When You Need Help … but Don’t Want to Admit It.

When You Need Help … but Don’t Want to Admit It.

June 12, 2015

"I will say of the LORD, ‘He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.’" Psalm 91:2 (NIV)

As a single woman in my twenties, I took a trip to San Francisco for my job.

Not only did I work, but I made time to play. My favorite part of the trip was a bike ride across the Golden Gate Bridge.

I rented a bike, complete with a helmet and a map, and set off down the coast.

I rode the few miles to the bridge, cruised across the bay, sailed mostly downhill towards the tiny, quaint town of Sausalito, then caught the ferry back to the mainland.

A few years later, I made the trip again to San Francisco with a few friends to relive the wonderful memory of that ride and build some new memories as well.

We rode the few miles to the bridge, cruised across the bay and made the right turn to sail with ease towards Sausalito.

It only took a few seconds for us to pick up speed as we biked downhill. But then I sensed I was going a tad too fast. So I tapped on my brakes.

Seconds later, I only remember the dawning realization that I was in the middle of the road and needed to crawl to the shoulder for safety.

While my friends rushed toward me, I sat dazed, trying to piece together what had happened and figure out what should happen next.

All I could think was I needed to get myself together so I could get back on that bike and head toward Sausalito. I had come to San Fran on a mission and I wanted to finish the journey.

But that finish would not come.

Not long after, a paramedic approached me from the ambulance someone had called and squatted down on his haunches to ask me if I knew my name and the day. You know … the type of questions asked of an injured person who has just been thrown from their bike. I tried to convince him I was okay.

I told him I thought I could still finish. I told him that after I’d completed my goal of biking to Sausalito, then I would go to the hospital to figure out what was wrong with my body. Needless to say, he advised against my gallant ideas.

I needed help. I didn’t want it, but I needed it.

Sometimes life is like that. We are cruising along and something goes wrong. We sit dazed, trying to piece together what has happened and what we should do next, not realizing we are hurt and in need of help.

We may not want it, but we need it. We may try to convince others we are okay, when it’s clear we are not.

I reluctantly agreed to get into the ambulance and take the ride to the local emergency room where I later realized I had a broken finger, a fractured elbow and a sizable puncture in my chin.

That ambulance. The beautiful thing about that ambulance is it arrived quickly when I was in trouble.

In the same way, God is a very present help when you are in trouble. When you call Him, He will be there. Right where you are. Even if you are on the side of the road.

And just like I found refuge in the ambulance and at that hospital, you can find refuge in God.

You may be reluctant to admit you need help. Or you may be reluctant to pause and give God your situation so He can help you. Can I encourage you today to let God help?

He can soothe you with His Word, send reinforcements through His people and provide answers to your prayers.

Seek Him today. He loves to help those who are in trouble and He is an expert at fixing the source of pain and setting the hurting on a path to healing.

Dear God, I need Your help. I’m hurting and I need You to help me address my source of pain and set me on a path to healing. Please show me where I can get help in Your Word or through Your people. Help me be patient as I wait for You to answer my prayers. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

TRUTH FOR TODAY:
Isaiah 41:10, "Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you …" (ESV)

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Kingdom Woman by Tony Evans and Chrystal Evans Hurst can help you find perspective to be the woman God has called you to be.

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REFLECT AND RESPOND:
Why might you be reluctant to admit when you need help? What will you do in light of today’s devotional to embrace the help God offers?

If you’ve ever experienced God coming to your aid in your time of trouble, share your experience in the comments to encourage another person in need of hope today.

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  1. One of the biggest moments was my brothers accident. He was in a coma and severely brain injured. When I saw him he was unrecognizable. Gone was his beard of forever, his face was swollen and bruised, both eyes blackened, tubes and wires all over. Staples in his head. My brother was my best friend and the only man who had never hurt me in my life. We’d had a horrific growing up. He was my hero. Here he laid. Not knowing I was even there. My heart was ripping from my chest. I was so angry with the guy who caused this accident, but what good was my anger? It wouldn’t fix my brother. I started praying. The hospital said it was the second worst brain injury they’d ever seen. Was it hopeless? My brother was a church goer. I wasn’t. Would God listen and care? He did. I asked him then if I changed my ways would he save my brother, and if He couldn’t save him, don’t let him wake up, just take him. God saved him and he has a fairly good quality of life too. I changed a lot from that point on. This was quite a few years back now and I’m still changing. God is awesome. Never give up on the power of prayer, and never ever doubt Gods power or what He can do. He saved me many times and then I got saved last year. All I can say is if you’re skeptical about God, don’t be…..ever.

  2. Admitting that we need help may be difficult for us to admit sometimes because we may assume that we can handle our problems completely on our own. Thus, it’s better to ask God for help during our prayer time Ultimately, we can disciple others to teach them all about God’s love to show them that they don’t need to be afraid to ask for help when they need help.

    “I will say of the LORD, ‘He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.’” Psalm 91:2 (NIV)
    Amen! what an incredible thing to remember tonight! We can run to God whenever we may be going through challenging circumstances. God’s presence is our hiding place when times get rough.
    “Dear God, I need Your help. I’m hurting and I need You to help me address my source of pain and set me on a path to healing. Please show me where I can get help in Your Word or through Your people. Help me be patient as I wait for You to answer my prayers. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.”~ Chrystal Evans Hurst
    Awesome! What an incredible thing to remember tonight! God can help us get the help we need, whether it’s through getting into His word, even if it may involve something that someone else may say to encourage us.
    Isaiah 41:10, “Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you …” (ESV)
    Wow! What an incredible thing to remember! God can help us, needless of whatever our circumstances. We may be going through in our lifetime

  3. Kristy Dailey says:

    I have struggled for years in a troubled marriage and in a painful family situation. I have cried out to God many times. I still feel lost alone and hurt. I have tried to be faithful, trusting in “his timing.” It feels like he doesn’t care. Nothing has changed and my faith is faltering. I am struggling to force myself to go to church. It’s too painful to hear promises I no longer believe. I hope that prayer from someone better than me will help.

    • Kristy, sometimes God shows up in the form of a godly adviser, someone who prays with you and for you. It isn’t that the person is “better than you.” God loves us all the same. But out of their own experiences, others can lead you in prayer that both asks and hears.

      Ever-present Lord God, I pray for Krisy and her family relationships. I don’t know them, but you do, Lord. Grant Kristy the sense of your presence in her day-to-day interactions. Give her a passion for Bible study and let the words that apply to her situation leap off the page and into her heart. Give her your eyes to look back and trace your timing in trying times–to perceive that you were answering prayers that she had not yet spoken in ways that she could not imagine. Bring a prayer partner into Kristy’s life, someone who will hold her hand several times a week and pray with her, helping her to both speak her requests and listen to your answer. Amen.

      • Kristy, I too am praying for you. I know it’s impossible to realize now but things will get better and God will lead you down that route. Unfortunately for some that path is more difficult than for others but God’s got you and is working at this very moment to work things for good.

        Shirlee, you say the most encouraging words, I really enjoy reading the encouragement you provide the others here.

    • Jessica says:

      Dear Lord, I lift up Kristy and her family to You. I pray for Wisdom, Guidance, Stregnth, and Forgiveness for their family, and whatever else they made need at this point in their lives. I pray that You please show her she is loved dearly. We know You love her Dear Lord, with a Love that surpasses all. Please let her eyes be opened to that. Please let her know she has other sisters praying for her, that love her as well, because she is one of Your beautiful creations. In Your Name we pray, Amen.

    • Kristy, I truly feel your pain. I have also been in a troubled marriage. I followed much advise, blaming myself for not being a good enough wife. I called to God and asked him to make me better, to show me the ways that I am not fulfilling my duty as wife. And He showed me that while I am not a perfect wife I am not to blame, that my husband has Narcissistic Behavior Disorder . It was like a light went on! I have been living with abuse for my entire life! After God showed me this information I realized that I grew up in a very dysfunctional home…..never realized that the behavior in my family wasn’t healthy….just thought this is the way it is. But it doesn’t have to be. I now see a pattern of behavior that attracted me to unhealthy individuals over my lifetime and resulted in my accepting mental and emotional abuse as normal. The truth really does set you free! And God does know best! He knew that by showing me this that I would finally take control of my life and start standing up for myself! I have been used as a narcissistic supply by friends, parents, siblings, boyfriends and husband. And now I am on the path to healing. I am still with my husband at this time but because of this knowledge he no longer has the power to hurt me. I am gaining strength and the skills to advocate and take care of myself….and all of this is coming from God! It is still stressful and I haven’t decided what to do yet. I have turned that over to God. And most importantly, I asked God to protect me and my children from any further abuse while I await Him revealing His plan to me. And He has protected us. Don’t be afraid to ask God for even the most of trivial things! Don’t run from Him, draw yourself closer to Him and He will take care of this. The encouraging words from this blog seem to always reach me when I need them! Know that God sees your pain! He is not ignoring you He is working things out for You! Continue to hold on to that! Read your Psalms, that helps me a lot! God Bless You!

