of 30 years last August. It has been SO hard. People tell me I am doing well, but they don’t see it.
    The world doesn’t just tell us we are defined by the size of our jeans, it also tells us we are valued if we are strong and self-sufficient and not weak and needy. Most people can sympathize for a while, but then they just want you to get over it and get on with it.
    Trust me. I’d love to get over it and get on with it. Unfortunately, it doesn’t work that way.
    I just feel so incredibly alone.
    “In the midst of our pain, He is there” you say. And in my head, because I know God’s Word, I know that to be true. So why don’t I feel it?
    “It’s not easy to truly cast our anxiety on Jesus in a world that tells us we are defined by the size of our jeans. It’s a lot easier to hide than trust Jesus with our pain, or our questions about who we are and if we matter.” I cried when I got to this paragraph. This is so very true. It should be just the opposite, but for some reason we always fight being honest with God … even though he knows, whether we tell him or not.
    I was just telling a wise Christian friend that very thing earlier today — how very hard it is to tell Jesus how much pain we are really feeling. She gently reminded me that we must ask God for what we want and need. Even though He knows all about it anyway, we still have to ask Him for those things that are hard for our pride to admit that we need. That includes comfort and companionship and wisdom and strength and direction. I’m trying.
    After being a Christian all my life, you’d think that I’d already understand how much Jesus loves me. But maybe I really don’t. I would love to find myself in that place where I just “step straight into Love”. As soon as I close post this comment, I’m going to ask Him for that as well.
    And He is faithful to keep His promises (Deut.7:9).
    Thank you again for sharing your heart. I will be pondering this in mine today.

    P.S. The “Truth for Today” verse was my husband’s favorite verse. :-) It was read at his service.
    P.P.S. I would love a copy of your book. I could read it … then pass it on to my two daughters. :-)

  260. Elaine Hansen says:

    I think all women need constant reminders of who we REALLY are and what TRULY defines us. Every woman I know that Loves God wants to be a Proverbs 31 woman and many times the demands of life get in the way and crowd out what’s most important until we feel like a dry desert and they we run thirting after our first love again. Thankfully, those dry desert times become fewer and fewer as we live closely with our God who loves us with an everlasting love. Thanks for blessing me with your post today! My you be blessed as you go out and come in.

  261. I am always blessed by the devotionals. Your insights on God’s love were just what I needed to hear today. I have struggled my entire life with my weight. I needed to be reminded that God loves me better than I love myself.
    I would love to read your book. My ladies bible study could benefit from reading your book. Thank you for all that you do Emily. You are an inspiration.

  262. Crystal N says:

    This is a great reminder! It’s so easy to get wrapped so tightly in what we think we’re not that we forget what we are!

  263. Sheeba m says:

    This devotional was yet a reminder of our Lord’s magnificent love and grace in all our imperfections. I am 37 now n thought till now that my journey with the lord started at 22 wen i wEnt searching for a place to feel accepted .infact the journey started wen i was formed in my mother’s womb as the word confirms in the book of joshua.i am now a mother of two n i find contentment like no other knowing just abit of Him n a very imp goal of mine is to teach my kids wat it took me so long to know.

  264. Rebecca says:

    Simply put…an atlas would be lovely. I know God is my True Atlas, but I’m thinking this book may have some things that speak to my soul.

  265. Catina Roberts says:

    I was moved to tears reading the blog, GOD is so “mindful” of us and our needs. I would love a copy of her book to read and share with others.

  266. I would love a chance to win this book to see who I am through Christ. I have been struggling with this lately. Trying to be who God created me, but not always understanding. Also trying to find the path God wants for me.

  267. Melanie says:

    I’m intrigued already and I’ve only just heard of you tonight! I know I’d be honored and blessed to receive this!

  268. Crystie Rhyner says:

    THIS is just what I need! I am recovering from brain surgery and while I am very thankful to be on the other side of the pain I had been enduring for over a year, this has been an extremely lonely time for me…one I have essentially endured alone. I never expected that. And it has thrown me, and who I thought I was, for a loop. I would love the chance to read this book, and maybe gain some of the ground back that I have allowed Satan to steal from me.

  269. I love your inspiration.

  270. Tanya Kalina says:

    Thank you for the beautiful devotional today. I woke up at 4:30 am inexplicably singing “When I wake up in Glory” by Big Daddy Weave. When the alarm came on at 6 am I heard 10000 Reasons by Matt Redmond, the first song I heard after my mother’s death followed by Amazing Grace, her favorite hymn. I realized that today is the second anniversary of the day she went home to our Lord. I know this was God’s way of letting me know that she is with him. She had diabetes & was sick so I had a lot of responsibility growing up to help her and the last 8 years of her life she came to live with my family. I have found myself wondering what purpose God has planned for me besides being a mother of three and wife of 17 years to an amazing Godly man. This devotional was touched my heart and reaffirmed my worth to him and his love for me no matter what I am going through.

  271. I would love to read the book! Great blog!

  272. Heather Kits says:

    Absolutely beautiful. I’d love to share a copy with a sweet family member who struggles with eating issues and thoughts of worthlessness. God bless u, Emily, and your beautiful family!!! Thank you for sharing your beauty and talent with so many!!!

  273. This devotion was absolutely beautiful! I would love a copy of Atlas Girl!

  274. Lisa Flores says:

    I know a friend and I could get a lot out of this book and we would love a copy to share. We are both struggling with understanding why we are “trapped” here when we both so desperately want to move on to “bigger and better” things. We are trying to find ways to be joyful and glorify God even though we don’t see the purpose we know He has for us.

  275. Heather S. says:

    I needed this reminder lately. Lots of changes and anticipation in my life lately. I keep giving it to God only to have some news give it back to me. I keep trying to convince my hubby to keep the faith too. That’s tough.

  276. Consuella Craig says:

    I would buy my own copy but donate a copy I won to the young adult ministry at my church. So many young women struggle with so many issues and Emily’s book seems like it could really reach some of the young ladies and help them through their struggles. For those not struggling Emily’s words offer encouragement and assurance.

  277. Crystal Morgan says:

    This really touched me today. Going through so many things right now including my own daughter moving out at 18 & not the way I know God has planned for her! I really want to read this book, would love to have a copy!!

  278. Loved the devotional and would love to have a copy of the book so I could share with my girls and friends!! God bless you!

