Happy Friday, Friends! Can you BELIEVE it? We are already on the very last day of our Walk in Faith Bible study! What a joy and a privilege it’s been for us to learn and grow together with you all over these past five weeks! But just because our study is coming to an end does NOT mean our Walk in Faith journey is. That one will continue for a lifetime!
Speaking of a Walk in Faith journey, it’s time to check back in with Katrina Wylie to hear how God brought her to her own Resurrection Phase. Here she is:
An Only God Destination
“Some wandered in desert wastelands … Some sat in darkness, in utter darkness … Some became fools through their rebellious ways …” (Psalm 107:4a, 10a, 17a, NIV).
Oh, how I can relate to the “some” described here when it comes to the death phase of my #WalkInFaith!
Do you know what’s awesome though? None of these stories ended there!
When we read on in Psalm 107, we discover something so incredibly beautiful: “Then they cried out to the LORD in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress.” (Psalm 107:6 NIV)
Wow! What a faithful God we serve!! Even in our drifting …
Sitting on the couch, with the memory of the women’s church event (mentioned last week) flashing through my mind, God’s whispered words echoed in my heart once more, reawakening it to a future hope from Jeremiah 29:11 – “For I know THE plans I have for YOU …”
In response, I dropped to my knees and cried out to our God! All the desperation and bottled up shame I felt from my drifted thoughts and wayward ways over the last four years poured out from the depths, overflowing to the one and only who could redeem them. And after much praise, confession and prayer for help to LET IT ALL GO, I arrived at one final plea of my heart – one seemingly impossible and crazy prayer:
“God,” I whispered through my tears, “if it’s truly your plan I teach, write and speak, please bring me to a place where this can be brought to life. Somehow bring other women into my life who teach, write and speak Your Word. Lord, I can’t. But YOU can. Please make a way where there seems no way.”
Though an answer didn’t immediately come, this renewed beacon of hope shined through my darkness, lighting the way back to seeking strongly after God. And through that seeking, a pull in a new direction started to grow – one to get on Facebook and start a blog to share about Him, which I did begin to do. But, just as I excitedly and fearfully set up a blog, some unexpected news came – my mom, at only 58, went home to be with our Lord … and all the bitterness began calling to me from the depths once more …
He is truly so very good and faithful. Because He had provided and ignited the beacon of hope in my heart BEFORE I entered into what could’ve been the darkest leg of my journey yet, I didn’t drop anchor back into that sea of bitterness. Instead, the light of our Lord led me forward, drawing me closer to Him through it, moment by moment, day by difficult day.
Then, about four months later, He moved in another unexpected way. While scrolling mindlessly through my Facebook feed, three words caught my attention:
Let. It. Go.
This is just what I had prayed for help with!!
Stopping to check it out, I discovered it to be an invite to join an upcoming online Bible Study with Melissa Taylor on Karen Ehman’s book, Let. It. Go. Curious to learn more, I clicked the link, not at all expecting what it’d lead to.
As the page loaded, my eyes instantly fell on it – Jeremiah 29:11 typed out across the header of the blog! Instantly, tears flooded my eyes, spilling down my cheeks as once again, God pressed upon my heart: “THIS is the plan I have for YOU.”
I didn’t fully understand how, but GOD had answered my prayer!!
That was back in January of 2013, and everything God has done in my life through this ministry and these studies since has been nothing short of AMAZING resurrection indeed!! If you would’ve told me that day, back in my car when God led me to quit my job, it’d lead here – to being a daughter of God whose past debts have been erased, spiritually AND financially, and who gets to homeschool her beautiful, healthy daughter AND teach/write for #P31OBS, I NEVER would’ve believed you in a million years – truly an “only God” destination!!
Is everything now blissfully perfect? No. There are parts of my heart in need of mending and some dreams still feeling far off. BUT, as I wait, I am resting in awe of what has been resurrected and in the joy I’ve found through seeking and experiencing God in the everyday along the way. And it is my hope and prayer God has used something shared here in this study to encourage YOUR heart with this truth also:
If you, too, are finding yourself in a place of needing mending in your heart, well then I hope you’ll come along for our next study: The Mended Heart by Suzanne Eller. We launch June 22 and would love to continue to meet with you here!
Until then, I leave you with this hope to look forward to for your next “only God” destination:
“He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the sea were hushed. They were glad when it grew calm, and he guided them to their desired haven. Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for mankind.” Psalm 107:29-30 (NIV)
What is an “only God” destination you’ve experienced?
Which of the 5 #WalkInFaith phases do you currently relate to?