      • Amen Linette!!!…excellent concern and guidance…I continue to pray today for you and Kristy and others in simila situations that God will bring strength, healing, deliverance and victory with overflowing joy to your lives….press on sisters press on in faith and trust in God and God alone.

    • Marlisa says:

      I am going through the same thing. I have finally realized that I am not the blame for the conditions of my marriage. I am struggling to remain hopeful as I ponder on what to do next. I know Fod sees and answers prayers, but I am having problems with being patient. I decided tonight that I will take control of my life and seek God’s will, not my own. Proverbs 31 devotions seem to always have the right words at the right times. Don’t let go of God, you are not alone.

    • Hi Kristy,
      Not so long ago I also posted and vent out my feelings at this website cause I’m going through trials in my marriage and I felt so alone and angry unable to understand my situation. Adding to that I was loosing faith because remembering what happened I know, I was faithfully praying for the LORD to protect my husband and marriage. I had a lot of questions in my head that nobody could answer and I was wondering if HE still hears me.
      Fast forward to the present , now I find myself at peace … It’s because the LORD Jesus is faithful to his children and if you feel that you’re loosing hope and faith . Everything comes from HIM , HE can increase our faith if you feel that its getting weaker. My husband and I attended a couples retreat cause I can’t even do fasting I’m too bothered and weigh down by my problems I keep on focusing on my situation and truth is I know what I have to do but its hard applying it or changing myself and it’s also impossible for me to change my husband only GOD can do that . All that you have control is yourself , but the LORD will and can empower you through other people or through HIS word. The devotionals on Proverbs 31 helped me on my daily journey …
      After the couples retreat I’m not saying everything is perfect cause when we even attended the worship the LORD rebuked my husband about his adultery and that the LORD doesn’t like what he is doing. Before I will be on panic mode again but I asked the LORD how to respond and I just became still. Let GOD be GOD and I have to step back from the situation. I was trying to control the situation too much and the truth is it’s way too much to handle for me.
      During the retreat the LORD sent me Christian couples who cared enough to pray for us and became our friend during this journey .I felt that I was released from all my loneliness, doubts , confusion, fears, anger, hurt , pain and unforgiveness in my heart. Now the LORD is showing me other peoples problem and moving my heart to help them and using what happened to me in the past to bring Glory to HIS name. I’m not saying that everything is perfect now but the LORD changed my heart and how I respond to the situation I feel rested in the LORD and I know the LORD will change my husband’s heart too. Nothing is impossible with GOD just trust HIM . It’s not a quick fix but in HIS time everything will be fix.

      Let me pray for you Kristy…LORD I know Kristy is going through a difficult time and there’s a lot of confusion in her mind . LORD please reach out to her wherever she is .Comfort her with your presence FATHER same as what you did to me. Send her people who is willing to show your love and care for her. Fill her LORD with your love, peace and joy in her heart allow her to be able to forgive others who have done something wrong to her. LORD I pray the same for her husband and allow LORD healing to take place take away all the unpleasant emotions and feelings in her husband’s heart and hers . Clean their hearts father from all the negativity this situation has brought them. Increase Kristy’s faith and trust in you Jesus and Give her guidance LORD and wisdom and protect their marriage FATHER from the attack of the evil one. Use LORD whatever is happening in their marriage to bring GLORY and HONOR to your name LORD.

      This I ask LORD in the name of your son Jesus Christ . Amen

  4. G Hadassah says:

    Last year, following on into this year. A family member passed away and during that time it was someone very dear to me. When they passed, God gave me a peace because he knew how strongly I felt about that person. The peace was so real that I couldn’t even believe that I had such peace during the whole situation. Right there I was so grateful that He (God) was there. Then when I got sick and I was in so much pain, I ask the Holy Spirit for comfort and when I ask not long before it happen… It was like I felt His hand rub my back where the pain was and a peace came over me as I went to sleep… So I can say that God has always been here and lately it’s like I can always tell when His presence is noticeable… Amazing…. He Is!!!

    • Jessica says:

      This testimony made me smile. Amen!

    • Wow…..this is the kind of peace I want to experience with the Lord! I am so anxious all the time that I never do, and always seem to fall short….this testimony was a real blessing! Thanks for sharing!

    • That’s fantastic! May we all know that His presence and comfort is available, not to just some of His children, but ALL!

      Praise GOD!

  5. Kristy, praying for you right now. I hear God saying to you: Remember not the former things neither consider the things of old. Behold I will do a new thing. Shall you not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert. (Isaiah 43:18-19). I pray that God helps you to forget the past and look to what HE is about to do in your life. He makes everything new. Lord make everything new for Kristy. Give her a fresh start and hope in You. Weeping may endure for the night but joy comes in the morning. (Psalm 30:5b). Lord, let today be the beginning of her morning of joy. Hugs!!!

  6. My husband had a short-lived affair with a coworker last year during my pregnancy. It was absolutely devastating. But God showed up for us in a big way. It has been a challenging year, full of ups and downs, but God has led us out of this season of suffering and has created a marriage and family that is centered on Him. Sometimes terrible things have to happen to draw us closer to Him. Even on my worst days, I felt Him tap me on the shoulder, heard Him whisper in my ear. He led me to this devotional and others and spoke to me through the words you all shared. He spoke to my husband and I as we dug into His word. And I think the biggest thing we have taken away from all this is that we want to raise our son not only knowing who God is, but knowing how to have a relationship with Him.

  7. Kristi I feel your pain, I too was in a troubled marriage for many years, I also felt & thought the same things you’re feeling. but God is faithful, He has not forgotten about you. If you’re angry tell Him, having trouble believing His word & promises? Tell Him. Nothing we feel or think is surprising/shocking to Him, He can handle it. When I feel especially down/angry I remember the life of Joseph & all he went through (Gen 39-41) I also go on you tube & listen to the song Through The Fire by The Crabb Family. God loves you & cares about you, (1peter 5:7, psalm 55:22) don’t let the enemy tell you otherwise, he is a liar & the father of lies (John 8:44) I pray this helps. God Bless You!!!

  8. More Lord! Please help me all the days of my life! I love You Jesus my eternal Husband and King!

  9. Irene O'Leary says:

    Kristy Dailey, are you safe? Do you have a counselor or pastor you can/do talk to about what is really going on? I know God hates divorce, but He does not expect us to be doormats. Jesus was meek, but He also turned the tables of the money changers. Being a good wife sometimes means we have to say, “I love you too much to stay and let you hurt me.” Don’t make this decision alone! Wise counsel is necessary. This may be needed for your husband to hit rock bottom. Be strong and courageous! God will help you put one foot in front of the other. Also, we are NOT better than you! God hears you prayer and is working! We join you in that prayer for healing and restoration of your marriage. Hugs sister!

    • Amen! Proverbs 31:12 (an appropriate passage for this forum) says, “she brings him good and not harm all the days of her life.” Sometimes it is GOOD to say, “I will not let you continue to HARM me.” It isn’t good to allow harmful behavior to continue without consequences.

      You are a wise counselor, Irene.

  10. I had major post partum depression with my third child. Each day was extremely difficult especially with caring for a newborn, a friend of mine form work who lived almost an hour away would drive up to my home and bring me dinner. At that time we were not that close, but she felt God was leading her to do this. Those visits keep me sane and gave me something to hold onto during this difficult time. The Lord knew I needed this and provided. My friend never knew how her kindness helped me and how God had used her. Hold on, He does show up one way or another!!!! He will NOT forget you!!!

    • Jessica says:

      Amen! You are a brave woman for sharing your beautiful testimony. I am praying that God uses it to reach others.

  11. I feel we are so often afraid of coming to an end of ourselves. What happens when it’s not enough to have our strength? Society tells us terrible things, for we are vulnerable and open to attack. God’s Word tells us wonderful things, for God’s strength is made perfect in weakness.