  279. Joyce Ansell says:

    I love your blog, so interesting. If your book is the same, I would love reading it, too.

  280. Michelle says:

    The name of the book makes me want to read in this transition of my life. Military wife, single parenting for over a year while my husband is gone-this summer we are moving overseas to be with him, away from my hometown and family, I’ve never left. God is home and I need reminding of that sometimes! Thanks for the opportunity

  281. Anita S says:

    This is the first time that I have read anything even an excerpt of what you have written and it makes me want to read more. I would love to win your book but if I don’t I would still buy it so I could crawl in bed at night and read. It is good to be reminded of the love of our Father. God bless!

  282. I continue to try to grow in my face and look for opportunities around me to learn more.

  283. I would love a copy of your book as most women struggle with this personal issue. It always refreshing to hear the truth reinforced and God’s true plan for our lives revealed.

  284. This blog really caught my attention because I also had anorexia in high school. I don’t think the healing process ever ends for an anorexic but I truly credit my faith in Jesus for my recovery. I am now a mother of 3 (including 2 daughters) and in the difficult process of adoption. I look at my children and pray they realize they are fearfully and wonderfully made and that they never experience body image issues like I have. Thank you!

  285. Continuing to carry on with much hope and a grateful heart while I face lifelong disabilities due to a tragic accident of being struck by a vehicle, never having closer to that person being found. The Lord knows and do it is in knowing this that I have trusted Him in my purpose here. I am Blessed beyond measure despite challenges♡

  286. Kynisha says:

    Wonderful and uplifting testimonial today. As I read it, I found myself relating in so many ways. While I am past the Lego’s and trains stage, I can remember when I played with my sons. I have two boys, age 17 and 21 and I still find myself reminiscing about the days of ole. Now, it is harder to get them to spend that quality time with you. So i find myself playing board games, watching a show they like or try to get them to cook with me just to spend some time with them. It like you want to still feel connected to them and you want to still feel needed and loved. I love to write, arts and crafts, and reading. I am on the hunt for a good and inspirational read where I can receive encouragement and feel inspired. I just signed up to crosswalk and have enjoyed the daily thoughts of encouragement. Thanks for sharing!

  287. This really encouraged me. Thank you.

  288. Theresa says:

    Hi, this is Theresa from South Africa, I would love a copy of the book. Today’s devo is exactly where I am at right now!

  289. Callie Lampe says:

    I’d love to win a copy of this book, to encourage me to spend more time in the Word! Thank you!

  290. Joanna Gaskins says:

    I would love a copy of the book. As a long time Christian struggling with coming back to the Lord, I would love the encouragement!

  291. Nancy Mason says:

    I would like to read it and then pass along to my “Bonus granddaughter” who is obsessed with people following her on various social sites and following stars on various sites. Also my granddaughter who from time to time has had trouble making friends.

  292. I’d love to win a copy and would definitely share it with my small group friends!

  293. Wendy Finlan says:

    I love knowing that I’m Gods child. He has helped me through so much in my life. Sometimes we get so busy in our lives that we forget that he is there helping us through. Just reading this devotional has reminded me of the things that he has done for me. Thank you. I would love to read Atlas girl. Free or not I probably will.:)

  294. Athena Barnim says:

    Remembering He is with us in our pain can make all the difference! I would love to read more!! God bless!

  295. Christal Byma says:

    As I read this devotion, I thought, “wow, this is so written for me”. It’s amazing how God is speaking to me even when I am being a difficult child. I can’t wait to read this book. If I don’t win it, where can I purchase it?

  296. Linda Gatza says:

    I just read this and found it coincides with a summer Bible study I’m participating in, sort of, by Good Morning Girls entitled YOU ARE LOVED. This touches as well on the heart of God in relationship to us a women. Women who would rather be in someone else’s body or clothes or …

  297. Elora Trumper says:

    I would like this book to share with my daughter who is having a very tough pregnancy and her marriage is on shaky grounds as well. She would benefit greatly. I pray for her each day.

  298. RaeAnne says:

    What a blessing your writings are for so many. I’d love a copy of your book for my sister. She’s been battling brain cancer and her husband left with her children. Now through all this she’s coming to know the Lord. What a blessing for her to know she’s not alone and never has been.

  299. I would love a copy of this book. My heart is hurting!!!

  300. Melanie sparks says:

    Your book looks like a lifesaver 😉
    I hope I get a chance to read it.

  301. Fran Brillhart says:

    Just read the first two chapters and loved it. I want to share this book with the girls in our church. Many struggle with the same issues. Very well written.

  302. Kori Sneller says:

    I enjoyed this devotional blog, it brought tears to my eyes. This is what I have been searching for and I believe God led me to this, through a friend liking it on Facebook. Whether I win this giveaway or not I AM going to read this book :) I need it :)

  303. I really enjoyed the blog, and I would love to read this book. The author’s honesty and humility is a rare and wonderful combination.

  304. Amy Bailey says:

    I would love to be blessed with a copy and would pass along to girlfriends and my daughters one day. I read the excerpt earlier today and shared it on my FB because it touched me so much. I am also 33 and just gave birth to my fourth little angel 13 days ago. My parents haven’t been in my life since before my 3rd little guy was born and by their choosing and morbid as it is to say I still feel in many ways it would be easier if they had passed away rather than choosing not to see myself and my sweet babies. I spent my whole life people pleasing due to conditional love but hard as it has been I wouldn’t trade it because I have fallen deeper in love with sweet Jesus and have found what unconditional love really is and he is the most amazing, tender Father a girl could ask for. I still struggle with people pleasing and perfectionism at times but am far better than I was thanks to the Lord. I want to be better for my babies and don’t want them following in my footsteps. I want them to know they are fearfully and wonderfully made and that He made no mistakes when he made them, in Jesus’ name!! I want them to live for Him and no other and I know they’ll be happy and fulfilled and when they fall short He will carry them and lift them up. This is the love I’ve found and its changed my life but I’m still a hot mess in progress :)

  305. Very emotionally and sspiritually touching. I’m I need of feeling God’s arms around me. I’m very depressed. The last year has been horrible. I was diagnosed with Lupus after years of no treatment and doctor’s who failed to listen to me. Four months ago my father in law passed away and less than two weeks ago my mother in law his wife passed away. My father has had two strokes and suffers. Just a lot of pain that I do not understand. I need God and his Angel’s. I’m struggling right now. I would love to read your book. I feel horrible that my faith is being tested. I’m just so emotional over this all going on with our families.

