I was 7 years old. I loved my family and my home. I don’t recall having any fears at the time. People used to say they loved my laugh.
Then one day, the laughter stopped.
Fear, shame, loneliness and unworthiness entered my world. And I didn’t tell anyone.
I was sexually abused by a trusted adult neighbor. Not once. Not twice. But on several occasions.
It wasn’t my fault — but I didn’t know that for years. I blamed myself. Once a confident child filled with joy, I was reduced to a scared, insecure nobody who assumed she wasn’t good enough for anything.
Looking back, one would think as I grew older that I could just move on, grow up and get over it. But that wasn’t the case.
So what do you do when you can’t get past your past?
That’s a good question isn’t it? I don’t think there’s a nice fool-proof plan for it, either. If there is and you have it, write a book, because it will be a best-seller!
I don’t have a plan for you if you are struggling with moving past your past, but I can offer you some hope.
God loves you. (John 3:16)
He has plans for your life. (Jeremiah 29:11)
You are worthy. (Luke 12:6-7)
You are beautiful. (Psalm 139:13-15)
He can use your life, all of it, for good. (Romans 8:28)
Believe me I know all of this to be true. My life hasn’t been one of those that others dream of having. There has been a lot of dirt in it. But one thing I’ve discovered to be true is that gold can be found in dirt. Yep. There is treasure in the dirt of your past. It might not feel good or seem like it, but it’s there … although sometimes we have to dig for it.
Today, you could say that I have indeed moved past my past. It’s the reason I’m in ministry. It’s the reason I love all people. And it’s the reason I’m so passionate about Bible study. The Bible is the only place I’ve found solid answers and truth I could count on to get me past my past and offer me real hope for my messed-up real life.
I love our next Online Bible Study. It’s Uninvited by Lysa TerKeurst. If you’ve ever felt less than, lonely, abandoned, lost or hopeless, this is one OBS you don’t want to skip. Friends are welcome, too! If you haven’t already, come on and sign up. Join me for this Bible study, OK? I’d be so happy if you did.
Uninvited will remind you that you were destined for a love that can never be diminished or shaken by ANYTHING or ANYONE. God’s love never un-invites. And you are invited. 🙂
What do you do when you can’t move past your past?
Where do you find hope?
Will you be joining us for our next Online Bible Study, Uninvited? (I hope so!)
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