    I remember the hardest trial of my life this far. Part of what knocked the wind out of my sails was the feeling that God had disappointed me when He awakened me loudly from sleep to avoid a romantic relationship I thought was His best for me. I had prayed over this relationship copiously, and everything seemed to be what it should be when you love the right person, but God woke me up with two words “Stay away!” and a Scripture 2 Cor. 6:14 to alert me that things were not what they seemed to be. And He confirmed it over the next several weeks and into a year, was merciful enough to keep that man from pursuing my heart, as broken as it was at the first when we broke up and he did not fight for me by making needed spiritual change, until months later when God and I had walked closely enough through the brokenness and past the disappointment to recognize how harmful this renewed interest was, since he was still unsaved and determined to remain that way, a later conversation revealed.

    It may sound indulgent to say that was the hardest trial of my life, in light of alternative suffering I could have experienced. I am not assuming it will be seen that way, but just in case, know that was the first time I felt my faith stretched thin though not the first time my heart broke.

    I remember certain parts of the healing journey vividly. I remember crying myself to sleep repeatedly, and by crying, I mean a spectrum of silent tears with groans, to sobs that heaved and exhausted me. I remember sleeping on the Bible passages I found like a pillow, because that made it feel like I had laid my head on God’s chest and could hear His heartbeat. I remember reading C.S. Lewis’s A Grief Observed and throw of the book across the room–a first for me, in anger–after page 1, because at that moment, his heart has spoken too truly to me. I remember God’s whisper one night when I knew I had done the right thing by breaking things off but still struggled to feel less broken and at peace–this became the key to my healing–when He whispered, “You think I’ve disappointed you.” And something broken inside broke free and unstopped the spiritual logjam inside of me, as I heaved a broken “yes” between the tears and said “but I don’t want to feel that way; show me what to do.” And from that day after, the peace came and the great acts of emotional and spiritual healing over the course of the next years that only God can do.

    Don’t be afraid to come to the end of yourself and your strength. Don’t be afraid to rely on God, even when you’ve felt disappointed by Him and have been let down by somebody/everybody else.

    He is that “very present help in time of trouble.” He will send you reinforcements; He will give you Himself, if you’ll accept the offer and give all your life to Him.

    Until now, for close to six years now, I have always told this story in the absence of a new boyfriend. This wonderful man came into my life after I realized that even if another relationship never did, there might be some hard days, but we’d be okay just God and me. I’d learned He could never let me down.

    Ladies, please don’t take this as a formula for manipulating God’s timeline of bringing that man to your life. I understand the temptation to do that so well.

    Please hear the larger message. God loves you so much that He is willing to show you that YOU CAN trust Him, no matter what; that YOU CAN love Him, no matter what; that YOU CAN praise Him, no matter what; YOU CAN obey Him, no matter what. But only if YOU CAN depend on Him to be your strength, even when you find yourself without any strength of your own, strong woman warrior, though you usually are.

    Zephaniah 3:17 keeps singing in my ears for you, sisters. I love you, and God loves you so much more. He really does, no matter what it feels like. Lean deep into His strength. He cannot and will not fail to be Your help!!!

    • Angie,

      Your testimony is so touching because I’m going through a similar situation. Mine, however, involved another man who was a Christian that I thought could be “the one”. He even told me that he would consider proposing if we continued dating in the next couple of months. I prepared my heart as so which made it devastating when he suddenly broke up with me because he was going into the military. Rejected and confused – I prayed one of the hardest prayers for comfort. The next day, God filled me with such peace and contentment that I knew it was God working in my life; the breakup was meant to be. I still have my good and bad days but I’m trying to look to God because He has better things in store. He is a God that has our best interest in mind and a perfect timing. He is preparing a way for you to meet “the one” that will blow your ex boyfriend out of the water. How amazing that statement is! You just have to trust in Him and let Him work in your heart to prepare you to meet that man.

  12. My husband got really sick two years ago. The doctors told me 3 times they didn’t know if he was going to make. It was a difficult time to say the least, but God truly carried me through the long days and nights. I can’t completely put it into words, but God’s presence in our unknown circumstances sustained our troubled hearts. http://www.micahmaddox.com/when-i-cannot-see-tomorrow/

  13. Too often I cling to my own methods of problem solving and remain stuck in the situation.

    I know God is the solution.

    I believe Jesus is my Shepherd who is willing to find me when I’ve strayed.
    I am blessed to know I am His
    He knows my name
    I know His voice
    Eternally.

  14. Elizabeth says:

    My son is gay. I am struggling and hurting deeply. I have always thought I would be okay if my kids lived this life style so why is this hard. I love him dearly . I just worry ALOT about him. Is he committing a sin? Will people accept? Will he be harassed? I pray people don’t find out. And that makes me feel bad. He is a good kid and apparently this struggle was very hard on him. He seems much happier now.

    • Elizabeth, this is a struggle I know all too well for I am a leabian woman. I love the Lord fiercely with all my heart and have prayed for years concerning this. God made me and your son too. My grandmother who raised me told me that God never makes mistakes. God is love and love never fails (1 Corinthians 13:8). I have seen so many take their lives because they felt they had no support from the ones they loved. Being there for your son will mean everything to him. I will pray that God will give you peace in your circumstance and understanding to care for your son..

  15. Michelle says:

    A few years back I went through a terrible experience that has changed the course of life that I thought I was on. I had turned away from God but when I went through this change in my life that was so painful I started praying and reading the bible again and found Proverbs 31.
    I still struggle with the “why” at times but for the first time in my life I have felt the peace and joy that can only come from God. The writers and devotions I read everyday through Proverbs 31 is so powerful and inspirational . I have gained the knowledge and wisdom I need to help me through the hard days I still have but I see God in so many ways in my life now it is amazing! My life is far from perfect but God has me by my right hand and I feel like everything is going to be ok. I continue to pray and cling to the truths in the bible. I will never give up knowing that God loves me!

  16. Susan O'Connell says:

    Thank you so much for this post, I really needed this today. Before I even begin my day.

  17. Heather says:

    Elizabeth,
    I can only imagine what you are experiencing right at this moment but I just want to encourage you to radically love your son. You don’t have to agree with his choices and maybe there will be some hard decisions down the road about what you will and won’t participate in when it comes to his life. But, please try not to worry if people will find out. Love your son in a obvious, “this is a nothing but Jesus kind of love” and try to leave the rest in God’s hands.
    I hope that doesn’t sound like small Christian platitudes that people throw around, just know that people are praying for you and your son.

  18. Adrienne Ingram says:

    God is always right there in times of trouble. Often he uses people to set us back where we should be. I always have like to ” Put it on” meaning as long as I look like everything is good then nobody will bother me about how I’m doing….It says in God’s word that ” Pride comes before a fall” and that is right on point! It’s pride that doesn’t want to admit defeat or admit that we are in need of help. God has always sent certain people my way exactly when I’ve needed either a hug or some stern advice. God always shows up…

  19. Heavenly Father
    youy are the greatest of a healers you know where the wounds are you know in the healing we Wil use our pain
    Fathers todays study you heal if we call out helpy daughter to reach out to you first to not push pain down to begin the healing only You can give her heart breaks from not being able to save her brother. her dreams of becoming mom are not being made to happen only your healing your presence reminding her that you are there will heal. thank you that she will read today’s devotion on getting help nth and you got my sister that was led by the spirit to share this

  20. I am currently dealing with the passing of my father. He had been sick but his death came unexpectedly and in a way which the doctors can’t even explain to us. He was the greatest dad, grampy and husband to my mother. My heart hurts so much. I am questioning why God let this happen when there were so many people praying for him. It was so hard watchimg him struggle and die and seeing my mom’s heart break. The mystery of it all almost seems like the opposite of a miracle where something unexplainable happened but it had a terrible end result. I can’t understand or make sense of any of it and my heart is so incredibly hurt. I’ve been praying for God to help me understand and to help ease my pain but nothing seems to help. I’ve been reading Scripture and devotions recently more than ever before but I am still hurting so badly. It feels like God isn’t listening and that He never was. I don’t want to feel like this but I am deperately asking for God to show me something that will help. Jesus promises to reveal himself to those who love him and I really need that now.

    • Joy,
      I also lost my dad over 5 years ago. Although the pain has eased, I still remember the huge hole in my chest. We lost him unexpectedly; he woke up sick at 4 a.m. and passed away at 4:45 p.m. When it was obvious that we were about to lose him, my mom and I were also praying for a miracle. Please remember that God’s plan for mankind was to live forever in paradise, but when sin entered the world it set everything on a different path of chaos and decay. Prior to sin there was no aging or sickness, therefore Satan is the author and instigator of these trials in our life, not God. As I look back on the loss of my dad I see blessings now. He had cancer 8 years earlier and we did not have see him go out of remission and fight that battle. I was dreading the day that I would have to tell him that he could no longer drive an hour away to preach. I was dreading having to tell him that he could no longer travel to Cuba for mission work due to his age. He lived his life to the fullest (he even ran a few miles the day before he died and he was 78!)