  306. I would love to win.

  307. I have 4 daughters that would be so blessed by your book. Thank you so much for this gifting opportunity.

  308. Thank you for sharing! I just read the last 3 days of devotionals & I’m balling over here!!! I’ve shared & encouraged my best friend too, to read & apply to her hard times. Thank you Jesus when we hear your voice & obey! You Jesus hear our prayers & comfort us.

  309. Such honesty about her struggles and pain. Loved the blog post. Looking forward to reading this book.

  310. This is the second time this week God has used a devotion from Proverbs 31 ministries to encourage me & remind me He is with me. I have been struggling with a lot of things lately, mainly a marriage that seems to be imploding after what seemed to be a turnaround for the better 2 yrs ago. I would love to win a copy of your book! Thank you for your honesty & willingness to be real!!

  311. Taqquia says:

    LOVE this! Beautifully said ❤️

  312. I would love a copy! Many blessings

  313. Chrysue Schlageter says:

    Sometimes this is a hard truth for us humans to grasp. How does God see us? Who are we in our truest selves? God sees us as his daughters. Still trying to grasp this . Would love to read Atlas Girl. I would share it with anyone I might seeking to know more of how God sees us.

  314. I would love a copy of this book! I struggled with an eating disorder for many years and still have to be careful not to fall into the traps again- Also a mom of two! I feel like I would really be able to relate to you and what you have to say in your book! Thanks!

  315. Marilyn Lee says:

    Tonight is the first time I have read from your blog. It really touched my heart. Is your book sold in Christian bookstores? You have been through some hard times and the Lord never left your side. That is so the story of my life. The Lord has blessed me more than I have ever deserved, but Praise His Name, He has never left my side. And has always picked me up when I would fall. I would love to read your book, it is very inspirational. God bless you in a special way as you continue to minister to all the women going through similar trials.

    • Hi Marilyn, yes, Atlas Girl is sold in Barnes and Noble and in Christian bookstores across the States. It’s also available on Amazon. Grateful for you and your story too sister! e.

  316. Amanda Smith says:

    This is something I personally struggle with. I need to learn to break this cycle and trust God’s love. I will share this with my daughters. I want them to learn this! Thank you for the chance.

  317. Carole Brown says:

    I would love a copy!

  318. Laken DePew says:

    On my way back to work from break, I was crying and praying that God fill me up and cover me with peace. Then, I got to work, opened up Facebook and read this blog that was EXACTLY what I needed to hear. Needless to say, I could not stop the tears of joy from flowing. God recently told me through a friend to be still and the end of this blog used the same verse. I know God spoke to me through your blog and I would love to read the book :) Praise Him!! :))
    Thank you for everything you do, Proverbs 31 Ministires!! God Bless!

  319. Kelsey Raye says:

    I would really like a copy because the devotional she wrote today really hit home with me because I could relate to it so much.

  320. Rhonda Denton says:

    Reading all the comments before mine broke my heart and gave me hope all at the same time. More than anything, I struggle with aloneness…I have a social anxiety disorder and sensory processing issues and it makes it extremely difficult to be around people or to ask for help for my issues. Coming to Jesus several years ago has made a marked difference but my struggle is far from over…yet, here at Proverbs 31 I don’t feel so alone and Especially today, I feel hope, a tiny sliver of hope…..thank you Emily!!! PS My baby girl is an Emily too :-)

    • Dear Rhonda, I’m SO grateful that my words could give you a tiny sliver of hope! That just makes my heart want to sing! You are not alone friend. We walk this journey with you, and Abba’s running down the path to meet you–He just loves you so much. Bless you. e.

  321. Amber d. says:

    I think many more people struggle with eating and body image disorders than we can image. I know a couple special people who would benefit greatly from your writing!

  322. Sabine S. says:

    I would love a copy of the book because I too am working on “learning to trust God in the ache.” And it helps always to hear the testimonies of other women who are successfully allowing God to fill all their hollow spaces. Bless you!

  323. Oh sounds wonderful!!!!! :) I would love to read this book & share with friends!!!

  324. Kimberly says:

    I am a single mom with a lot of struggles & would love love love to win a copy of your book to read & then share with friends that also need encouragement!

  325. I think the hardest thing is to feel worthy right now in this moment. Just as I am. I loved today’s devotion and verse. There is a constant battle to just try to be . the girl with the gifts God gave me.

  326. Shelley Sawyer says:

    I would love to read more/

  327. Wow..after a long, rough day fighting my insecurities..this made me bawl. Thanks for sharing your story and your heart…with lots of prayers and love from another Emily.

  328. Michelle says:

    This truly touched my heart. Thank you for your honesty, and for allowing God to use your words to encourage and heal others :)

  329. Would love to have a book, have been hurt by 2 churches and have lost my footing and my way :( been a little resentful towards “the church” I have let it affect my relationship with God…. thankful He has saved me and loving me through this storm!

  330. Linda Summers says:

    The Lord helped my husband and I find each other again. We have both grown closer to Him and even when we were one step from being homeless God helped us through.

  331. The writing for this day from the author of Atlas Girl gave me inspiration and showed clearly how much God loves me unconditionally. Her love for her child is phenomenal and I want to read her book about her growing experience in finding fulfillment and purpose in living for God.

  332. Rebecca McFarland says:

    Just what I needed to read tonight. ♥ ♡ ♥ ♡ Thank you!

  333. I would love a copy for my daughter. She went through an eating disorder two years ago, she is doing so much better with that but is now walking away from the Lord. She was raised in a Godly home and this is such a heartache! She is 18 now. Thank you for sharing your story! God bless you!

  334. Jessica says:

    I would love to win the book, for a best friend that is really struggling with church right now. She loves to read and I’m praying it would help her.

  335. I would love this book. I seem to be living a rollercoaster in past few months and anythimg to keep reminding me to trust in Him would be soo unbelievably helpful and a blessing.

  336. Melyssa says:

    I would love to have a copy of her book to read and share with my girlies. Raising girls in this day is hard. I want mine to grow up knowing this and not have to learn it the hard way!

