Happy New Year everyone!
I'm Anna Currin, one of your study leaders for our It's Not Supposed to Be This Way P31 OBS.
As I sit here typing, my mind keeps drifting to the many times I've uttered those exact words when reading the latest headline, and in response to my personal circumstances. And if I'm not careful, those disappointments of life can start to build up, creating clutter in my heart and mind.
But as we ring in the New Year, clutter is often the thing we work to get rid of — decluttering the closet, pantry, garage — all in hopes of making room for a more stress-free year. So why not do some decluttering of our disappointments and the way they run our thoughts, too?
One of my most recent It's Not Supposed to Be This Way moments started around two years ago. My husband and I were thrilled to find out we were expecting our third child. However, very soon after we lost that child. And it was hard. But I knew we'd quickly try again in hopes of bringing joy in the midst of sadness.
Fast forward through a year of tests, procedures and more negative pregnancy tests than I can count, and still no baby. The doctor told us I had unknown infertility. This was not what I had planned or how I imagined things would go. My heart desired another baby. Didn't God want that too?
The disappointments piled up, hijacking my thoughts and time. And it was at that point I knew I had to declutter my mind and redirect my focus on God and His promises. While He did not promise me another child, He did promise me the desires of my heart (Psalm 37:4).
It took a lot of prayer and honest words from loved ones to realize my heart's current desires were what I thought was best for my life. But by the grace of God I was able to get to a place where my desires re-aligned with His, wanting whatever He had planned for me, even if it meant no more children.
Two months ago we welcomed another daughter into the world. And through all of that, I've come to learn this lesson Lysa TerKeurst writes about in It's Not Supposed to Be This Way :
"We must walk through God's process before we see His fulfilled promise."
I'm so thankful for God blessing us with another child, but along with that I've developed a deep gratitude for the process. If I hadn't gone through that process of decluttering all my disappointments from my infertility journey, I would've missed growing closer to God and my husband, not to mention gaining a deep compassion for women going through similar journeys.
You may not be able to relate to my story, but what about YOUR It's Not Supposed to Be This Way circumstance(s)? I can't think of a better way to start the New Year then spending six weeks walking alongside each other, learning and working to declutter our lives of the disappointments weighing us down, and instead embrace God's sovereignty.
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