      This helped me more than anything…….my nephew, Whitman, was 5 years old and his parents were in the kitchen crying when he went to bed the night of his Grandpa’s death. When Whitman came down the stairs the next morning, his parents were crying over their coffee and in an irritated voice he said “Are we still crying about Grandpa?” and they answered “Yes”. He said emphatically, “Why?! He is having the best day of his life!” So now, I think of his days experiencing all the wonders of heaven and being in the presence of God.

    • Joy, I lost my daddy Sept 26, it hasn’t even been a full year and I miss him every single day. I was a daddy’ girl and this experience has been the hardest of my life thus far. He finally passed of dementia, kidney failure, and heart disease but I watched him die little by little, day by day, the last 6 months of his life. There are those moments when the pain is so great and I feel like I can’t even take the next breath that all I can do is cry out to Jesus. All I can do is say His name. And He comes running to me and holds me in His arms and gives me peace for that moment. I pray He will do the same for you.

      • I pray he does too Lee Ann. That is my daily constant prayer for myself, my mother, my siblings and my children. I pary for him to make himself known to me in a way that I will recognize and to offer me reassurance that my dad is with him and I will see him again one day. I so look forward to Jesus return so there is no more sickness, death, crying or pain. I’ve always had faith in all these things but this has really shaken me and I am really struggling. Please Lord reveal your Truth to me.

  21. Jessica says:

    I love You, Lord! I needed this devotion, not only for me, but for a close family member. He is struggling with hurt from his past, and I truly do think these are the words, Your Word, Dear God, that he needs at this time. Thank you Heavenly Father for showing me this devotion today. Please help me and guide me. Please show me how I can be a messenger for You. Please show me what to say, how to say it, and when to say it. And Dear Heavenly Father, I think you for your everlasting Love, Guidance, Grace, Patience, and Forgiveness with my sinful and stubborn ways. In your name I pray, Amen.

  22. Anonymous says:

    It’s been almost 5 years since I left my husband and I still struggle with how things went down to bring about the split. I blame myself for him losing interest in me and causing us to drift apart. Even though I know it takes two to make a relationship work, I feel that the majority of the blame lies on me. I miss him even after all these years and am having a very hard time knowing that he’s about to get marry to someone else. I’ve tried my hardest to let go and move on, but it just doesn’t seem to be happening. My family and friends all tell me that it’s been too long for me to still be having these feelings and that I need to let it go, but if it was that simple, I would have done it a long time ago. I don’t like feeling down all the time, so why would I hang on to something if it was as simple as everyone makes it out to be. This devotion today was very timely, however, because I see myself sitting in the middle of the road wondering what went wrong with my dream, but unfortunately, I’m blaming myself for messing it up. I keep telling myself that eventually this will go away and I won’t think about him anymore, but when does that happen? I’m quite frustrated with myself.

  23. Janet Price says:

    Chrystal, You express yourself beautifully; that said, I’m writing through tears. I am caring for two elderly parents (who live separately) and a husband on a walker and although I know it’s too much for one person, I don’t know what else to do. I am trusting God to help me- and I rest in Him. It blesses me so, as I know it does all of us, when a devotion seems to “speak” directly to me. I am so thankful for this ministry!

  24. carolyn says:

    My mom has just been diagnosed with a bad cancer (as if there’s a good one) and God has been merciful to show us that He’s with us. He has helped us in so many ways and shown us He is present. “He’s got this.”

  25. I like your messages, but your site is way to busy! By that I am referring to all the coding that is above and below your message. It is really a distraction.

  26. Anonymous Jesus can be your husband. Try not to think of yourself as the person who caused the break-up. You belong to God first. Nurture your relationship with Him. He is so in LOVE with you. Remember how He left Heaven to die for all of us that includes you. You are LOVED with an everlasting Love. Jeremiah 31:3. Focus on God’s love and not your husband’s rejection. Surround yourself with people who love and serve the Lord. Ask Him (Jesus) how you can use this experience to bring Him glory. Pray for your husband that God would save him or if he is already saved that God would draw him to a closer Spirit-filled relationship with Him. Study God’s word and use praise music to fill your lonely times. Reach out to other people who may be going through the same thing or some struggle of their own. Make a schedule for your day putting Jesus on the forefront and allowing Him to guide you throughout the day. God bless you and remember the scripture for the day Psalm 91:2.

  27. My son is autistic. It is an insurmountable fear some days just to get him dressed for school. He has volatile emotions that range from very happy to crying, kicking and screaming. I felt so alone and thought no one understood. He was in the wrong educational setting and I was receiving daily calls to pick him up because of him eloping from class and being violent. I feared losing my job, my mind. One day at my desk, I prayed. I asked God to just step in. I told him I just couldn’t do this and had no idea what else to do. The next day I received a phone call from the school I had been wishing for him to go to. The teacher informed me that he could start school there and that transportation would be provided. I was so overcome, I just cried. I thanked God for coming to my rescue. My son is now excited to go to school, is in a setting where he is learning and his mental health needs are addressed and I can work every day with a calm spirit knowing he is ok.

    • Marissa says:

      My son is autistic too. My heart goes out to you and I’m so excited that your son is able to go to a school that is more suitable for his needs. God always has a great plan for us all. God bless you Jenny!

  28. Anonymous says:

    Thank you, Yvonne. Much appreciated. I do pray for my ex-husband because he’s not a Christian, or at least he wasn’t when we split. I don’t talk to him anymore or see him at all. I’ve heard through the grapevine that he’s about to remarry, but other than that, I don’t know much about his new life, and that’s probably a good thing. :)
    Again – thank you for your kind and wise words.

  29. Thank you for your encouraging word. I find myself in need of an ambulance today!! Time to allow the Holy Spirit help me and not myself! God bless!

  30. I cannot think of a time I haven’t needed God. I have seen His work my whole life. From healing the physical broken heart in my chest when I was five, seeing me through bulling in elementary, to my teen years and my rocky relationship with my mom, and two pregnancies that almost killed me; God has never once left my side. He is here now holding me, picking me up off the floor when I cannot face the day. He is now putting my very broken heart back together after my husband has left me. He most likely has carried me my whole life.

  31. Tammy Harrington says:

    This is an amazing devotion! I love this ministry and I am so grateful for all the prayers for the saints who pour their hearts out. God is doing amazing things in this lifetime. We may not see it or feel it but God is always present. Happy Friday, everyone!

  32. Lois Vanderfeen says:

    I am in a relationship right now and I don’t know where it is going. I have been a widow for almost 7 years and dated for several years. Then I met my boyfriend. We have known each other for 4 years and have been exclusive for 3 years.
    I am ready to make a permanent commitment but he says we should take it slow. I love him and he loves me, I know this but am I going to be waiting for something that’s never going to happen. I am 65 and I want to spend the rest of my life with him, but being just a girlfriend is getting old.
    I have prayed about this but I can’t hear an answer. He is a God fearing man and has been divorced 20 years. Am I waiting for something that will never happen? What should I be listening for?

  33. Thank you all for these posts. Kristy I am praying for you and please pray for me. I am struggling with a decision in how to help my husband of over 30 years. Over 10 years ago he had a falling out with his mom. He has not forgiven her since and with the upcoming marriage of our son this is coming to boiling point. He becomes very angry when my son discusses inviting his grandma to wedding. What is suppose to be joyous occasion is tainted by my husbands unforgiveness. I have been on my knees for over 10 years praying God will help my husband. He won’t go to church anymore. I feel like God isn’t hearing my prayers. Last night my husband blew up again at my son and Me about this. I read these devotionals daily and today’s was a good encouragement. I don’t know what to do. Sometimes I think I should leave him but I want God to tell me what to do. Thank you for your prayers.

  34. Adrienne H says:

    Isaiah 41:10: truly a verse that covers us! There truly is no one like our God!

  35. Theresa Ray says:

    Kristy,

    It is almost a year since I made the decision to get out of a troubled marriage. We had been married for 28 years and I was still trying to convince myself that I could fix it. When I finally stopped and really listened to God’s answers to my prayers, that is when I found the courage to take the first steps. You see, God had been answering me all along, I just was scared and ashamed of what he was telling me. I am a shy person, but God gave me the courage to join a women’s book study at church and there I found a great group of women who have opened my eyes to the power of prayer and asking others to prayer for you and accepting the blessings that follow. It has been a year of hard work, tears, anger, & frustration. But it has also been a year of comfort, peace of mind, and stength. Once I allowed God, family and friends to help me, my life has been so much more meaningful and I have a better relationship with all those around me. I prayer you find a group of women that can fill that void for you & give you the courage to hear the answers God is giving you. Accept the blessings that are there for you.