  337. jennifer says:

    I love you devotional!! It is very dear to my heart! For a long time I Have been a stay at home mom and a wife! I take care of my kids and husband but now my kids are getting older and I feel like I have lost sight of who i am!I have found a new excitement in learning about myself an who I am in christ!! I would love for you book to help me on my way!!! If you have any othe suggestion please let me know!! :-)

  338. I have read and re-read your book Chasing Silhouettes. My 22 year-old daughter has battled anorexia for the past 7 years. She has been hospitalized twice, most recently last Sept after her bone marrow stopped producing red blood cells. She battled to come home and finally left treatment to come live at home. Since arriving, she has lost the ground gained in treatment and is struggling so much with every aspect of life. She refuses to participate in counseling but will keep dr appointments. –I want to read Atlas Girl in hopes that it will be something I can pass on to her to give her hope –to show her that there can be an end to the struggle–to show her how God heals and works in the life of someone who has battled the demons of eating disorders.

    • oh Linda. This is so hard, this journey… I’m so sorry. Your heart must just ache for your beautiful daughter. I have tears thinking of her and the prison she’s in. It’s not uncommon that coming home can cause a relapse; because your daughter is coming home to all of the memories, all of the things that defined her as a young girl, and so she is struggling to see herself as a NEW identity, apart from the ED, because her surroundings remind her that she has this ED. I will pray for SUCH wisdom for you Linda… I’d also like to encourage you to check out… they have some wonderful online support groups. Bless you sister.

  339. Thank you for this devotional! I can see that God has used it to speak to so many others as well. I’m sure the book is just as good. Even if I don’t win a copy, I’ll add it to my list of books to be read!

  340. I love this post but I was puzzled by the picture. ‘We aren’t defined by the size of our jeans’ …. that’s easy to say when the person in the picture is a perfectly shaped size 2 – maybe!!

  341. Heather says:

    Very encouraging!! I definitely struggle with how I view myself.

  342. Morgan Massey says:

    Oh how I would love to read this book!

  343. I really enjoyed the piece that I read today. It touched my soul. I also long for a home in a world that isn’t quite our eternal home. Home is in Jesus but often times so much in this life muddies the waters of knowing his love. I would love to win a couple of your memoir!!

  344. Melanie says:

    I would love to win. I would read it myself because I need the encouragement and then I would pass it on to a friend or put it in our Womens ministry room.

  345. I would love to have a copy for my daughter. She’s been struggling for many years because of things from her past.

  346. I would love a copy of the book! The blog is truly inspiring, it is so hard for me to have confidence and think of myself as beautiful often, but I know The Lord’s love for me is never ending, and he has been showing me what my beauty is. Great giveaway!

  347. beth shurbutt says:

    Wow! I want to read more!!

  348. I was just taking a peek at my newsfeed before bed. I just moved back to my hometown last month and it has been a season of loss and opportunity. I was skimming the preview of this book and caught the line ‘learning to trust God in the aches.’ And that’s where I’m at. I’d love to read this book. If I get it, then I think maybe God wants me to be blessed it. If not, someone else needs it more than me. Either way, this is a sweet gesture. God bless you and keep you.

  349. Pat Parker says:

    I have lost weight and gained weight. Lost it again and gained it again. Feeling like a failure lately. Feeling like I have never fit in. I would LOVE to jump naked on a trampoline, but would probably get arrested. We have been trying to sell our home. I have an artificial hip and need to get off the stairs. So we’ve been looking for a single level. We’ve shown our house 44 times now. For anyone that has ever lived IN a house while trying to sell it, I know the look that just crossed your face and the noise you made. You understand. So I packed up 2 years ago. I have been living in limbo and it’s been driving me CRAZY. We are not defined by our homes, but recently, I started to unpack again. getting out pictures of family and treasured stuffed animals of my little girl’s. The subtitle of the book intrigues me. I need to learn to “live where I am” and that is indeed, “the last place I looked.” I am still here. living in limbo. chubby and yearning to just fit in somewhere. I would love a copy.

  350. Julianne says:

    I would like to win a copy of Emily’s book as am I a young girl in her twenties who is struggling with trusting my own ache in God’s hands as was she it appears. I am learning to let go of my demons and sent the devil his residency in my mind telling me I’m not this or that. I really enjoy your blog and would love to use your book as an an aid on this journey ahead of me.

  351. Michelle Pereyra says:

    I would absolutely love a copy of Atlas girl. This fall I go back to school at UCF, and have taken on a leadership position in a christian sorority. This book will not only help me on my personal journey with Christ, but also help the many girls that I will have the honor of simply doing life together!

  352. Melissa says:

    I struggle daily wondering if I’m enough. Am I enough of a mother to my two beautiful girls? Was I enough as a daughter to my Momma who suddenly passed away three months ago? Am I enough for my husband since I’ve gained weight with the birth of our healthy children? I am searching for signs and have turned to God to help me through this journey of self discovery.

  353. I would love to win a copy! I think we all are searching for something not knowing quite what it is. This devotional helped me not feel so alone in that aspect. Thank you for all the hard work you put into sending these out daily!

  354. Ah, I can resonate with much of what this book about; I’ve been battling an eating disorder for the better part of almost 9 years now, and I struggle to find God in what often feels like an overwhelming emptiness. At the same time, though, I work as a campus pastor and I regularly mentor young women who I tell over and over how much they are loved by Jesus, how much their worth is defined foremost by who they are in him. And through my telling them this, I have begun to believe it for my own self. This book seems like it would be a phenomenal resource both for my own life and as more solid evidence for my girls that overcoming brokenness is possible.
    Thank you for speaking hard truths about your journey, it helps remind me that I am not in this alone and that there is always hope for healing and restoration.

  355. Rebecca Davis says:

    I can’t wait to read Emily’s story! I have a feeling I will be able to relate to and learn from her journey.

  356. Michelle Smith says:

    Our amazing daughter has just revealed her struggle with and eating disorder and self harm and I’d love for her to read Atlas Girl :)

  357. Vanessa Naidoo says:

    The Christ in me prevails each and everytime allowing me not to lean on my own understanding! Proverbs 3:5 Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. 6  In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths.

  358. Amber Owens says:

    i Would love to learn more about how to cast all my worry and axiousness onto tthe Lord and not pick it up again to have more trust and faith in Him with everyday.

  359. LaWanda Hoover says:

    I have struggled all my life about being loved and loving myself. God is teaching me of His great love for me.

