Oh. My. Mercy.
I just double checked and it REALLY is Friday! Y’all! I cannot believe we are already at the end of week 2 of our #WalkInFaith study!
You know what Friday’s mean here on the #P31OBS blog for Walk In Faith!?!? It means that our FABULOUS Katrina Wylie is here to share more of her Walk In Faith story.
I don’t know about you, but I have been on the EDGE of my seat all week waiting to hear what happens next!
So without further adieu, here is Katrina … sharing with us the Famine Phase of her story.
A Truth Compass for Navigating Uncertain Seas
Have you ever been to a “now what” place in your life? You know that place where your footing feels unsure because everything lying before you is uncertain. It is a TOUGH place. But it is exactly where God needs us to be to truly learn to #WalkInFaith and it is just where I found myself after leaving my job behind …
The sun came streaming through the window, beckoning my eyes to open. Only I didn’t want to open my eyes. That would mean having to face the reality of the shaky ground my feet now met every time they hit the floor.
It had been a month and a half since leaving my job – six whole weeks of having no clue what my “now what” was. I had talked with recruiters, filled out apps, even set up interviews, but I couldn’t bring myself to follow through with a single one. Every time I tried to sail back to that safe shoreline to arrange my next comfy, beach dwelling zone, all the peace that had flooded my heart when I declared “Yes, Lord” to leaving my job, came spilling back out!
Yes, God made it all too clear that I was NOT to go back down that path, but what He wasn’t making clear was what to do instead. And this burned in my mind and haunted my heart.
Day after day, week after week, I cried out, “NOW WHAT, GOD?!” because we needed an income and we needed it NOW!! But, to my discomfort, only one answer came – TRUST – the ONE word I struggled with most.
You see, there had been a strong sense of pride I carried most my life and in the status of my job. I was Katrina, the self-reliant, take-charge, think it, plan it, do it manager … except now I wasn’t. Now I was just Katrina … with silly dots after my name … that felt like they led nowhere!!
On one hand, I’d never felt so free! But on the other I never felt more lost. Everything I had come to know so well was stripped away, leaving me feeling bare … naked … exposed. I didn’t know how to be THIS Katrina … I didn’t know how to follow and depend on God.
But as I lay there in my bed, tormented by the thought of navigating these uncertain seas another day, I remembered today DID have a direction – a small one, but a purpose nonetheless. I had planned to check out a new Christian store a friend had mentioned. While going didn’t really make sense (it’s not like I could buy anything), the thought of it wouldn’t leave my mind, so I got up and went.
Walking into the store, I instantly felt the presence and peace of God wash over me. After glancing around I made my way to a rack of smaller items that were friendlier to a “no-income” budget. Then, spinning the rack around, my eyes fell on it – a key chain with THE word in big bold letters – TRUST. Reaching out and picking it up, I turned it over in my hand to see what was on the back. It read:
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” – Proverbs 3:5-6
The word “HIS” in “Seek his will” jumped out at me, colliding with my heart and impressing upon it: “All your confusion and conflict is because you said ‘Yes, Lord’ to leaving your job, but you haven’t said ‘Yes, Lord’ to trusting Him with your ‘now what.’ You’re still trying to navigate.”
But standing there in that spot, in that store, a shift took place. I made a decision to let go of my need to know and control – a decision to hand over the helm to my future. And even though I still couldn’t see the details of the “now what” on the horizon, I did now have a “now what” to cling to – God and His Word! Yep, Proverbs 3:5-6 became the guide to my every “now what” I sailed into – a truth compass for navigating uncertain seas!
Do you have a verse that has helped you through a “now what” place in your life?
What’s one thing you learned, either through a famine phase of your own or in the study this week, that has encouraged you?
Your comments are such an encouragement to us. We would love to hear from you!