  36. Theresa Rae
    Thank you for the words of encouragement not only for kristy but they helped me. 28 years is a long time. My marriage has been almost 34. How do I know if God is directing me to step away even if it isn’t permanentl. My husband is so negative I feel the joy being sucked out if me. I attend church and Sunday school and weekly bible study but without him. He won’t go. He accepted the lord 25 years ago but since he had the falling out with his mom his heart is so full of U forgiveness. I have no close friends I can talk to about this. So this ministry is a blessing. I’m tired though and finding it hard to wait on the Lord. Please keep me in your prayers.

  37. I too am praying for Kristy. In my early adult years, GOD helped me through a painful divorce. He left me and our 3 month old son. I needed help in forgiving him so I could move on. I talked to my pastor who helped me understand that GOD is our Abba – Daddy. I received salvation through that hard time. Healing does take time, but HE is with us even when we don’t feel HIS presence.
    5 years ago HE blessed me through cancer and made my faith stronger. I want to encourage others with cancer now and any hard situations in life, HE does have an answer. Sometimes we need to be patient but also be real with HIM and people in our life that we can trust to help. HE loves us more than we can understand.

  38. Kimberly says:

    Guess I’ve convinced myself that my problems are normal and I should just carry on and not confront them. I feel the weight but the day to day says that everyone else deals with this much so why can’t I. Just being overwhelmed, stressed, anxious, tired….being a listening friend. A bunch of deal-able life trials all stacked together.

  39. His word says he will never leav(e nor forsake us! I know I get tired of waiting for answers at times too…but God’s timing is different than ours…for he knows what’s best for us and what’s down the road. Keep praying and looking to him. He will answer! He loves us so much he gave his only begotten Son..that’s the Best we could of gotten so when Satan tries to tell us he doesn’t care…point back to his best gift ever his Son Jesus!

  40. Lisa Everett says:

    Thanks for the reminder that in one Holy instant, I can turn within and say “Help”, regardless of how big or small my physical, emotional, spiritual (!) discomfort is, and the flood of peace that immediately comes is the answer. In that moment, anxiety is lifted, my heart is lifted. I am lifted. And ready, as they say, “To face the world with dazzling smile!”.

    Blessings, Lisa

  41. About 3years ago, i started experiencing very bad pelvic pain of unknown origin. I went to different doctors of which they all said it was the same thing endometriosis. Through the past 3 yrs i have endured pain with no successful treatment yet. I was recently prescribed a new medication which i am praying that it works. I thank God for giving me prayerful friends who have stood by my side and prayed for me. I have another friend who has lupus and has had major health issues. We have been there for one another and encouraged each other in the Lord. My sickness has made me know God and trust him even more. I believe God drew and my friend and I together for a reason. He is indeed our refuge and fortress, a pleasant help in time of trouble.I believe he will one day set us free from this bondage of sickness. In him we find renewed hope..Thank you for this encouraging post..

  42. This was beautifully written, and I was just about sitting on the edge of my seat in anticipation of how you were doing. Wonderful connection made between our needing help and it being there for us at the end of a phone call or in answer to prayer–sometimes, from experience, even before we say that prayer for help!

  43. This past fall series of circumstances drug me under into the depths of depression, for the second time in my life. It was a dark, dark time and I didn’t want to admit that I was back in the same place, and needed help…again. However God encouraged me to fight. And so I did. I sought after him furiously, for my very life…and He directed me to set about myself a prayer wall, like Nehemiah did around Jerusalem, in the Bible. Seven trusted girlfriends became my wall–and faithfully prayed me to a better place over the course of one month. In this time, God led me to an expert in supplementation for mental health, and in a month’s time TO THE DAY, I felt 97% better–back to myself again. The Lord led me back into the light. To Him be all the glory!! (To read my whole story of healing, please visit my blog: http://www.lesliemariebauer.com, and click on my testimonies on the top menu bar.)

  44. I hope Kristy or anyone else struggling with waiting on God’s timing reads this. My family was very broken (still has some pieces scattered). I’m in my late 20’s and my dad just passed away two weeks ago. I struggled with resentment for how he let himself go and how he settled for poor health and not trying to change anything. He never reached out to me the past 8 years like I wanted my father too- so thankful for our Heavenly Father who doesn’t break promises and cherishes each and every one of his children. My dad died the day before my older sisters birthday- we lost touch when I was in 8th grade due to deep family issues. We have reconnected and I have met four beautiful nieces. I lost precious time with them but I’m so thankful that they are still young with innocent and full love that doesn’t care where I was the rest of their lives. They just embrace me now! God works in mysterious ways and his timing is beyond our comprehension. I’m still praying hard that he restores my mom’s relationship with my older sister. But I’m at least thankful that it is at the point where I can be open and honest that I refuse to lose any more time with my sister and beautiful nieces! I pray that my mom will also want to get to know them, but I also know that God has been working on my heart and ability to forgive and love fully for a few years. I have not been so happy as I have been these past few weeks experiencing this restoration. I finally gave that situation to God a few months ago even though it was something I thought was beyond repair. But our God is almighty and all powerful!

  45. Courtney says:

    When I was in labor with my second child, I had to wait a significant amount of time for the epidural. During that time, God was very present, helping to keep me calm and breathe through the contractions. He is an ever present help in time of need. He comforts us, heals us, gives us new life and fills our lungs with His breath. When we are weak He carries us and when we fall down, He picks us up and gently dusts off our knees. What an awesome God we serve!

  46. ‘A hostile world! I called to God,
    to my God I cried out.
    From his palace he heard me call;
    my cry brought me right into his presence –
    a private audience!’ (v.7, MSG).

  47. I love hearing about how God’s Mercy and Grace has been extended to those who have called on His name. At the very least I am assured that there is indeed a God. God so it would seem has turned His face from me – and taken His Grace! Asking for help has only further alienated me from people and His presence that I can only surmize that God has left me to go this alone. I have read – searched His word, reached out only to find there is no hope and no God! Or at least the God you know. My husband died suddenly in 2012, I returned home from work to find him dead in my home, speaking with him only moments beforehand. My immediate response was to “look up” and trust God and while I believed at the time that God immediately met me in that hour – it is the last time I’ve seen Him during this horrific time in my life! For everything that could go wrong … It has! And for everytime I have petiitioned God – He is nowhere to be found! Sinking further into despair, and continuing to seek His face – His Grace, I find I am still alone.
    I have nothing but my faith – literally, I always believed in a soverent God, understood that seasons in our lives were designed for pruning, and to exercise our faith muscle – but I’ll be honest I am weary 3 years out! My hope has diminshed and I fight against the thought that God just doesn’t care! That perhaps the promise He whispered into my heart, the night my husband died was just wishful thinking on my part …

  48. Thank u in so use to dealing with my own problems that I don’t want help when I need it lord I’m telling you I need you help

  49. Brenda Manning says:

    Jesus was fully present with me in the hospital when I was in labor ready to have our third son. My mother was with me throughout the two previous pregnancies and it was so great, she was such a great coach I wanted no other, but when I lost her before my third pregnancy I didn’t know how to be without her, I felt so alone and lost, she knew what to tell me, she knew how to pray for me, she knew how to get me through the hard times in my life and now, it was just me, and my husband, and our older boys, and just me. I learned a hard and necessary lesson that year, I had to learn to rely on God in everything, there was that divine purpose in this hardship, to truly and personally get to know my God. Jesus was there in the delivery room with me, He became my coach and all that I needed that painful and wonderful day He blessed us with our third son, Joshua. I now will have no other coach in my life, but Jesus, not just in the delivery room, but in my daily life.

  50. So many examples from my life where God showed up JIT: the time I needed $200 to pay federal income taxes and I got a promotion, trained and worked a shift just in time to be able to cash my paycheck and write out a check the night before income taxes were due. The time I needed a job, was out of money and a friend called out of the blue just in time and offered me a job. The time I needed gasoline to take my Mom to the doctor the next day, I prayed and a friend called at 9:30 p.m. and said, “I just had a thought: would you like me to gas up your car?” The time I was out of work for nine months, had no more compensation to draw on and just in time, on the very last day, I got a job offer and started the next day. God is a sure and present help. Amen and God bless.