  360. I love your devotion! I’d like to win a book for myself & to share with my sisters & friends.

  361. Kendra Hills says:

    I am in the midst of a really challenging time, and when I woke up this morning, God said to me, My daughter, do not worry. Pray about everything. Give Me thanks. And I WILL give you peace that surpasses all understanding. Then, I saw Emily’s post, and it spoke to me in a way that nothing has in a long while. I’m do thankful she wrote it, and so thankful God lead me to it!

  362. Would love a copy for myself to learn to see myself and others through the eyes of Jesus.

  363. Loved this devotion

  364. I needed to read this today. Thank you for the reminder that I. Am. Loved. Amazing that the God who created the universe is with me during every hiccup.

  365. Would love a copy of this book. I’ve been on a healing journey from severe childhood trauma and I’m still learning to see ‘me’ as Jesus does.

  366. Bunmi Omagbemi says:

    My son is a pastor’s child. Reading your story will hopefully help him with the difficulties that come with being a pastor’s child.
    I am at the point where it’s so hard to imagine that I am loved. It just doesn’t rhyme with any experience in my. 50 years.

  367. I would love a copy, sounds like a great story on how we can overcome lifes trials when we just trust god.i would share with friends and my girls are older with them too.

  368. Melissa M says:

    I would love to receive a copy of Emily’s book. I’m twenty six years old, I Grew up and to this day I have a hard time with relationships due to past experiences that happened to me when I was younger. This caused me to be depressed and I ended up being a follower in this lost world. I never knew who Christ was, and never went to church.. Until about two years ago, broken and needing healing from our Heavenly Father I came to Christ. As a single parent to a five year old, I struggle with accepting myself and forgiving all the situations in my past. And it’s a constant reminder daily to remind myself that God will always love me and he is always with me. I love reading about brothers and sisters in Christ that have gone through many struggles like I have.

  369. Thanks! I needed to read this today, not just about jean size, but a reminder of my identity as a daughter of God. I know this, but get discouraged by negativity from others sometimes. I need God’s voice to be louder than theirs.

  370. Daisy S. says:

    This message really spoke to me. I am a 34 yr old married mom of two. I have been on my chronic illness journey for almost 5 years now. My pancreas and my stomach no longer work correctly and I lost close to 40 lbs in about 3 months. I had to have a GJ feeding tube placed and because of the specialized formula that is needed for my body, I have quickly gained the lost weight and more. I find myself so discouraged because I’m sick, and the fact that I have to rely on the feeds probably for the long term. It’s bad enough when you feel down on yourself but when others make comments about you being too thin or a little on the heavy side and you can’t do anything about it. I try to hide the frustration and hurt so my husband and children don’t see, but it is so overwhelming at times. I have been trying to find something good even on the worst days. Your words were what I needed to hear and exactly the right time. God is always on time! I would love to win the copy of your book to learn to see myself and others through Gods eyes.

  371. Thanks for this great devotional Emily. I’ve been struggling for a number of years with an anxiety disorder and would love to hear more about your story. Times have been hard, but God has never failed me. I know He wants me to trust in Him with all of my heart and that’s exactly what I want to do. God bless.

  372. Deanna Lucas says:

    Thank you for the reminder of how much He loves us. I would love a copy of the book to read and share!

  373. I would loooove to read this book. I have been going through a difficult season in my life and I think reading this book would be great for this season.

  374. Alice Chow says:

    The topic and premise of the book seems to speak to me and my struggles. I would love a copy!

  375. Melinda Marzan says:

    I would love a copy of the book because it would b a great bible study for the teenagers I work with at church! :-)

  376. Monika Copeland says:

    I have been on a difficult journey for the past 7 years and lately I do feel like hiding rather than face what’s next. I trust in God’s plan and know He will strengthen me during the days ahead. Thanks for the encouragement!

  377. I’d like a copy to give to a friend – she needs hope to believe she is enough, as God’s daughter. Thanks.

  378. Wow! A friend shared this blog on Facebook, so on point for dealing with life’s twists & turns. Would love to receive a copy of the book, definitely plan to read!
    God Bless! A new devoted reader of P31 devotions!

  379. A friend of mine actually just recommended Atlas Girl. She read it and then raved about it. It’s now on my list of books to read. Based on what I’ve read so far I believe this would be a great book to share with hurting women. God has blessed me with various opportunities to minister to women who have suffered the loss miscarriage. 11 years have now passed since I miscarried and I’m so thankful that in that time God has been able to take something that was so painful for me and use it for good. Thanks for your willingness to open up about your struggles – it helps the rest of us remember that we’re not alone, which in turn will help us climb out of the pit we’ve found ourselves in.

  380. I would love a copy!

  381. Joanne Robinson says:

    I would love the book, especially if a paper copy is available. I work with women as a therapist, and am always looking for a little deeper insight. And I believe that all true healing is spiritual. I have my own struggles – a parent with dementia, a dependent parent in law, a daughter with infertility and history of miscarriages, a beloved adopted grandchild with post trauma issues, bouts of depression myself. Here’s what I want to say, as a 60-something: all you young women are so beautiful. Your energy, your smiles, your uniqueness, your eyes, your loving natures, the way you move. It makes me so sad that you don’t see yourselves the way you really are – beautiful outside because you are so beautiful inside. I look at pictures of myself when I was 20, when I felt so fat and ugly and ashamed, and I see a thin pretty young woman. I am so sad that I couldn’t smile at myself in the mirror, accept that I was pretty enough, and enjoy it! Look at yourself in the mirror, into your eyes, and tell your reflection, “I love you. You are beautiful. God loves you. We will take good care of you today.” Embrace your self. Please don’t waste your precious life worrying unnecessarily.

  382. Priscilla says:

    I would love a copy of your book. I am “on the far side of the sea” and need to find my way home.

  383. Katelyn says:

    This devotional sums up some of the populations I really feel called to minister. I have felt like that worthless girl in the past…, not worthy and full of anxiety. The Lord has overcome in my the strongholds the enemy had on me. I would enjoy reading your book and sharing it with my peers.

  384. Angela Vaughan says:

    I would love a copy of the book! You are truly inspirational a gift from God!! Thank you for being so open and willing to share your story in such an open and relatable way! I can’t wait to read more! I know that God is using you in amazing ways to help people and change lives! Thank You

  385. Deborah says:

    I would love to win a copy of this book…..I have been dealing with so many of the issues my whole life and I just sat and cried with the little bit I read here from her book….I can’t wait to read the WHOLE thing. Thanks so much for writing such a wonderful book….I felt like GOD was speaking to me.

  386. April Madison says:

    I love the article. All I could do is cry because it seems as if God was speaking directly to me. I would love to read your book!

  387. Geribeth says:

    I am very interested in your book for my daughter. At age 4 she was diagnosed with Leukemia, at age 5 her father & I divorced, at age 10 she lost her father in at tragic car accident & 4 months later was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis, which she still battles today, at age 15 she was diagnosed with Anorexia, which she continues to struggle with at age 29 & in her early 20s she was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. Satan has infested her mind with such distorted thoughts she can not begin to understand & accept God’s love for her & that he created her beautiful & with purpose. I so long for her to experience Him to the depth it changes her life forever & the years of life Satan has stolen from her will be replaced with a future of love, peace & joy.
    Thank you.

  388. This story touched me so much In my life right now. I have been struggling my whole life trying to figure out where I fit in and what
    God’s plans were for me. My husband and I have been raising four very sucessful boys for nearly 30 years and have 5 beautiful grandchildren. But I still seem so lost most of the time. Your book seems so interesting and maybe will help me find some comfort like your article did. Like most families ours isn’t perfect. We have one one son that has lost his way and and none of us just don’t know how to deal with it. It’s so hard hard to stay strong and hold everyone together. No one outside of our family seems to understand or wants to deal with it. Its been over two years since we have seen or heard from him. It’s taken a tole on our little family that use to be so close. Being the mother I have always had to be strong and hold everyone together. I feel like I am loosing it for the first time in my life. Your little devotionals help me daily and I am hoping this book will give me some strength to carry on. God bless you for helping the week

  389. I’m at a pivotal point in my life, and desperately seeking guidance, encouragement, hope. I would love to read her book.

  390. I would love to give a copy to my precious friend, Tina, who is desperately looking for home. Thank you.

  391. Lynette Olson says:

    I would love a copy of this book because it is right where I am at. My husband lost his job a year ago. He is working part time now. We are struggling to make ends meet with two part time jobs. We are both believers and are trying with everything we have to cling to God. We have two children. This is my husband’s 3 unemployment in 4years. We have many questions and no answers. We know God has a plan but we are very discouraged and worn. This book sound like just what I need. I do not have the money to buy it at this time.

  392. I love how God always know exactly what you need to hear (read)…
    Very encouraging! Thank you for sharing. I’m looking forward to reading the book!
    God Bless!

  393. Melanie Antoine says:

    I needed to read this on this morning. A wonderful pick me up (better than coffee).

  394. Love it – Love it – Love it. Spoke to me right where I am. I will look forward to reading this book! Thank you for sharing your heart!
    May God Bless You Greatly!

  395. A good devotional for women is a treasure…especially one that is not afraid to talk about issues that many cannot or will not talk about in public. I would love to be able to share this one with my teenage daughters. We have a wonderful and open relationship and to share devotions like this would just help to keep those lines of communication open during these important years.

  396. Sabrina Deuschle says:

    This is wonderful. Even if I don’t get it free I will be reading Atlas Girl. It looks amazing. Thank you!

  397. Haley B says:

    I get so focused on what I eat, what I look like and what I’m doing, that it is so easy to lose sight of what I should be focused on. I would love to read this book to help me keep life in perspective.

  398. I really enjoyed today’s devotion. It truly hit home. I would love to read this book as a begin a new journey and am starting completely over in my life.

  399. Rebecca says:

    I would love to receive a copy of this book. I am going through a season of deep pain and rejection. I know God is hear with me but I struggle to feel His great love for me. I feel very alone in my pain and I go through every day trying to know that God is more than enough for me.

  400. Beautiful devotion and would love to read the book.

  401. Shannon baker says:

    Powerful message. Thanks for sharing

  402. Because I need encouragement

  403. I would love a copy! :)

  404. Just got a chance to read this and her blog – so very encouraging! Would love to read the book.

  405. Shalena says:

    I, myself have struggled through my teen years with trying to not gain weight to the point where I was on the verge of anoxeria. As a mother of three now, I see how I could easily slip back into that battle, trying to get rid of “baby” fat. I would love to have this book so that I could be encouraged to take the Right path.

  406. This would be a great read and I am sure I would pass it on to some friends.

  407. What a powerful post, full of encouragement, transparency and ‘real life.’ Thank you for sharing and may God continue to bless the work of your hands (whether that IS housework, writing, parenting or blogging. :) )

  408. Andrea Kunce says:

    I would love to have a copy of Emily’s book! I have three sisters and we often pass around our books. It’s hard to comprehend the depth of God’s love and every encouraging word helps! Thank you Emily for sharing.

  409. DeAnna Walden says:

    I would absolutely LOVE to have a copy of Emily’s book. I find Emily’s blog very encouraging. I appreciate the honesty and heartwarming messages she shares.

  410. I loved the excerpt from the book: Atlas Girl. I can relate to Emily’s story. My husband and daughter abandoned me last year. Left with no place to go, I’ve been searching for “home”. I know God loves me. I struggle with who I am NOW. I was a wife and mother for so long I just don’t know what I am suppose to do now. Thank you Emily for sharing your experience.

  411. Just reading the bits of this I did, I feel like I can relate to her so well because there are parts like my story. That’s why I want to read this book.

  412. Danielle Hicks says:

    I can completely relate to these feelings. I would love to read this book, and could definitely share it with other ladies (of all ages) in my church. Thank you for the giveaway!

  413. I am literally sitting here in stunned silence….tears streaming…..and feeling so tremendously blessed by having read Emily’s devotion. I kept trying to find time to read the devotion yesterday…but life and little ones had other plans for my day. I am so grateful for the words God inspired for Emily to share. Having been anorexic through my teen years to numb and bury so many emotions…..followed by years of learning to believe that I’m loved….knowing there is someone out there who’s truly been right where I’ve been….no words. I will most certainly read Emily’s book …… copy or not.

  414. Emily, you have touched souls all over our faith community but there are those we need to get this message to who are not yet in that community. And therein lies the reason we write our stories, just as you have done. Believe it or not, I at 68 and a great-grandma gained so much from reading that we are “not the size of our jeans” and more.

    BTW, what do we do about being women, wives, and mothers “who would rather write than do housework?” If you know the answer, I need it!