  51. Christin says:

    The day of my dad’s funeral, I’d gotten up early & decided to go get coffee for everyone (& maybe a treat for myself). The server at the kolache & coffee shop was extra super awesome, & when I glanced at his name tag, I almost came undone. His name was Jesus. We live in Houston, so it isn’t an uncommon name, but on this day, the day we were saying goodbye to my dad, Jesus made me kolaches & served me coffee. Just remembering that still chokes me up. I love it when God shows up like that!

  52. Katie Skurski says:

    God came to help me today when I thought I could do it all by myself. He sent a neighbor to help get my son off the bus and give the bus driver our end of year card and gift. All while I ran home to address a work emergency that I caused by rushing. God also sent an incredibly helpful and understanding partner to help address the work issue. Praise Him for always helping us even when we are so stubbornly trying to do it all.

  53. God IS with you when you think you don’t need Him, even when you are not aware of needing Him…

    Anxiety – the invisible illness. I had my first anxiety attack on August 20, 2013. I was in my son’s hospital room; him having just come out of knee surgery. He was 12 at the time. As I was watching him come off of the anesthesia, shaking badly from the effects, I all of a sudden felt hot, and panicky, and felt the room closing in on me. Next thing I knew I was being physically ill, and blacked out for a few minutes. I was quite embarrassed by it all.
    My next massive panic attack came on November 26 of the same year. I had just taken my kiddos to school, and had a sense of unease all morning. By the time I reached home, I was sobbing and physically ill, and couldn’t make sense of anything. It was so bad I had to call my husband to come home from work, and he works almost 40 miles from where we live!
    I preface what happened to me because before these two major panic attacks, and many mild ones in between, I was the type of self-confident woman that when tough times came my way I would suck it up, deal with the issue, and move on. But on November 26, 2013, the Lord brought me to my knees and said “Not any more. Whether you realize it or not you need Me.”
    Because of other issues I had dealt with in my life growing up (VERY dysfunctional family) I had become an emotional desert. I had empathy for no one, because I felt that if I could deal with problems, so should everyone else. Suck it up, deal with it, move on. Little did I know that I should have reached out for help when I had problems. Little did I know that in doing so, I would have been more empathetic to others that were having problems.
    I never once asked why I was dealing with an invisible illness. An illness that doesn’t come with a cast or bandages or anything so that others know you are sick. What I did ask was “What do you want me to learn from this, Lord?” In the days and weeks and year or so that has passed what I have learned is that I am to depend on God for everything: my strength, my emotional well being, my compassion. I had gotten to a point where I wasn’t even able to have compassion for the pain my own children were in sometimes. My old motto “Suck it up, deal with it, move on”.
    It has not been an easy road. There were days where I felt like I could not go on, and would be on my knees sobbing and asking God to take this burden from me. And each time, the burden would get a little easier to bear. Am I 100% fully healed? No, and I hope I never will be. Because to be 100% healed would be to forget just how much I need to depend on God for my strength, peace and comfort. Every day is a gift now. Every day is a new reminder to look at the people I come into contact with and pray for them; that whatever is going on in their lives, God would be there for them and provide. “Now my motto is “What is going on in my life (your life) and how can God help?”
    I pray with all my heart that this helps others who are dealing with anxiety. It is nothing to be ashamed of. It is an opportunity to rely on God and others for help and guidance.

  54. Anita kuhlman says:

    Teresa

    Please don’t give up. God has a plan for you even if it is in His timing. I find that when I feel burdened and forgotten and start letting that take over my thoughts, things actually get worse. Until someone or something like devotionals from provb31 email comes along (I believe God sent) to remind me I’m not alone and to just “let go and let God”. I remember the patience of Job. It’s important to read the bible and keep praying-God is listening and He will answer you. Life is tough but believe Jesus when he tells you he is carrying you and he will not abandon you. I will be praying daily for you too.

  55. Jaime Harman says:

    When my sister passed away I felt like nothing in this world would ever be okay again. She was only nineteen. She was my best friend, my confidant, aunt to my baby, she hadn’t even started her own family yet. It was heartbreaking. I had always considered myself a Christian and read Bible studies and devotionals, but had never really studied God’s word. A couple of days after her death I was alone and and weeping and crying out to God to please help me. Please help me make sense of it, help me to know that she’s okay. For the first time in a long time I opened God’s word in search of comfort and God gave it to me. He let me know that she was in Heaven and she was okay. I opened my Bible to the words of the Lord that said “he who believes in me shall live, even though he may die”. I have experienced God’s help many times since then. Before my sister’s death I couldn’t understand God being a fortress and refuge, but now I know. I encourage anyone who is struggling to cry out to God and let him comfort you with his LIVING word.

    • I’m sorry for your loss of your sister, Jaime. God is so comforting, He is so close to the brokenhearted. His Word is so refreshing and comforting. God bless you and your family.

  56. We lost our daughter, our only child, nine years ago on Valentine’s Day in a tragic car accident. She left her dorm to deliver a gift, a blanket she had made for her boyfriend. She was a godly girl with a heart full of Jesus & was studying to be a medical missionary. We were absolutely devastated. There were no good-byes as she went instantly into His arms. I begged and pleaded for all of it to be a dream, that God would raise her up like Lazurus. For 6 months I say in a chair in shock. I can’t tell you what happened during that time. For years and still a lot today, I have isolated myself. I’ve been on the floor crying and screaming at the top of my lungs asking God “why my girl”. I had a great career and was doing well when I totally lost interest and couldn’t function. I called my director and left my job. Financially it has wrecked us, barely getting by. Physically it has ruined my health. It’s so embarrassing to admit my lack of caring for myself. My once great smile is no longer, my teeth are actually rotting out of my mouth. My diabetes is out of control, peptic ulcer disease, etc. Trying to get my teeth fixed with crowns and implants and it’s so expensive. We have been members of a large church for years and they really loved on us, they loved our daughter. After a time I felt abandoned because I couldn’t hide my grief. It’s probably my own perception because how do people continue to support someone who seems unsupportable? One day a within the first year I was coming home from my daughters gravesite and I was screaming mad yelling at God, calling for my daughter when suddenly I got quiet and the Holy Spirit came to me and said “Do you think I’d give you something so beautiful that I would leave you with no joy?” I believe he will give me that Joy in His timing and I’m so impatient. In times of a total desire of not wanting to go on. God held my little finger. I say that because I was trying to let go of Him but because I was saved by the blood of Jesus, he just wouldn’t let go. I was going so low but he still held me by that little finger and that’s enough. Please pray for my husband and me. We struggle with loneliness. We wanted 5 children and our daughter wanted a houseful too. We always knew our daughter was a gift and never forgot that. We thank God for her 20 years in our care. God wanted her back. There will be no grandchildren for us and that hurts our hearts. During her Celebration Service, over 1000 people paid their respects. Thirty three people were saved that Friday, praise the Lord! We have two church services on Sunday and it’s televised, our Pastor spoke of her life. There were around 30 people in each service that came to Jesus or rededicated their lives, We heard from people all over the country who were touched by her life. This is the very first time I’ve written this whole story and I’ve wanted to share for so long. I don’t know what compelled me to write this other than the hand of Jesus still guiding my hand. When I look back at the past 9 years I can see the good that came from her home-going. Almost 100 people committed to Jesus in three days and we’ve heard of many many more from our church family, family and friends. How that fills our souls! Perhaps our girl got to be the missionary she wanted to be. Please pray for us in every way. This is the first time I’ve even read this blog and I felt true Christian love pouring from your hearts and it touched me deeply. Bless you all on your journeys.

    • I’m so sorry for your loss of your daughter. May the Lord bring deep healing to you and your husband. I know the only One who can truly feel the depth of the pain with you is the Lord God Almighty. He is so close. Keep crying out to Him. He knows your pain and He feels it with you. Praise God for the gift of eternal life through Jesus Christ. This life is like a vapor and then we all who are in Christ will live eternally, praising Him and seeing loved ones again. I hope that gives you some hope knowing that. Thanks for sharing your heart. If you want to listen to a comforting song that my husband wrote based on the same Bible verse above, Isaiah 41:10, “Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you..”
      it is here:
      http://facinggoliath.org/listen-to-closer-still
      (just click on the arrow when you get there, sweet friend).

    • Janet Price says:

      Oh Lynn, I struggle to type through the tears. Reading of your great loss and the long and painful journey you’ve been on– makes me realize how insignificant my “troubles” are. Thank you for sharing with us and I thank God that you’ve leaned on Him throughout — through the anger, the tears, the sadness, the love. He’s always listening, you know. How it must grieve Him to watch His children hurting. I pray that you will continue to trust in Him, knowing that one day you’ll have the answers you seek and more importantly, you’ll hold your precious daughter again–and this time there’ll be no more goodbyes, no more tears and nothing but joy, forevermore. You said she loved the Lord and I know that she would want to see you happy again. I pray that day will come, sweet Lynn. You are loved with an everlasting love precious one.