    • oh Sherrey, what an encouragement you are! And friend, I’d rather write than do housework ANY day 😛 For years I fought guilt over that. Then I realized it was how God made me, and while he has also called me to take care of my family and keep a home for them, it does not need to be immaculate. So, I clean once a week, tidy every evening, and that’s about it. The rest of the time, I write and serve my family. :) Bless you!! E.

  415. Jennifer says:

    This post so rings true for me. No matter how difficult our day, God is always there for us. I would truly love to read more by this inspiring writer. THanks for the opportunity to win her book.

  416. Last week I had my third miscarriage in a year in a half. This has been a very hard road for me but knowing that The Lord loves me and will pull me through this yet again makes all the difference. It’s not about the size of my jeans which change with each pregnancy , but it’s all about his love which is unconditional. I would love a copy of the book for myself to encourage myself during this time. Also if you know of any books that would be encouraging for my husband and I, I would greatly appreciate any recommendations. I know My Jesus will see us through this yet again and in only his timing will we be blessed with a child.

    • Marlene says:

      I sent for a booklet titled “Permission to Grieve” for my Son and Daughter in law 12 years ago, when they had their first baby miscarry. The booklet is from Focus on the Family. Their website is I would assume that booklet is still available or perhaps they have updated it or printed more books on that sorrowful subject. I hope and pray God blesses you and your husband with many healthy babies soon. I was blessed with 3 beautiful children in the 1970’s who are all adults now and I thank God daily for them. Jesus bless you and your husband and your future children too!

  417. I would be honored to win! I’m a stay at home, homeschooling mom of four kids and really re-stepping into His grace and boldness. Thanks!

  418. I am currently in a battle for the life of my 21 year old daughter, who knows God intimately but veered off course somewhere- she was “coaxed by a male friend” who provides a steady stream of drugs- she doesn’t work, she is isolated-the beautiful blonde I know whose blue eyes once radiated light is trapped in a place of sadness- I reach out – I cry out to God Who loves her more than I- walk away- In due time I am confident that God will redeem the time stolen from this precious beauty…

  419. As I read and come accross your losses, I can’t help it and tears fill my eyes. I lost my baby in January of this year at 21+2 weeks, Octavian Poseidon. I have been trying to re-define myself. When I first read the tittle of the devotion “not defined by the size of your jeans” I though back to when I began to loose 40 lbs (pre pregnancy) and how hard it was to diet, the goal be healthy. Little did I know that it would help me to get pregnant, we had been trying for ten years. Then the size of my jeans jumped up, and due to the pregnancy. And 2 weeks after loosing Octavian, I was once again reminded of what I no longer had, as my jean sized sunk to my pre-pregnancy size.

    I have been so self-consumed in trying to find my self. This summer isn’t what I planned for, everything seems to be off. To be wrong. My life doesn’t make sense, the presense of absence in my life is an everyday struggle. As we approace the school year, my living child enter highschool, at the same time my baby would have entered daycare, yes a huge span in time. I think that your book and devotion will help me find myself, my place and find my “new normal”….

    As I held my baby still in arms, my heart sunk, I knew that loosing him was the hardest thing I have ever been thru. Until now. Now I can say that the hardest thing I have been thru is “learning to live withoug him”!

    So sorry for your loosses.. hugs!

  420. I enjoyed this post and Emily’s transparency. I would love to read a copy of her book.

  421. Barbara Morgan says:

    I look forward to this book!

  422. Marlene says:

    I loved your devotion today, Emily. And if I were to win your book, I would give it to my youngest daughter, who is 35 and is presently incarcerated for something she is innocent of and we are trying to prove it. So she has this burden right now, for the last 2 years, and when she was in high school and was over-weight, she had an awful burden too as kids made fun of her and she had such low self esteem because of it. She has lost weight and is married to a great guy who is standing by her through all of this, thank God. But I believe this book would be good for her. However, if it is hard cover, she could not receive it where she is right now. Thank you for your consideration, Emily. Jesus bless you!

  423. amanda caldwell says:

    I would love a copy <3 what a great giveaway !

  424. Ruthie Keegan says:

    I would love a copy

  425. Michelle W. says:

    This is so amazing and perfect timing. I’m 24 and I’ve had a lot of searching going on in my life, figuring out who I am in the Lord and what exactly he wants from me. I feel God most when I’m not at “home”, and I don’t know that that’s exactly a good thing… I love the Lord but I certainly feel stuck right now, I can’t wait to read her book!

  426. Lisa Addy says:

    I would like a copy to read and read to my best friend, who is a beautiful and doting mother to aprecious little girl with spina bifida. We both struggle to see ourselves through His eyes. We both need reminding on a regular basis..and it would give us an extra excuse to spend girl time together :-)

  427. Hannah Leary says:

    I would LOVE to win a copy of Emily’s books because I have a story very similar to hers. I remember being that 13 year old girl, and how God rescued me from anorexia. Thank you all for these awesome devotions :)

  428. Chelsea Dudley says:

    I would love to win a copy. Actually I’d love to buy a copy but finances are tight. This message is very necessary to me at this moment.

  429. Brenda Toews says:

    I would like to be able to win a copy of Emily’s book to read then share with my 20-something daughters we are all on our journeys with The Lord and at different stages and I want to pass on anything that will help my girls continue to grow in Him!

  430. Stephanie says:

    Thank you for your honesty in this blog post. My daughter is alost 14 and is, like all teens and kids these days, bombarded with messages that she is only worthy if she is seen as a sexual object. We have dealt with sextting and sexually abusive situations this year and it is a challenge. However, what struck me most with your blog post was the part about realizing who you really are – I still, at 42 years old, feel the need to be someone I’m not. I do not have the desire to be a fulltime housekeeper or cook for my family yet I feel that if I am not happy and productive and on time with these duties, I am a failure to those around me. I am passionate, scatter-brained, fun loving, creative and spontaneous person who has taken on the personea of a woman tied to housework and cooking and neatness for her sense of worthiness. No one seems to see me for who I really am without first seeing how I am a failure at what is expected of me in order to make me worthy. When will I stand up for the person I really am? When will I stop feeling guilty for not being the person I feel everyone expects me to be? I can’t wait to read you book, thank you for your honesty and transparency!