  57. Jaime Harman says:

    Thank you so much for sharing that story Lynnr. I’m so sorry for your loss and pain. I watched my own mother struggle after my sister’s loss and it was terrible. I now have a daughter of my own and to try and imagine that loss is painful. I pray that God will help you and your husband through this time. I struggled to understand the death of my sister, but seeing the lives that were changed and effected that wouldn’t have been otherwise has been very encouraging. My sister was also on a rocky road with her relationship with God and this was the first time in her life that she’d opened her heart a short time before she died. My family and I have seen the good God has done through calling her home and that is amazing all that he has done through calling your sweet girl home. It helped my family to just remember that God says his thoughts and ways are higher than ours, and trust that. I pray that God be with you and see you through your pain.

  58. HOPE: As a new Christian I went through a time when I battled severe depression, insomnia, and bipolar. By God’s grace and renewal of my mind with His Word, I’m totally healed and free of those. Praise Jesus! It’s all about Him. I haven’t been on any medication for about 9 years or so. As long as I stay close to God, I have no symptoms~ I do have quiet time with Him each morning~ praying, repenting, reading His Word, journaling. One doctor over a decade ago told me probably be hospitalized every year if I didn’t stay on medicine. Nope, all I needed was God’s Word and the Great Physician – He is more than enough.

    FAITH: I had financial problems and lots of debt until I finally began tithing. Many say “I can’t afford to tithe” and I was one of those people. I had $27,000 in debt, and I could barely pay my bills and probably had less than $100 in savings. God prompted me to test Him (as He says in Malachi). I began tithing about 9 or 10 years ago. Wow! God just started doing things – too amazing for words to explain it all, but all that debt was paid off in 3.5 years and God provided so many blessings I cannot even name them all. Mostly closeness with Him and trust. Now we give in abundance and we are blessed in abundance, and I would be afraid not to tithe.

    LOVE: There was a couple times our marriage was more hard. Not too hard, just more conflicts. For me during those times, I realized I was maybe fearing my husband and loving him more than God. I often pray that David (my husband) and I will love God more than we love each other. We both spend our alone time with God each day which is the most important thing. And we pray together daily (yet that is not even as important as our alone time with Jesus).

  59. WE GO THRU MANY STAGES IN A LIFETIME—EACH HAS IT’S OWN JOYS, IT’S OWN PROBLEMS & CONCERNS—AN ESPECIALLY HARD PHASE FOR ME WAS AFTER A DIVORCE—–WHERE? WHAT? DO I DO NOW—–YOU GO OWN WITH EACH STEP, EACH MINUTE WITH YOUR EYES AND EARS—LOOKING AND LISTENING TO WHERE GOD WANTS YOU TO GO, OR TO IDO! DID I DO THAT, NO (WISH I HAD)! MY PATH WAS FULL OF THE LOSS THE DISAPPOINTMENT AND THE PAIN I FELT—-WE BOTH HAD FAILED—-I KNOW I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR MARRIAGE OR LIFE, AND “I DIDN’T HOLD MY HAND TO GOD AND ASK FOR HELP! MY PATH WAS FULL OF ANGER, RESENTMENT, FRUSTRATIONS AND I FELT ALONE!! IF YOU FIND YOURSELF HERE, PLEASE DON’T TAKE AS LONG AS I DID TO FIND HELP IN OUR GOD ALMIGHTY—IN CHRISTIAN FRIENDS—CHRISTIAN COUNSLERS—–REACH OUT THAT HAD AND READ HIS WORD—-LISTEN!!!!—–LOOK!!!!!! HE WILL LEAD YOU, BUT ONLY IF YOU ARE WILLING!!!! I STILL FIND TIMES, I HOLD BACK FROM SOME IDEA OR THOUGHTS I KNOW GOD HAS SENT TO ME—SO OUR WORK IS NEVER DONE!!! OUR WORK TO LISTEN—TO GO —-TO DO—–WHAT “HE” HAS FOR US, WHICH ALWAYS OPENS A NEW DOOR—-PLEASE PRAY FOR ME AS I DO YOU, THAT WE WILL OPEN OUR HEARTS TO GOD”S WILL FOR EACH ONE!!! AMEN

  60. LYNNR— Thank you for sharing with all of us about your precious daughter–I too have one daughter, I have always felt she was a gift from God——your experience has been a difficult journey—it is one I have feared, since I only have the one——-so please let me thank-you for sharing this moment of your life—and the blessing your daughter brought to so many!!!!! I think YOU have shown strength amid the hardship that most of us fear—loss!!!! You stay strong in the LORD, I know he walks beside you and I know he has many wonderful things still to come for you and your husband—because I hear you speak of him and I know you are a believer—my heart and prayer goes out to you for sharing—Thank- you so much—-you have help me in my life to cherish each moment—they aren’t always what we want, but we can be certain GOD has a plan for each, we must strive to do HIS WILL!! I know HE leads us!!! Thank-you so very much, may GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU AND YOUR WITH HIS GENTLE HAND!!!!

  61. today i was praying an really didnt kno what to pray so i said over an over holy spirit pray for us an then god spoke to my heart an told me to pray for housing i am homeless right now so that was right on time for me ladies just kno that if you dont kno what to pray for ask god an he will help you.

  62. God gave me my dream job he gave me favour at work I was promoted within a year and made a lot of money but sadly I became selfish, I refuse to help others and seldomly went to church, now I have lost my job I feel like a complete failure I am extremely depressed I feel like I have no purpose without a job, I feel far from God will he trust me with another job will he forgive my behaviorI cant hear his voice please pray for me Im so confused.

    • Yvette, take heart. You’re not a failure. We all make mistakes. God is still in the miracle business, and as long as you’re alive, you have a purpose. God gives us second, and third, and fourth chances. I recently read a good book by Dr. Tony Evans called, “God’s Unlikely Pathway to Success”. In the book, he talks about how God still used the Bible heroes like Moses. He was a murderer, but God gave him a second chance to lead the Israelites. I don’t know you, but I bet you’re not a murderer. lol Even if you have murdered someone He could still use you. Peter denied Christ 3 times, but Jesus still called him the “Rock.” My prayers are with you! Read in the Psalms, they’re encouraging. King David was a man after God’s own heart like you’re a woman after God’s own heart, yet he still had his struggles, too. Just know that you are precious to God and He loves you very much. He will never leave you or forsake you. Love you much!

      • Thank you for your words of encouragement through Gods grace I was offered a job today I pray I will never forget that everything I have comes from the Lord, your words made me pick my head up and continue to press forward, I feel Gods forgiveness and love all around me.

  63. I am chronic worrier. My worrying has brought me a lot of stress, anxiety, panic attacks, and it was affecting my health. My hair was falling out and with other health problems. I tried everything exercise, yoga, meditation, even talking to a counselor. Nothing worked. I started praying which I haven’t done in awhile. I just prayed for help. Then out of chance I clicked on an Instagram link to Godlife and it just talked about Jesus and how he was answer to all my problems. I used to go to church as a child but stopped long ago. The website suggested that I start reading the New Testament to start my walk in faith. After reading the synoptic gospels, I came to realization that I was living my life completely the wrong way. So I confessed my sins to Him and to my husband. After experiencing true repentance for the very first time I felt like a weight was raised up high and I felt free. Well forgiven and free. Yes I still worry and stress but the difference is now I know that I am not alone in my struggles The Lord is with me every step of the way. I pray that we always remember that no matter we have Jesus and that’s all that matters.

    God bless!

  64. I too am going through a crisis in my life. My youngest son and his wife no longer want a releationship with me. They have made it very clear through a letter from an attorney that I may not contact them, come to their home, or church. You must think I have done something horrible to them. I have no idea, because this came out of no where. No argument, harsh words, nothing. This means I cannot see my granddaughters that I love with all my heart. I actually love all of them with all my heart. I have tried so hard to be a good mother-in-law. Nothing I ever do is right. But they won’t tell me what they are upset about, they just give me the silent treatment when I have displeased them. We are all Christians! I have cried out to God to help me! I know God’s timing is perfect and we must wait on the Lord. I know there is a lesson being taught, but how can things be fixed if I don’t know what’s broken? I am afraid to contact them for fear of geting into more trouble. I don’t want my other son to interveine because I don’t want others to be involved in whatever this is. I feel SO MISERABLE not knowing whats happening and why this is happening to me. If someone told me this would have happened to us I wouldn’t have believed anything like this could ever happen but it did. Please pray for me. Pray that I will not let anger or resentment guide my actions. Pray that God will heal this mess. Pray that my sweet son will feel my love and know how he has hurt his mother, and my d-i-law will know I love her too. As broken as I feel I just want to do what God wants me to do.

  65. Through many difficulties at my workplace, where I was repeatedly treated with disdain and utter disrespect by a supervisor, I finally went to my knees in desperation, asking God to show me how to pray, and to intervene. I begged Him to help me make it through the day(s), and my mantra became “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”. I asked Him to show me the ways I can do things differently, to respond in healthy ways…. As I poured out my heart to Him and opened myself to trust and (eventually) calm, I learned to pray for Him to heal my emotional wounds, as well as those of my supervisor. I started realizing ways I could “be” what I was praying for. To sum it up: God’s ways are amazing. I learned and grew so much I that time, and I experience His faithfulness in so many ways I can’t help but be gratefully in awe.

  66. Priscilla Wyndham says:

    With quite a few decades behind me, I can certainly admit, and recall, many, many times I have desperately needed help, and would know to turn to God. I believe I can also admit, and recall, many, many times I wondered if He heard me, did He care, etc. Please understand, if you are going through anything that you need help, He will answer, but not according to your schedule, but according only to His will. This is the most difficult thing to learn, as a new Christian, and even difficult sometimes for us “old timers”. But, please do this……the rewards are priceless.

  67. Kristi A. says:

    I am extremely broken and desperately need prayer and encouragement. Most days, I’m strong and can keep my head up (typically I suppress my feelings about my situation to get through each day). Although not proven… I have never been positive that my husband has ever been fully faithful. My husband and I married after we found out that I was pregnant. We had been dating for about five years when we found out. Looking back, he never proposed to me and I struggle with the fact that I feel like I forced him to marry me because I thought that was the “right” thing to do. Through my pregnancy he never came home at least 2-3 nights a week and was consistently verbally abusive. To date he still “goes out” 2 nights every week. Shortly after Greyson was born, there were two instances of physical abuse as well. Still praying for my child and family, I kept my head up and have been consistently praying towards a brighter future. Our son was born 3 1/2 years ago with a severe genetic disorder that neither one of us knew existed in our families. Every day is a struggle with our son. I feel that our marriage now is 100% because of the daily trials and struggles we have with our sweet little boy. I struggle internally and feel very angry most of the time because I can’t understand why all of this has been allowed to happened. I can’t “leave” someone who I’m fairly certain is unfaithful as well as verbally/formally physically abusive, because I need SO much help with Greyson. I also pay all of our bills and $100’s for Greyson to have various therapies in hopes that he will have a chance for a stronger future. I cannot juggle a well paying career as well as manage the daily tasks of a special needs child alone. I would gladly give up all that my job provides, if I didn’t need it so much to pay for everything that is needed for Greyson. I pray and cry out daily for God to save Greyson and make him his current healing miracle. I have also come to grips with the fact that I don’t really “need” for him to give me a loving husband as long as my child’s future isn’t filled with struggle and pain. I daily feel that God has forgotten me and that I’m not worthy to have a life filled with peace and happiness. I also struggle with the thoughts that I somehow deserve this for not being as focused on God as I should have been my whole life. I’m just lost… I’m scared to ask God and pray for anything regarding me and my own happiness, because the only thing that I really want is for my 3 1/2 year old son to walk, talk, and be able to have a normal life without struggle himself. I can suppress the wounds of an abusive, non-loving husband. It hurts, but I can learn to survive that piece. I just want God to help my son and not constantly remind me everyday (as I struggle with daily battles with Greyson) that I made a poor choice in the person that I chose to date. My husband is wonderful at loving our son and helping with him, so I am very grateful for that. I grew up without a dad (losing him mentally to a brain tumor that also left him severely handicapped), so I’m very thankful to God that he’s provided Greyson with a dad that he’ll know. I know that my husband hates and despises me. I’ve come to grips with that piece of my life as long as he just continues to love our sweet Greyson. I just need things to get better. I understand struggling is normal, but I just need relief from so many negative things occurring in my life. I’m not a bad person (I don’t think). My friends (the few that I have because I don’t have time to spend time with other women or be there for others due to the daily demands of caring for Greyson) would describe me as a selfless, “happy” and “positive” person. I just need God to provide me with an end to some of the things in my life that are truly destroying me. Thank you for letting me pour my heart out all of you. I’m sorry for the long post.

  68. Sometimes we get so afraid, but we must truly remember His Words: Fear not for I (Jesus, Lord, Holy Spirit ) is with you. He us with us and we have Him in us. God is GREAT and nothing can compare to HIS VA ST POWER LOVE PROTECTION AND MIGHT.

  69. I want you to know that God is REAL.
    For six years of my life I was on heavy prescription drugs for anxiety and depression.
    It has been 3 years since Jesus healed me.
    May 2013 I renounced bi-polar depression. It is something that family members struggle with.
    I did not immediately notice a difference in my self. Until about 2 weeks after, one day I forgot to take my meds. I suddenly realize that I was NOT anxious. I looked at the sky and could not believe how blue it was. The leaves of the trees were the prettiest green. I then remembered that I had renounced bi-polar in Jesus name.
    I could not believe how well a person could feel.
    I love being a mom and a wife. I love life. So happy.
    Since I have had so much healing in my life my marriage and in my children.
    Jesus is real.

  70. This is good. Thank you !!! I have been going through a lot with my children lately and I have needed help and I have not asked due to feeling like a failure. My children are high maintenance ….. I do not mean that bad it’s just true. They have been through a lot and have health problems too. Although I ask Father / Abba for help I do not always a accept it. I feel unworthy and I should not. I need help to keep being mom! So this is much appreciated. .I’m not God .

  71. Kristi. …ask God for help…he is there….read his word….he wants to help you as much as he does your son and husband. There is nothing to big or our God! He loves you and your family so much…be encouraged and know how greAt Gods love is for you!

  72. When my brother committed suicide. I was trying to take care of our elderly and heartbroken mother, trying to help my nieces deal with the loss of their dad, and trying to understand. I had nothing left in me one night, and said that to Jesus. He answered – praise God – and got us all through those very rough and sad days. He provided His healing.

  73. i want to give thanks to my dr and i will always give thanks to DR OGUDUDU who brought back my love that has left me for 6years within 48hours, i have said about this last week but i promised to always tell people about this every week end so that those that did not read about it last week will read about it this week, i have been looking for how to get this boy back to my life because i love this boy with the whole of my heart, i could not replace him with any body,one day i was watching my television when i saw a lady giving thanks to DR OGUDUDU and telling the world how he helped her i was so shocked i could not believe it because i never taught that there are powers that can bring back lost love, then that was how i decided to contact him too because i do really need my love back,when i contacted him i told him everything and he told me not to worry that my love will surely be back to my arms within 48hours at first i could not believe because i was thinking how could somebody that

  74. I suffer from major recurrent depression and have had several occasions where thought of suicide plagued my mind. Almost 14 years ago, I was up all night doing the only thing I knew in my heart to do – I cried out to God for help, then I would start singing the praise and worship songs that came to my mind. God carried me through that night and many like it, but then placed me at home by noon on a Friday when an appointment I had was cancelled. To my horror, I heard someone kicking my door, I ran to look through the peep hole and saw my neighbor laying on the ground bleeding. I have never been in a situation like that before, I told him I would be right back. I grabbed my phone and a plush beach towel and out the door I went. I had to ask where he was bleeding from – he had slit his wrist. I wrapped the towel around his writs and put my knee on there to apply pressure as I was talking to the 911 operator. That day, God showed me what family and friends would go through if I went through with killing myself.
    after loading him on the gurney, the paramedics stopped so he could see me, he thanked me profusely for saving him and I was thinking God for allowing me to be there.
    My neighbor felt like no one cared, he felt like he was a bad person and this was his only way out. I told him, I couldn’t imagine what had happened to make him feel that way, but it couldn’t be further from the truth. I told him I knew it was God’s plan for me to be there to help him, and that God did not make mistakes. I told him there was absolutely NOTHING in this world worth taking his life over, NOTHING. Later, that evening comes a knock at my door, it was his friends, they were thinking me for saving him, I told them to thank God, because God is the reason I was at home, when someone needed me.

    When I had my second round with suicidal thoughts, I went home and hit my knees and started to pray. There is one lesson I learned through this, God will never leave me, nor forsake. When I feel I am all alone, and there is no light on the horizon, God gently reminds me, He is there.

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