  431. Recia Buntt says:

    I was woken up by something and what popped into my head this morning was Satan trying to undermine my marriage… I will be by the grace of God married 25 years this Aug. My husband and I are just finding love again and getting back together. While we were separated he went on a date and still continues to keep in contact with this woman. He has told her one thing of my “faults” and he told me he had…. she responded with well if you would of been with me I would of had….. this part is insignificant what is significant in my.mind is he still is keeping a string for Satan to give him doubts and something to fall back to IF this doesn’t work out… well I stepped up and said God this is how im feeling and He put 2 blogs to see this morning. He encourages where Satan tried to hinder. Thank you for your service to our Lord. And pray that my husband sees how he needs to cut strings and that we continue to let God heal us and our relationship. Thank you again for being Gods voice when I needed it!

  432. Amazing truths

  433. Charmaine says:

    Wow Emily thank you for reminding me who I am; I am loved! For the longest time that is a concept I have struggled with, a truth I have struggled to believe. Like you even though I didn’t travel the world I searched for God everywhere; in social networks, in men, in getting approval from people, although I didn’t know at the time I was searching for God. Along the way in my quest u accumulated a lot of hurt and pain, but thankful God never let up on me and made me alive again. I am still on my journey to healing and recieving Gods amazing love and although my journey has been tough I would not trade it for anything, His love makes it worth it all! I would really like a copy of Atlas girl, i think it can aid me I’m my walk with The Lord and equip me for my ministry which I feel is to encourage and bring healing to the hurt and broken.

  434. Very encouraging message! I would love to read the rest of the book, then share it with others! :) Thanks, Tamara

  435. debbie bean says:

    What a great story of Gods grace and endless, pursuing love! My husband and I work on a college campus and we see countless students searching. We know they are searching for Him but sometimes it takes a while to get there, by their choice. I’d love to share this book with them! Thanks!

  436. Kathryn says:

    If I should be blessed with winning this book I would give it to my daughter. She currently struggles with her weight after her third child who is now one. When I read the devotional i automatically thought of my daughter. She too went through some really rough times in her life before God blessed her with my son-in-law and my three grandchildren. She was lost for a long while…
    Now she struggles with being a stay at home mom, and all the challenges of raising three young ones (ages 5, 3 and 1). I do my best to encourage her, but I think written encouragement is so much better. It has definitely made an impact in my life. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us.

  437. Jennifer says:

    I have just read the free chapter and would love to win a copy of your book. I am so excited to read more on your website, too.

  438. Tiffany Heeg says:

    What a great authentic & real passage. Embracing God in the midst of pain. I would love to receive a copy of the book to hear more of the journey!

  439. Belinda A Farnworth says:

    I am studying and praying to be the obedient woman God asks me to be. Your new book will help me continue my journey. Father God is my new love.

  440. Sarah Lock says:

    I feel as though I’m in a broken place. The chaos of my world around me is beginning to be too much to bear on my own. I’d like a little reminder that I’m not alone in my feelings and that God is always there for me.

  441. As a middle aged woman just given her life to Christ, the desire to reach out and learn more in depth the word.

  442. One read of this devotional has me wanting to read more! I’d love to have a copy of Atlas, a book I would probably pass to others to read, but beg to have it back! Thanks for the ‘not defined by the size of our jeans’ devo! Brought me to tears!

  443. This book sounds like it was written about me! I have struggled with my image since I was 8 due to names my father and brothers labeled me. I tried my whole life to prove them wrong only to go down some very dangerous roads. I am now 49 and have discovered that the only one that matters is God and He loves me just the way I am! I would live to have a copy of this book!!

  444. Jessica Walter says:

    I just wanted to express my gratitude and appreciation to prophet salifu for bringing my husband back to me,I was married to my husband for 4 years and all of a sudden he started seeing another lady (his mistress).he started hailing at me and he was abusive.. and he hated me , but I still loved him with all my heart . the situation made me unsettle and not to focus at work .so a friend told me about trying (prophet salifu )spiritual means to get my husband back and introduced me to him ? i did not listen to her and hoped that my husband will come back home . after 9 month of seperation and depression , it got out of hand and my husband came back home to break the news to me that he want a divorce that he is getting married to his mistress .Hmmm it was so shocking to me ,i felt sad and more depressed ,so i contacted my friend again and decieded to try to use spiritual means reluctantly..although I didn’t believe in all those things? I never thought in a million years that i will get my husband back to me a again. but I was proved wrong.after 24 hours, my husband came back and was pleading..he had realized his mistakes..i just couldn’t believe it that we are back together. I am deeply satisfied and thankful with prophet salifu work .if you also want to fix you marriage or relationship email him at or< , his work is for a better life .

  445. JoAnna Arendarczyk says:

    I too, have always struggled with negativity toward my outward appearance. Like Emily I’ve been blessed with the overwhelming realization that God loves me! That I am not defined by the size of my jeans! Emily is a fantastic author and I thank God for her life and for the gift of writing HE has given her!

  446. Atlas sounds amazing. I’d love to read it and lend it out to my sisters.

  447. Debra Rose says:

    I need to cling to God right now and feel his presence. For on June 20th, my two grandchildren went home to be with the Lord, they were in a car accident. Dylan 4 and Jayce 1.. My sweet daughter, lost both her children that day, i lost my grandchildren.. my whole family is beyond heartbroken. We have our faith to cling to.. but boy is it hard in a time like this. We ask Why, and we know the answers will be revealed someday, maybe not till we get home ourselves. So we are seeking comfort, if anyone knows support groups, books, websites, anything that could help our family. i would so appreciate it. Thank you. Debra Rose

  448. Thank you for this reminder. I long to hear I’m loved…I love to tell people they are loved. My heart aches a bit thinking of your struggle with food and having had 2 miscarriages. But my soul soars rejoicing with you that He loves you through it all…and He loves me too!!!

  449. I’d love to read this book! Great post. Thx

  450. Just wanted to add a different perspective to something you said about miscarriage…..”hard to watch your body fail a baby”. Not all miscarriages are because your body fails. Many times there is something wrong (at a chromosomal level) with the fetus and the body does what Our Father designed it to do. I hate to think that you are taking miscarriages personally. You are not failing. God is in control.

  451. I would love to win this book.
    I’m going through a difficult time right now with my health. I would love to dig deeper into knowing Abba’s love. My soul feels a little fearful right now…

  452. Thank you so much for this post. It can be so hard to remember we are loved when we feel like we are failing.

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